Huzzah! ... actually, I'm only comin' back 'cause my "boyfriend" is going to be at a Magic tourney tomorrow... on that note, he might be my [ex-boyfriend], actually, but I don't really know. I just know I'm a lil' tired of this long distance relationship stuff. =/
I saw Coheed & Cambria and Avenged Sevenfold last week! While the show was cool, Co & Ca's set was ridiculously short, compared to the first time I saw them... same for A7X... both bands were good, though. But four and a half hours of standing around / waiting for three hours of music... not a fair ratio, I think.
May 25th will be my one year anniversary, working for Target. Depending on the "raise" I'm "supposed" to get, I'll either be stickin' around, or lookin' for another place to work. Is a buck too much to ask for? Especially, since every team lead labels me as "managerial position," and throws me anywhere they want and station me as 'head of department' when I'm in one... @_@
I finally got my own music recorded and uploaded somewhere accessible! While very much in the "holy crap, is that a guitar?" state, I want to share some material with the world. Here, my shameless plug of self-advertisement!
And my college term is almost over... on that note, congrats to everyone graduating this year! On the other hand, I'll be passin' all 16 units of this semester, gladly... then finally enjoying a term off from college, since I've been in and out of class rooms for about two years straight now. >=D
... and I have become slightly infatuated with the ideas and concepts behind revenge. Is that wrong?
Take care, everyone! Here's hopin' I can stay up and alive this time around... X_X
Sorry for my sudden absence, after attempting to become more active and involved. Life has brought about emo moments for me, so best not to go there. (That, and I haven't touched / played Magic in -[months]-, man...)
I'm quite a bit bigger than average, apparently... erm, ahem!
I listen to Megadeth, Coheed And Cambria, My Chemical Romance, Iron Maiden, Fall Out Boy, Goo Goo Dolls, Relient K, Metallica... to name a few of my musical interests. Not to mention my main influences, ooo!
Thinkin' of the -[chaser]- idea, I never thought of it that way, but I guess I could describe myself as an "Asian chaser"? Erm, probably not, heh... but somethin' 'bout anyone who looks remotely of that descent just gets bonus brownie points in my book... even more if they look small yet muscular, or just of similar frame to me, or something. Yeah... okay, I don't know what I want to say. (o.O)
I'd like to note that I'm almost done with my ridiculous obsession with Guitar Hero for the PS2, thank you. Should be 'fixed' by Friday.
I'm sellin' some Magic cards on eBay. I only mention it 'cause I always told myself to do it, and now I'm finally doing it. For some reason, I have a feeling I'm not gonna get much, and I really went about doing it the wrong way, but... yeah. Some Ravnica Birds and Guildpact Duals, if anyone's interested (*hides!*).
I just got into a car accident. My car is totalled pretty much, and so is the other one. No one got hurt past a few bruises, which really makes me happy because I was driving/responsible. Anyways, I'm pretty much really shooken up, so I might take a bit of a break from posting obviously for a bit.
Dang! Thank goodness ya came out all right, and that a few bruises is all that came from it. I hope there's some insurance and other coverage on the car, for 'additional safety' after all this? ... erm, and take that break, then. Hope you're feelin' right and well sooner than later, and that any bruises ya may have sustained are healed shortly.
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And just because it could be an interesting discussion and, well frankly, because self-pics of 'the finger' irritate me let me ask you, TJ... if: "It is better to believe that there is a God and be wrong than to believe that there is no God and be right."
Why?
Although not directed to me, I feel I'll take this opportunity to shamelessly advertise something related to this:
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What if I do get caught? What if there is no judgment? If I'm right, I lose nothing If you're right, I lose it all Oh, I oughta get caught Because I'm doin' something wicked I'm guilty, haunted by my fears And the only consequences Are dread and the fugitive mind
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"It's about judgment. The great paradox is if there isn't a God and you live your life like a good person, you haven't lost anything. If there is a God and you lived your life like a dirtbag, you're screwed. Basically what I'm saying is, 'What if there's no judgment?' I think a lot of times people have gotten up on the moral hilltop and yelled down to the masses down at the bottom of the valley about their spiritual superiority and it just alienates you." (Mustaine, 2001)
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As it goes, I happen to agree with this point of view. Yeah. ^^;; And although I've tried to be more "religious" in recent times, it's hard to turn towards a vision that ya neglected for most of your life... (and if anyone cares, the song is "Dread And The Fugitive Mind" by MEGADETH.)
