So reading everything here, it kind of troubles me, as it seems this place has kind of died since back when i was here before. After a long gap of nothing even remotely magic related, and a general disinterest in this sort of media, combined with some politics/drama concerning mtgs and sakura that i scarcely remember accurately, I kind of fell off after not being really interested in the first place. Recently I've been trying to reconnect with people I've somewhat grown out of contact with. I am, however, glad to see a few familiar faces still posting, as I don't know what this place would be like otherwise.
What is this coffeeCon thing anyway? I think I saw something on facebook about it was well... I am about as out of the loop as humanly possible at this point, having been almost entirely consumed by Lovecraft and warcraft recently
Long time no see coffee-folks
I figure its been half of forever since i had anything to do with this place, not that i was ever too involved in the first place...
I dunno if any of you even remember me, but no matter
What has happened to everyone?
*tomb door shakes and crumbles to the floor*
>_>
I'm back... kinda hi everyone, its been like, 4 months since i posted last...
I still read everything here though, i just don't know why i don't post much anymore.
So yeah, just thought I'd let you all know I'm not dead >_>
not to say i wasn't for some time though...
anywaiz i like the thread title
this is kinda embarrassing, but thanks you two, and anyone else who posts here.
I really don't agree with the need for this thread, but thats ok. I love you anyway sakura-chan and appreciate you caring so much.. thanks
Woooo new thread!
hooray for new things!
like my new webcam!
or my new flaxseed oil capsules!
or my new picture for my user card!
oh, and about the deck list alacar;
I'll post that later when i get a chance...
swamped w/ homeworks atm...
thanks for the congrats everyone
its been a good birthday compared to the past, mostly because this is the first year I've really been this comfortable with myself. anyways, thanks to everyone and i love you all (especially sakura-chan, but lets not go there... I'd probably get a warning)
So, this is a tad out of the blue, but I've been podering quite a bit lately about why I value my anonymity so much. There are many things about myself I never share on principle online, including real name, pictures, voice sample, etc.
I think that the reason this is so isn't necessarily (or merely, at least) because I'm embarrassed by them. Rather, I feel like there is a distinction between my online identity and my identity in person, and that's a distinction I like to keep. Myself as Mamelon isn't affected by impressions people have formed based on my appearance or my name or any other such associations. I feel like it's an environment in which I can act more freely without needing to consider all these extraneous factors I have to compensate for.
When I log on here I actually feel like I'm entering a different state of mind, one less burdened and restricted. I want that to remain the same, as it's like a haven from the "real" world. I wanted this identity to be pure, distinct, unfettered by the other.
I'm coming to reexamine my feelings about this. I'm aware that it actually creates something of an impassable barrier, because there's a line I can't cross if I want to keep that distinction. The recent thing with Skype voice chat brought this to my attention. That's something I couldn't do and still preserve the purity. And Mr. Stuff has asked multiple times if he'd ever see me at a convention, and each time I felt bad because I knew such a meeting could never happen with anyone here. Because that'd be crossing the line.
The way I'm looking at it now, I want the two identities to combine. I don't want to think of them anymore as seperate selves or states of mind. I want the unfettered, pure one to also be the one I am in my daily life. So I think I need for the line to be crossed. If I'm ever going to be comfortable with it, I'll need to let go of the separation. I want purity to mean something different, something other than dissociating from myself.
The least I can do is start with my name. It is . . .
Matthew. This is what most people call me in person. I actually like this name, as names go, though I still prefer to be called Mamelon on MTGS.
Spoiled for those who may actually prefer the mystique, heh. If that's even necessary.
Anyway, it's just something I wanted to say.
I'm very happy for you and proud too, i guess. I think the whole 'two separate people' thing is what caused me so much trouble, and now that I've dropped that I'm much happier. either way, just, i dunno what to do cept give you a big hug *glomp tackles mamelon*
edit: i'll catch up with other posts later, i promise ^_~
I'd say I'm generally best in the early early morning, between about 2 and 8 (depending on how late i stay up), after which I'm dead until about 2, then I'm usually good until like 10, when i get really tired and lazy and don't really wanna do anything.
If i ad it my way i'd sleep from like 8 until 3-4 in the afternoon and just stay up the rest of the day like i did all summer
oh well, too bad school isn't that flexible
Ahhhhh, I phase out for like a day and the whole freaking world changes... *runs to catch up to the coffeehouse*
there, I read everything since i last posted...
Alacar: sorry about heather, I hope that didn't like, scar her psychologically or anything...
@lorwyn: I kinda like the theme, but theres really nothing in it I identify much with, like that really strikes a chord. Faeries, maybe, and elves a bit, but I dunno, not much that seems particularly fun to play, like simic was with DIS or like my madness deck i made after FS or my WB rescue guys after PC.. I still dun like goblins... I guess I'll just have to see where it goes. Sadly, I may just end up fixing up decks i already have. I've been in a creative rut of sorts lately. Last creative thing i made was my reanimator, which isn't really creative, so I guess that means my madness deck...
