MTG Salvation

Zazzy, it might be a good idea if you clarified who "her" is We do have a few females in here

But... regardless... yes, it's my birthday today... I like how facebook and various messaging services on various organizations remember that my birthday is today It's nice to come into work, especially when feeling a bit down, that people are remembering my birthday today I wonder if anyone at work will remember

It's a little depressing having my birthday be on a day I have to work, and look for a new job... but hey, I'm going to have an awesome party on Saturday, so I guess I just need to hang on to that thought

Thanks for the b-day wishes to those who did, and will...

Glad to hear that you've decided on a date for the wedding Looks like there's going to be a few MTGS weddings within the next couple years...

I'm trying to search for jobs, plus do my normal job... this is aggravating, looking for work, seriously.... part of me wishes that I was just out of work so I could devote all of my time to the job hunt so I don't need to split my time halfway between work and job hunting.... I wish things would just miraculously fall into place.. I hate feeling like this, where I'm just grabbing on by the fingernails...

I'm tired......I just want to go home at this point. Ugh. I know what everyone is saying, that it's likely a case of "one door closes another opens", but still.. I wish I knew where that door was NOW!!!!!!

Josh, thanks for filling me in, I figured it was one of those things where nothing is really clear at this point in the game I guess I'll have to see how it goes when I get ahold of Persona 4... Anybody know how much it's going for these days???

EDIT: Yay, 3,800th post!!

Ok that makes sense.. And another thing I was wondering.... obviously spoiler this too, but what the devil was the deal with the chairman? I know he was bad but what was he trying to do? Or was that not clear to anyone at this point in the game??

Yeah I enjoy those kind of routine based games... When you say P4 is more streamlined, what do you mean by that, exactly? Also, for games like this one, what are other games you'd recommend I try that have a similar "feel" ? Most RPGs end up frustrating me and making me drop them and I never end up picking them up again because of how annoying it was/is to remember where I was/what I was doing, and so on and so forth...

Also, how long is the second part of Persona 3? The Answer?

Yeah I'm really loving that game... I borrowed it from a friend, and I go for spiels of time where either I play nonstop, or I don't play it for ages... but it's the kind of game where you can kind of go "oh THAT's where I was...." even if you haven't played it in a while.. Sometimes I just got so frustrated I put it down for months at a time, but I'm freaking determined to finish it... One thing that annoys me is the (granted they're few) cutscenes that don't have captioning.. the ones that are kind of cartoony, like anime... Fortunately Brad was there with me when Shinji died, so I could kiiiinda catch what happened there.... Actually maybe you can explain, what exactly happened there? Who killed him?

Yeah, i've noticed that about the full moon shadows.. I was expecting a helluva lot of challenge from the 12th shadow, but I was like 'that's it? really?'

Choosing a group to go up to Tartarus with me can be fun and annoying/irritating at the same time... Now I've gotten to the point where I try to choose the people who seem more underpowered and bring them up with me, along with a couple people who are up to par, that way usually they can get up to par too... most of the time..

Dammit, talking about this makes me want to go home and play it... lol.

EDIT: Actually, Persona 3 is one of the first games that I've really felt motivated to finish all the way through, and that I actually feel like maybe i actually WILL accomplish that..

Oh and I forgot to mention, but I think you already knew, a while back when you were asking about your wedding, and who will be coming.. you can count on me and Brad to go, providing finances and everything else lines up at that point... jobwise shouldn't be a problem since it's on the weekend, but we'll see. At this point I'm still saying/thinking that we WILL be there.

Photon: Oh, just the whole "We beat the 12th Shadow.. now it's over... Oh wait, the chairman was evil..." bit

and that last boss was actually pretty easy, compared to the Wheel of Fortune one..

How depressing of an exchange.... to Yukora and Photon

And good luck over there in the Phillipines.. keep us posted!

I just watched Star Trek III and IV today, that was fun, plus played some more Persona 3... thought maybe I could beat it today, but no, it threw me for a spin... *sigh*.

Now I'm going to clean the kitchen and cook dinner for Brad once he gets home from work in a little bit.

Still stressed out from looking for jobs.. I took a break during the weekend, since I'll have time to do it during the week at work... I found out about a lead, but I need to find out what's happening with their hiring.. they're not sure if they're hiring anybody, but they'll be in touch soon, so here's hoping!!

Oh and congrats to Frozen Fire for the 1400th post! A for you, sir!

Gonna go try to clean the kitchen.. I hate doing dishes.. ewww.. and then cook dinner. It'll be good, basic ziti with red sauce and green beans.