Welcome, 2QT! ... which I kinda read as -[too cute]-, but maybe I'm mistaken.
I'm curious about everyone's occupation, and / or what ya guys do to put food on the table... erm... if you -[do]- put food on a table... 'cause, well, I work, but I don't? ... supply? ... okay, I'm confusing myself. MY MONEY! >=D
I'm just a simple "cashier" at Target... then again, they have me doin' whatever they need me for, since I'm trained in pretty much every department, so I'm more a utility personnel than anything. Just waitin' for my raise! ... which pops the next question, what do you guys think earns / rewards a raise?
Though I can't give much truth / statement to that question myself, I have this burning idea that I'd better complain / "riot" if I don't get a raise around my 'one year mark,' let alone start lookin' for a new job if I find the raise is insufficient... that said, this company is practically trying to promote me without increasing my pay grade, which is just... @#$%!!!!!
But yeah, all right. And hey, -[Paranoid]-, I'm able to do such things 'cause I don't get home till close to midnight almost every single night, as is. That, and most of my free time is spent near a computer, oddly and sadly enough... erm, yeah... yay? ^^;;
The only time I ever do any sort of texting is... when... sending photos / pics / images / snapshots / etc... or... when responding to a text message. It's five cents for every message I send or receive, 'cause it seems more effort than it's worth, in the long run, but yeah.
In unrelated news, FFX is most definately AWESHUM.
Indeed-io!
And for the other situation, I'll just chime in and state that, I suppose it's dependant on your character, personality, etc. For me, no one would really catch the "are you hitting on me?" POV from askin' that kind of question, but ya don't have to make it sound so serious, too. Sometimes, I try jokin' around something at first, then slowly turning it into a serious convo... works sometimes, but no real problem if it doesn't, since you were just jokin' at first. Kinda like random slang, then a "heh, interesting" or whichever transitioning statement, into a shock and "... wait, what?" or "whoa, no, really now" or something...
Maybe that's not the best way to describe it, but it certainly works on me... erm, heh. ^^;;
Thanks for the opinions, guys. Yeah, I know that I definitely need to speak with my boyfriend about it. In the case of the shoulder, though, I hadn't really thought of it as "intimate" (in a sense, as blue put it), but rather in the sense of being comfortable. Though I have grown to distrust myself at times, as it goes, so... and again, of course, if others could possibly view that as "intimate," who's to say my love wouldn't?
And a -[last]- after thought on that, being... faithful to my beau, in body, mind, spirit, etc. Most importantly, though, being my heart, and that's reserved for him and him only, of course. I just wouldn't want to do anything at all hat might make him consider otherwise of me. (I admit, I even stress at times over whether something I do would be "disappointing" for me. Like, if he asked me to stop "the jerk," then I'd really consider doing so, upon having good reason for it.)
... yeeaaahhhh...
Friday, whee! ... now c'mon, Spring Break...
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Now. Drunk Spoons. Too dangerous?
Forgive the ignorance... I thought Spoons was a restaurant? (In addition to being an eating utensil...)
hey just got back from a local touney and ran my R/W aggro. the list is posted on post #730. its was pretty small but alot of top decks were there, like zoo, ED, GWB, heartbeat, B/U control, B/W aggro.
round 1 ED 2-0
round 2 GWB 0-2
round 3 B/U control 2-0
overall i came 4th. In conclusion that i found is that paladin en-vec are really good. even though i didn't run any if i would of draw one it would be really good and would make some match-ups much easier.
ive been looking at magic-league.com and found a very interesting R/W aggro list played by a player named Sabbath. I think its very solid. i just built it and being testing it against U/B aggro and its been winning ever sense. So far i only lost one game and that was because i drew 13 out of my 20 lands! but here is the list.
7 Mountain
6 Plains
3 Battlefield Forge
4 Sacred Foundry
4 Kami of Ancient Law
4 Boros Guildmage
4 Isamaru, Hound of Konda
4 Glacial Ray
4 Lightning Helix
4 Flames of the Blood Hand
4 Char
4 Volcanic Hammer
4 Lava Spike
4 Shock
SB
4 Blood Moon
3 Pithing Needle
4 Pyroclasm
2 Shattering Spree
2 Terashi's Grasp
it would probably add a 4th battlefield forge and probably work on the SB. but other than that its a really solid deck. any comments?