T_T
in any case, I have skype now, if anyone wants to talk or whatever, my name thing is White_rabbit171 like on here
Speaking of that very issue mamelon, thats essentially what my world religions class was last year. It covered, not too in depth but a fair amount into Hinduism, Buddhism, Judaism, Islam and Christianity. A lot of the stuff were the history of the religions, but a great deal was also concepts in each, how they relate to each other, and how they apply today. It was really a fun class
Hi everyone, today was a good day, kind of a landmark. I bought about a pound of flax seed at the grocery store by my school today, and I'm a little skeptical about it all. I've never been one to trust nature or anything to work its course, but i dunno, I trust Sakura-chan, so its going to be ok...
I'm just going to mix the seed up with whatever it is I'm eating or drinking, that seems to work so far, cause they're really small. in any case, its not expensive or anything so I'm happy...
On 9/11: I see this day as important for different reasons as everyone else, I understand how grave it was, and am not trying to make the events look trivial.I really don't want to start any fights so I suggest skipping this spoiler, unless you really want to know my opinon.
You have been warned
I feel that 9/11 marks the events that set into motion the future of the united states, which will, in my opinion, eventually become a totalitarian dictatorship like in '1984', by George Orwell. It's because of 9/11 that the patriot act is around, and its stuff like that, and little stuff like letting the government impede on your rights where you think its no big deal and convenient to you, like checking bags while leaving a store, or allowing a police officer to search your vehicle even though you did nothing wrong and have nothing to hide and they don't have a warrant. It is my belief that when we start letting the authorities impede on our rights when its convenient for us, eventually they will impede on our rights when its convenient for them, and there is no definite line of when that will start, and we wont notice until its too late...
I call 9/11 "Big Brother" day
What is this coffeeCon thing anyway? I think I saw something on facebook about it was well... I am about as out of the loop as humanly possible at this point, having been almost entirely consumed by Lovecraft and warcraft recently
I figure its been half of forever since i had anything to do with this place, not that i was ever too involved in the first place...
I dunno if any of you even remember me, but no matter
What has happened to everyone?
>_>
I'm back... kinda
I still read everything here though, i just don't know why i don't post much anymore.
So yeah, just thought I'd let you all know I'm not dead >_>
not to say i wasn't for some time though...
anywaiz i like the thread title
this is kinda embarrassing, but thanks you two, and anyone else who posts here.
I really don't agree with the need for this thread, but thats ok. I love you anyway sakura-chan and appreciate you caring so much..
hooray for new things!
like my new webcam!
or my new flaxseed oil capsules!
or my new picture for my user card!
oh, and about the deck list alacar;
I'll post that later when i get a chance...
swamped w/ homeworks atm...
*Ninja poof*
Hi everone
about the deck...
Mine just uses general bounce like Boomerang, eye of nowhere, regress, and wipe away along with stone rain and seismic spike to just hold them off, and other stuff like spellshift, ignite memories and grapeshot to actually get the combo with eye of the storm and mind's desire going. I actually had the idea lnog before I saw joira, but she makes it eaiser to do. I also run aeon chronicler for draw, because he's ridiculous with jhoira. I suppose you could run brainfreeze instead of grapeshot or something, but I like the creature removal aspect of grapeshot
its been a good birthday compared to the past, mostly because this is the first year I've really been this comfortable with myself. anyways, thanks to everyone and i love you all (especially sakura-chan, but lets not go there... I'd probably get a warning)
edit: i'll catch up with other posts later, i promise ^_~
If i ad it my way i'd sleep from like 8 until 3-4 in the afternoon and just stay up the rest of the day like i did all summer
oh well, too bad school isn't that flexible
there, I read everything since i last posted...
Alacar: sorry about heather, I hope that didn't like, scar her psychologically or anything...
@lorwyn: I kinda like the theme, but theres really nothing in it I identify much with, like that really strikes a chord. Faeries, maybe, and elves a bit, but I dunno, not much that seems particularly fun to play, like simic was with DIS or like my madness deck i made after FS or my WB rescue guys after PC.. I still dun like goblins... I guess I'll just have to see where it goes. Sadly, I may just end up fixing up decks i already have. I've been in a creative rut of sorts lately. Last creative thing i made was my reanimator, which isn't really creative, so I guess that means my madness deck...
T_T
in any case, I have skype now, if anyone wants to talk or whatever, my name thing is White_rabbit171 like on here
I'm just going to mix the seed up with whatever it is I'm eating or drinking, that seems to work so far, cause they're really small. in any case, its not expensive or anything so I'm happy...
On 9/11: I see this day as important for different reasons as everyone else, I understand how grave it was, and am not trying to make the events look trivial.I really don't want to start any fights so I suggest skipping this spoiler, unless you really want to know my opinon.
You have been warned
I feel that 9/11 marks the events that set into motion the future of the united states, which will, in my opinion, eventually become a totalitarian dictatorship like in '1984', by George Orwell. It's because of 9/11 that the patriot act is around, and its stuff like that, and little stuff like letting the government impede on your rights where you think its no big deal and convenient to you, like checking bags while leaving a store, or allowing a police officer to search your vehicle even though you did nothing wrong and have nothing to hide and they don't have a warrant. It is my belief that when we start letting the authorities impede on our rights when its convenient for us, eventually they will impede on our rights when its convenient for them, and there is no definite line of when that will start, and we wont notice until its too late...
I call 9/11 "Big Brother" day