Grand March, Fine, managed not to trip
Dance: fine aside from crappy rap music
Date: An Ex from early last year, pretty much was a standard as friends occasion up until the last song (slow dance) which ended with a kiss on the cheek, this had be wondering what was going on.
After Prom: Sleepover at the Ex's. everything seems 'just friends' still. somehow i get into a fight with her over her blanket, which i kidnap upstairs, she follows, and after kinda fighting, we end up kissing. neither of us say anything, then she grabs the blanket and goes back downstairs
generic sleepover = movie. Me and her cuddle on the couch. seems just like old times...to be next to someone and feel close to them :embarrass:. people start throwing pillows, someone hits her with one, and she grabs it, and hides under it. then to put it simply, we kinda hid behind it and made out....
which would be a good situation all things considered, if not for the fallout that followed after that. From what she said, she wasn't thinking that she had to move in 3 months to a town 3 hours away and she doesn't want long distance, which means "we" die with that night ._.
Umm, Spring Break started WooHoo. (note blatant sarcasm). Unlike most of the average college students i know, that will be flying to mexico or somewhere, getting wasted and ☺☺☺☺ing each other, i'll be here slowly slipping from boredom into insanity.
Still hesitant on making a Sig shop, mainly due to the amount of requests that come in looking at other shops. although i'm animations master for Kracked Graphics, I haven't got any work from there yet, mainly because people get sigs more than they get avatars. Maybe i'll get up the nerve to start one sometime.
I feel like a obsessive Psycho or something. For anyone who's been keeping up on these blogs, I still think of her. I dont' know if i really miss her anymore, or if it's just the last thing i remember to being loved. I don't mean the family thing. I mean someone who for who knows why likes and wants to be with you. Not friends. Like actually wants to know the real you. the one that has faults. the one that tells really bad puns and annoys the living crap out of most people. The real me.
Attention Troops! The barracks of SGT Chubbz is now open for soldier training! Troops Fall In!
SGT's Barracks is a great to place to kick back, talk smack, and just chill out. i'll also store random stuff here and probably post some Photoshopped stuff later. also this first post will get spruced up later with pics/better beginning description. Also first.
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Metathread? So you're saying my thread will evolve into a Butterthread? After using Harden and casting string shot on AI?
Ah, I see. I actually didn't click on it at all - usually I hover over links to see where they go, but this one has a tinyurl, and I actually feared the "never get out" part of it, and thus I never clicked it until now, just to find out.
this is a lame ass excuse for what my extendo was. this is bull☺☺☺☺. there i'm not evading the censor. like the extendos really hurt anyone. comapred to the overall size of the site, i doubt they really mattered. ☺☺☺☺ this.
ok, first on the way to school this morning going 40 on a highway, traffic slows way the f**** down, and as i try to slow down we (me and my bro) start to swerve. Thankfully we know how to counteract swerves (turn into the spin and turn to where you want to go, don't hit the brake or the gas) and managed to get out of it. I nearly **** myself. it would have been horrible. and with my parents they probably would have never let me drive in anything other than sunny weather again.
Reasons why minnesota sucks:
1.) snow. Snow. SNOW.
2.) no good bands ever come here.
3.) no good jos here either.
4.) nearly everyone is redneck/mildly stupid.
6.) no MTG events are here either.
7.) everyone is a bad winter driver, and winter consists of 10/6 of the year.
College continues to be a rather bland and boring endeavor. while i know it's necesary for my success and my field of work, it's still boring. The cisco networking academy takes every computer acronym it can find and drys it by taking any amount of interesting information out, with only technical jargon, and specifications
plus 1:50 class periods doesn't help. I'd rather hit myself with a whiffle ball bat for 3 hours.
life is slow, starting my second semester of college. trying to work on some MTG art banners, and mildly failing at it
also, i'm becoming more and more obsessive over the thought of my ex-gf. i just can't get her out of my head. whenever i'm not focused on something and let my mind wander she comes up. i start thinking about how happy i used to be, how i used to smile, and how i used to like life. genuinely. now i wander between ok mood, to emo depressive past thoughts, to self evaluating crying session. i just can't seem to bring myself to be happy. when i used to be with her. when life was truly happy, liveable, and genuinely good. how far i've fallen, how far down i've gone.... i can't seem to let this one go. even worse, from what i can tell of talking to her, she's not looking back for me at all. last time i talked to her (IM) she talked about a new guy she's liked for a long time, and how she longs to be with him. but can't because he's a military guy. *sigh
and so my mood and self-esteem continue to plummet. but i doubt anyone will read my blog, or especially this far so this might all be a mute point.
and if anyone reads this and cares/wants to know. i'm not unemotional. this post should tell that. also
mainly doing this as a break from the mind shattering eternity of outdated information that is the Cisco networking academy.
but anyway, on to the blogging!
ok, to start off i'm SGT Chubbz and apperantly your bored enough to read a blog. splendid. cuz i'm bored enough to write a blog. anway, i've got 5 finals all within the span of 4 days (tuesday to thursday of next week) and that sucks. to fill you in i'm a NA (network administration) major, and i'm a computer nerd. so yeah, mess with me and i'll hack you (and yes i know how, they taught me, because to prevent hacking you must know how :D).
other random stuff about me, 18, black hair, brown eyes, single >.>, i make puns, play magic, make programs on my TI-83 (yes the calculator), and game. i <3 halo 3 :rolleyes:.