Maybe it's just me, but a 12-creature : 28-spell ratio seems closer to a "burn-style" deck, than R/W Aggro. 'Course, these all come in different shapes and sizes, but just a thought, as it kinda threw me off to see... "wait a minute, where are the critters?" ... but that said, I like the way the deck looks... almost makes me wanna go Mono-Red (or Suicide-Red, heh)...
Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention...
Hey, people, slow down! I'm tryin' to -[keep up]-!
To the "closet situation"...
My current relationship is with a closeted individual, as it goes. In our sense, I visited him first, and even though we were very much in the closet (that is, I'm pretty much out, open, free, etc. about being homosexual, to where no one knows he is -- as in, I went back -[into]- the closet on my trip), we still had plenty of time to be alone, in private, by ourselves, etc... and to say that, I want to know one or two occasions, where he did some "things" that -- while I knew to be affectionate -- were very much friendly without question, and totally "straight," without being the other thing. (That said, when he comes out here, he'll pretty much be out of the closet, on my side of the world -- and he "promised" me to 'come out' sometime this year...)
... I completely forgot where I was going with this. But I agree with a majority of what -[blue]- and -[Kraj]- have said.
To what Teshevair said...
I have a similar problem, in wanting to "snuggle up" to people, and choosing not to / not being allowed to. While I did just state being open and free about my sexuality, I do -[not]- make it obvious. That said, there's a cute guy (claims hetero, I'm thinkin' bi, though) that I have the tendency to partially rest my head on his shoulder in my "Singing" class. Now, he knows I'm gay -- again, out in the open, almost no one cares where I live, anyway -- but he doesn't complain, doesn't mind, doesn't tell me to stop it or shrug me off or anything... I even stopped him after class, and specifically asked him, "If I ever make you uncomfortable or feel awkward, just tell me and I'll stop immediately, all right?" and he just smiled and said "All right, but ya don't, if that's what you're asking"...
To what Desolation Angel and Mikey said...
A secret, darker side of me misses alcohol, liquor, drinking, etc. (What other names could I give it?) 'Course, I'm only 19, so I don't know the extremes, but... in a sense, I stopped for my health, sanity, and relationships. Well, not necessarily the one with my boyfriend, though I don't regret the decision to remain clean and -[straight edge]- for him, either (that is, no smoking, no drinking, no promiscuous sex, etc.), but... yeah. I'm just into the idea of, hoping to keep this love with my beau until we're both of legal drinking age (or at least, till he is?), and then just drinkin' together until we fall into one of those sexual predicaments. Not a wild desire or craving, but just interested to see what happens once. Erm, yeah.
That said, and with everything else...
Question!
What would y'all define as "Cheating"?
Take it, as any way you would. When there's kissing on the lips? When there's cuddling, snuggling, etc.? I'm curious as to what the rest of ya think about this. I'm currently in the process of speakin' with my boyfriend about this now, or at least attempting to do so, but... moreso, while I am not whorin' myself out on the streets, I am -- like I said -- "resting my head on the shoulder of a cute guy in my Singing class," and though no desire or intent to pursue anything with him, d'ya guys think I should be doing that at all? ... figured I'd see what -[boundaries]- you guys set for yourselves / others here.
My opinion -- if I wouldn't want my partner to be doing it, then I certainly shouldn't be doing it. But if I'm comfortable with my partner doing it, then perhaps it's all right for me to do it. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.Not 100% sure if I'd stick beside that statement, though, but... hmm.
I saw Coheed & Cambria and Avenged Sevenfold last week! While the show was cool, Co & Ca's set was ridiculously short, compared to the first time I saw them... same for A7X... both bands were good, though. But four and a half hours of standing around / waiting for three hours of music... not a fair ratio, I think.
May 25th will be my one year anniversary, working for Target. Depending on the "raise" I'm "supposed" to get, I'll either be stickin' around, or lookin' for another place to work. Is a buck too much to ask for? Especially, since every team lead labels me as "managerial position," and throws me anywhere they want and station me as 'head of department' when I'm in one... @_@
I finally got my own music recorded and uploaded somewhere accessible! While very much in the "holy crap, is that a guitar?" state, I want to share some material with the world. Here, my shameless plug of self-advertisement!
Martyr Minus Zero
http://www.myspace.com/martyrminuszero
And my college term is almost over... on that note, congrats to everyone graduating this year! On the other hand, I'll be passin' all 16 units of this semester, gladly... then finally enjoying a term off from college, since I've been in and out of class rooms for about two years straight now. >=D
... and I have become slightly infatuated with the ideas and concepts behind revenge. Is that wrong?
