Emo blog post is emo

ok, blog post #2.

life is slow, starting my second semester of college. trying to work on some MTG art banners, and mildly failing at it Slant

also, i'm becoming more and more obsessive over the thought of my ex-gf. i just can't get her out of my head. whenever i'm not focused on something and let my mind wander she comes up. i start thinking about how happy i used to be, how i used to smile, and how i used to like life. genuinely. now i wander between ok mood, to emo depressive past thoughts, to self evaluating crying session. i just can't seem to bring myself to be happy. when i used to be with her. when life was truly happy, liveable, and genuinely good. how far i've fallen, how far down i've gone.... i can't seem to let this one go. even worse, from what i can tell of talking to her, she's not looking back for me at all. last time i talked to her (IM) she talked about a new guy she's liked for a long time, and how she longs to be with him. but can't because he's a military guy. *sigh

and so my mood and self-esteem continue to plummet. but i doubt anyone will read my blog, or especially this far so this might all be a mute point.

and if anyone reads this and cares/wants to know. i'm not unemotional. this post should tell that. also Crying

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SGT_Chubbz
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Posted Feb 2, 2010
I wish this thing told me about when comments were posted, a notification would be nice >.>.

it's not so bad now, that one day was just really bad. i had to much free time, and was in a bad mood and it just progressed into a worse and sadder mood. lately it's been better, but i still have spouts, trying to cling to my past, while knowing it won't be my future. i guess i just have trouble letting things go, but i'm working on it. slowly getting better. slowly learning, growing.

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Posted Jan 18, 2010
You need to take a step back and look at this thing is perspective. Breakups can be difficult, but if you keep thinking about how great your ex was, then the situation will only get worse as you will continue to reinforce the idea in your mind that she IS happiness and a life without her is misery. Realistically, break ups can sometimes get easier as you then meet another girl and all of a sudden don't really care that things ended with the first one. Continueing to obsess really gets you no where and if she has moved on, which she should have, then you should move on too. I imagine the feeling of your mind being controlled by someone who has no interest in you anymore should not be something you desire so don't let it. Focus on other things in life and try to view the situation from another person's perspective or an objective one. Hopefully that can allow you as days pass by to realize that you are only digging this emotional pit for yourself and that leaving memories behind is more than ok, its growing up and moving towards something better.

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Posted Jan 16, 2010
stay strong man.

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