Hmmm...Arguas and I have been broken up for almost two years.... in fact, exactly 2 years this coming November 17.. and I have been with someone new for the past year, as of September 19...

Definitely a possibility. And thanks to Kraj and Crimson for the kind words.

Welcome back to Mike!!! I agree w/ Kraj, you'll always be the Avatar to me

Wouldn't mind doing the cube thing but somebody would have to explain to me what it involves exactly... I liked the booster draft idea but like Ally said, it failed miserably.

Thanks, Craig.... I was wondering if any of y'all who see me on Facebook would say something... kinda glad you did, Tanth.

*sigh* So commences the bad news.. Yesterday I found out that I lost my job.. Well, I'm being able to stay here for the next month... Friday, November 6th will be my last day. They're encouraging me to look for a new job within the University, and they would understand if I have to go out for interviews and the like.. To be honest, I kind of knew this was coming at some point.. I wasn't really happy in this job, and people could tell that my heart was not in it, really... and so I just... but still, it's a shock that it happened yesterday... I had some weird dreams last night... and I'm just kind of mulling over what this means exactly... how much I should tell people... I'm the kind of person who wants people to know, so that I can, and they can, enjoy our time while it lasts... i don't know, it's just....a surprise, and at the same time not so much of one, for me... I mean.. i don't know, I just feel kind of... I'm reeling still.

I've got this Dialectical Behavior Therapy class this afternoon.. i'm trying to decide if I should still go to it or not.. i dunno, I guess it'll depend on how I feel.. I'm not sure... blehhh...... I feel like crap, really...

have fun guys I'm eating the most delliiiiiccccioouussss lemon pepper chicken that Brad made last night and some leftover rice... SOOO GOOD!!

I think it's just that I needed to get all that out.... a lot is weighing on my mind.... Sorry if it bugs you all.

Can you clue some of us in on the joke? Some of us didn't actually actively follow the thread you're referring to on facebook

I'm trying to get some things done.. I had one of the donuts, and a cup of coffee, and it's now almost noon, I could eat lunch, but I feel like I've gotten almost nothing done today, even though I've gotten some things done... I just...ew.. I don't know why I'm feeling so blaaaaaah lately... Brad's been asking me what's wrong, and I've told him nothing, because I don't honestly know what it is.. It was finances for a while, but I've gotten that pretty much straightened out... Maybe the books I've been reading, and the movie I watched, and the weather combined gave me a whammy.. The start to my week wasn't a good one, it felt like another Friday because I knew I was taking off after noon on Monday, and in the morning when I was supposedly working, the coffee machine was broken so I couldn't have my requisite cup of coffee until much later in the day... I'm trying to decide whether to eat lunch now, and get myself geared up after lunch, or try to get something done before I have lunch... I know I tend to get even more lethargic and sleepy after lunch, so the former is probably not the best idea. I then have an appointment this afternoon at 4pm, at the med center, a counseling appointment.. I feel guilty cuz i haven't been keeping track of my homework as religiously as I'd like.. I had forgotten how much I hate homework -- I'm taking a class called dialectical behavior therapy -- it's geared towards mindfulness and reducing emotional overreactions and anxiety, and that in addition with the meds should be helping me, but I missed the first class so after the second class i just felt kind of bleeeeehhhhh.. It was pretty cool homework that i need to do- some of it I finished this morning, it was taking a walk and paying attention to everything around me.. which I did while walking to work this morning... part of me was still waking up and grumpy for wanting to go back to bed, but the other part of me really enjoyed it... i think my mind was still in overdrive/sleep mode though so I don't remember as much as I would have liked... and the other homework is to do the dishes by hand, and not think about anything but the present moment... I have a pile of dishes in my sink currently because I told Brad that I wanted to do the dishes by hand for homework, he normally washes them and puts them in the dishwasher... my house is a mess, it's just bugging me a little bit.. I have rice for lunch which will be good.... I'm actually taking prozac now to help with my anxiety and everything, been on it for a few weeks now, and it actually is seeming to help some, but days like this make me wonder if it's really helping... I don't know... it's frustrating not knowing exactly what is bothering me... THen there's the whole cable thing- after 2pm, I have to call the guy and set up the cable account.. I should have done it a week ago, and i hope he doesn't ask me a whole bunch of technical questions about it, cuz Brad set it all up, and it's working now, but like I said, I just got billed from my last company so I'm hoping this isn't a double-billed issue cuz i really can't afford that right now... Rent is being taken out on Thursday, and I get paid on Friday.. I'm hoping that the pending notice won't pull too much out of my credit card... and that I won't end up screwing myself over in some other fashion.....