Take care, everyone! Here's hopin' I can stay up and alive this time around... X_X
... wait, what? You guys didn't just stop what you were doin'!? NO FAIR!!!
Gimme a while to get caught up with ya guys again, heh. Still on Spring Break, in a sense, but... maaan. All I really want to say is:
Ether!
Is that Heather from -[Silent Hill 3]- in your 'avatar'?
... unfortunately, I am in a mood of doubt, jealously, and self-loathing.
On Spring Break. Le sigh... emo... -_-
I listen to Megadeth, Coheed And Cambria, My Chemical Romance, Iron Maiden, Fall Out Boy, Goo Goo Dolls, Relient K, Metallica... to name a few of my musical interests. Not to mention my main influences, ooo!
So... I'm on Spring Break.
What now?
Thinkin' of the -[chaser]- idea, I never thought of it that way, but I guess I could describe myself as an "Asian chaser"? Erm, probably not, heh... but somethin' 'bout anyone who looks remotely of that descent just gets bonus brownie points in my book... even more if they look small yet muscular, or just of similar frame to me, or something. Yeah... okay, I don't know what I want to say. (o.O)
I'd like to note that I'm almost done with my ridiculous obsession with Guitar Hero for the PS2, thank you. Should be 'fixed' by Friday.
Thank you, Mikey.
I must now clean up some drool.
...
I'm sellin' some Magic cards on eBay. I only mention it 'cause I always told myself to do it, and now I'm finally doing it. For some reason, I have a feeling I'm not gonna get much, and I really went about doing it the wrong way, but... yeah. Some Ravnica Birds and Guildpact Duals, if anyone's interested (*hides!*).
Dang! Thank goodness ya came out all right, and that a few bruises is all that came from it. I hope there's some insurance and other coverage on the car, for 'additional safety' after all this? ... erm, and take that break, then. Hope you're feelin' right and well sooner than later, and that any bruises ya may have sustained are healed shortly.
Although not directed to me, I feel I'll take this opportunity to shamelessly advertise something related to this:
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What if I do get caught?
What if there is no judgment?
If I'm right, I lose nothing
If you're right, I lose it all
Oh, I oughta get caught
Because I'm doin' something wicked
I'm guilty, haunted by my fears
And the only consequences
Are dread and the fugitive mind
-------
"It's about judgment. The great paradox is if there isn't a God and you live your life like a good person, you haven't lost anything. If there is a God and you lived your life like a dirtbag, you're screwed. Basically what I'm saying is, 'What if there's no judgment?' I think a lot of times people have gotten up on the moral hilltop and yelled down to the masses down at the bottom of the valley about their spiritual superiority and it just alienates you." (Mustaine, 2001)
-------
As it goes, I happen to agree with this point of view. Yeah. ^^;; And although I've tried to be more "religious" in recent times, it's hard to turn towards a vision that ya neglected for most of your life... (and if anyone cares, the song is "Dread And The Fugitive Mind" by MEGADETH.)
I'm curious about everyone's occupation, and / or what ya guys do to put food on the table... erm... if you -[do]- put food on a table... 'cause, well, I work, but I don't? ... supply? ... okay, I'm confusing myself. MY MONEY! >=D
I'm just a simple "cashier" at Target... then again, they have me doin' whatever they need me for, since I'm trained in pretty much every department, so I'm more a utility personnel than anything. Just waitin' for my raise! ... which pops the next question, what do you guys think earns / rewards a raise?
Though I can't give much truth / statement to that question myself, I have this burning idea that I'd better complain / "riot" if I don't get a raise around my 'one year mark,' let alone start lookin' for a new job if I find the raise is insufficient... that said, this company is practically trying to promote me without increasing my pay grade, which is just... @#$%!!!!!
But yeah, all right. And hey, -[Paranoid]-, I'm able to do such things 'cause I don't get home till close to midnight almost every single night, as is. That, and most of my free time is spent near a computer, oddly and sadly enough... erm, yeah... yay? ^^;;
Indeed-io!
And for the other situation, I'll just chime in and state that, I suppose it's dependant on your character, personality, etc. For me, no one would really catch the "are you hitting on me?" POV from askin' that kind of question, but ya don't have to make it sound so serious, too. Sometimes, I try jokin' around something at first, then slowly turning it into a serious convo... works sometimes, but no real problem if it doesn't, since you were just jokin' at first. Kinda like random slang, then a "heh, interesting" or whichever transitioning statement, into a shock and "... wait, what?" or "whoa, no, really now" or something...
Maybe that's not the best way to describe it, but it certainly works on me... erm, heh. ^^;;
And a -[last]- after thought on that, being... faithful to my beau, in body, mind, spirit, etc. Most importantly, though, being my heart, and that's reserved for him and him only, of course. I just wouldn't want to do anything at all hat might make him consider otherwise of me. (I admit, I even stress at times over whether something I do would be "disappointing" for me. Like, if he asked me to stop "the jerk," then I'd really consider doing so, upon having good reason for it.)
... yeeaaahhhh...
Friday, whee! ... now c'mon, Spring Break...
Forgive the ignorance... I thought Spoons was a restaurant? (In addition to being an eating utensil...)
Maybe it's just me, but a 12-creature : 28-spell ratio seems closer to a "burn-style" deck, than R/W Aggro. 'Course, these all come in different shapes and sizes, but just a thought, as it kinda threw me off to see... "wait a minute, where are the critters?" ... but that said, I like the way the deck looks... almost makes me wanna go Mono-Red (or Suicide-Red, heh)...
Hey, people, slow down! I'm tryin' to -[keep up]-!
To the "closet situation"...
My current relationship is with a closeted individual, as it goes. In our sense, I visited him first, and even though we were very much in the closet (that is, I'm pretty much out, open, free, etc. about being homosexual, to where no one knows he is -- as in, I went back -[into]- the closet on my trip), we still had plenty of time to be alone, in private, by ourselves, etc... and to say that, I want to know one or two occasions, where he did some "things" that -- while I knew to be affectionate -- were very much friendly without question, and totally "straight," without being the other thing. (That said, when he comes out here, he'll pretty much be out of the closet, on my side of the world -- and he "promised" me to 'come out' sometime this year...)
... I completely forgot where I was going with this. But I agree with a majority of what -[blue]- and -[Kraj]- have said.
To what Teshevair said...
I have a similar problem, in wanting to "snuggle up" to people, and choosing not to / not being allowed to. While I did just state being open and free about my sexuality, I do -[not]- make it obvious. That said, there's a cute guy (claims hetero, I'm thinkin' bi, though) that I have the tendency to partially rest my head on his shoulder in my "Singing" class. Now, he knows I'm gay -- again, out in the open, almost no one cares where I live, anyway -- but he doesn't complain, doesn't mind, doesn't tell me to stop it or shrug me off or anything... I even stopped him after class, and specifically asked him, "If I ever make you uncomfortable or feel awkward, just tell me and I'll stop immediately, all right?" and he just smiled and said "All right, but ya don't, if that's what you're asking"...
To what Desolation Angel and Mikey said...
A secret, darker side of me misses alcohol, liquor, drinking, etc. (What other names could I give it?) 'Course, I'm only 19, so I don't know the extremes, but... in a sense, I stopped for my health, sanity, and relationships. Well, not necessarily the one with my boyfriend, though I don't regret the decision to remain clean and -[straight edge]- for him, either (that is, no smoking, no drinking, no promiscuous sex, etc.), but... yeah. I'm just into the idea of, hoping to keep this love with my beau until we're both of legal drinking age (or at least, till he is?), and then just drinkin' together until we fall into one of those sexual predicaments. Not a wild desire or craving, but just interested to see what happens once. Erm, yeah.
That said, and with everything else...
Question!
What would y'all define as "Cheating"?
Take it, as any way you would. When there's kissing on the lips? When there's cuddling, snuggling, etc.? I'm curious as to what the rest of ya think about this. I'm currently in the process of speakin' with my boyfriend about this now, or at least attempting to do so, but... moreso, while I am not whorin' myself out on the streets, I am -- like I said -- "resting my head on the shoulder of a cute guy in my Singing class," and though no desire or intent to pursue anything with him, d'ya guys think I should be doing that at all? ... figured I'd see what -[boundaries]- you guys set for yourselves / others here.
My opinion -- if I wouldn't want my partner to be doing it, then I certainly shouldn't be doing it. But if I'm comfortable with my partner doing it, then perhaps it's all right for me to do it. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.Not 100% sure if I'd stick beside that statement, though, but... hmm.
Yeah, that's all this time, I s'pose. Mmhmm. ^^;;