In other news, happy 1300th post to Photon!

Bleh. I have the counseling appt this afternoon with my counselor and so I guess I can talk to her about this, and maybe part of it is from the anxiety from the class, and part of it is... i dunno. Its just bugging me and I don't know why.

lol.. .I love reading the banter you guys come up with... It's humorous.. So yeah, sorry I haven't been in here in a while... I've been reading, but not had much to say... This morning was one of those mornings where I could NOT get out of bed... I soooo wanted to just sleep for another half an hour or an hour... but I wanted to get to work earlyish today, since I'm leaving at 4pm for an appointment.. and it's raining and miserable which doesn't help matters any, as I was wearing sandals and my pants are all soaked... luckily I had an umbrella that I stole from Brad while he was sleeping so I didn't get completely soaked.. but you know there's always a few puddles that crop up when you're not paying attention.. I don't know why but I've just been feeling SO tired lately... I wanted to wake up early yesterday and today, and I got a decent amount of sleep over the weekend, but I'm still just burnt out.. tired and bleehh.. of course, the fact that I had only one cup of coffee yesterday and none yet today doesn't help. Brad had his last wisdom tooth surgery yesterday so he's, lucky guy, laying at home on my futon in the living room curled up with a blanket sleeping and when he wakes up, playing video games.. I slept for a couple hours yesterday too after we got back from the doctor's office.. that was nice.. but still... I wanna go back to bed nooooooooow.... and at some point today I need to call our cable company and make sure my account is active... the internet's been working but I'm not sure if it's still using my past account or the new one- it should be the new one, but I got charged for this month from my old internet company so I'm a little like "uh?" so... yeah gotta call 'em and find out what the problem is.

It's definitely fall right now tho, raining, windy as hell and miserable overall.. I wish my pants and socks would dry out... I suppose if I get some coffee, that'll warm me up and I can have my donut that I brought with me to work, to kickstart my day...

I have filing to do, which is just funnnnn... and a couple other little things I could/should do... I'm just feeling incredibly bleeeeeeeeh... I wanna go home lol. But no, I'm stuck at work...

Last night I watched "Terms of Endearment" (sad movie) and the day before that I've been reading some pretty depressing books... so I guess I'm kind of in a funk... just been feeling kinda blaaaaaaaaaaah lately.. I don't know. I know I probably should be shifting to something a bit more light, for my reading material, but I'm trying to finish reading some books that my friend lent me, and she lent me three depressing books in a row... 1- "She's Come Undone" by Wally Lamb, 2- Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult, and 3- Lucky by Alice Sebold ... I dunno, I'm just kinda blaaahh lately.

I'm not sure what I'm looking for in terms of advice/comments, just kind of wanted a place to talk, I guess... I'm kinda stressed out about my finances, my job, how much work i've been missing lately.. I keep meaning to come into work early to make up hours, and I know I still have plenty of time to make up hours, since this pay period just started yesterday, but I still.... Ugh... I took the afternoon off to help Brad with his surgery, and this is the last one of those for a while.. but I had some overtime hours and instead of keeping the overtime, I left early.. I'm not sure if that's a good thing, since they like to meet budget, so as close to 80 hours is best, but at the same time, if they ask me to stay late, I can keep the overtime, but at the same time I've been so tired and worn out and just so... blehhhhhhh that I don't know... bleh.

Thank you, Stuffsy! It's much appreciated. We were gonna go for a runaway weekend to Niagara Falls, seeing as I've never been there, and it's only an hour and a half away from here, but seeing as we're both extremely tight on money right now, we decided to stay close to home and splurge on a nice dinner, and just do something like go to a local park and have a picnic or something... there's this place near here called Cobb's Hill, which apparently has an awesome view of the city, and I've never been there, so it'd be awesome if we could do that.

Geez, like Yukora said, I think it's a little premature to say I disappeared... I do have a life... Been rather busy, I mean. Work has been occupying me, as well as my boyfriend... We've been spending a lot of tiem together, and my internet's been down at my house since the 14th, so I haven't had a lot of time to post in here, since they generally frown on that sort of thing at work. I'm trying to actually do a good job here

Heeeyy Photon and Tanth! Great to see you guys back here!

EDIT: Oh and tomorrow is Brad's and my 1 year anniversary