Lately, Well...actually not lately..all the time really I think about how the world around me, my friends, family, ex-girlfriends, etc., would be like if I was never a part of their life.
Like if I lived a totally different life. Or maybe never was even born. The later could have happened since I only was 3-4 pounds at birth and was born a month late (Was in my mother womb for 10 months instead of 9). How would life be?
Then when I think of that I think of how life could have been if I was born in 9 months instead of 10. I surely would be dead or have such a HUGE handicap that life wouldn't really matter.
When I think about my friends, family members, etc., I think of how life would be if I wasn't there. It centerally wouldn't be the same because the things we did together would have never happened. Sure it could have happened with someone else, but would it be the same? I don't really think so. Because basically everybody is different in a sense. Don't you think?
At times when I think of how life would be without me in it and the impact that it would make on my loved ones, it makes me sad. Sometimes angry. I really think it is a split 50/50 between the both. Then at times I feel 100% guilty for the things that did happen. Even though everybody would say it wasn't my fault and I had no control over it. That, it is how God had it layed out in the start.
Now, don't get me wrong. Sure this post sounds emo. However, I generally think everyday is a great day, just somedays are better than others.
Do you ever think about these things? If so, what are your feeings, thoughts about them?
there are just days like this, for all of us i think.. i get through dwelling on the good though. and how much i could do better. hindsight sucks, but atleast reflection helps. makes you realize things and then it helps you appreciate things.
and oh, remember that if you have these days, those people around you may also be having them- at the same time and all. so don't be too hard on them. it's their bad, sometimes ours.
i usually think like this with my gf.. too many what ifs and all. now i just focus on the things that made me smile, and will still make me smile.
happy thoughts okay? made peter fly, maybe we all could too..
You can never know for sure, exactly how much and what kind of presence you have in the lives of others. Just know that even if you were a beggar on the street, someone would notice your absence if you were away. It's more useful to guide your decisions to think about where you want to be in life, rather than what other people think of you, or what you think they think of you, because it's human nature to be preoccupied with one's own affairs and take others around you for granted. But nobody lives in a vacuum. Even if you never leave your house again, someone who knows you will notice and be concerned.
I rarely consider hypotheticals like that. I just don't see how constructive they are. Life is what it is, thinking about alternate ways things could have been is more or less pointless. The exception to that is when considering the 'what if's can help you gain perspective on what actually is through comparison and contrasting.
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I am so glad you posted this, I never stop asking myself these questions, and I just thought I was wierd. I am constantly contemplating what effects my decisions or even my very existance have on myself and those around me. (in a philosophical way, not an emo way). Of course, I can never truly have an answer to these questions, so I usually spend time conemplating the nature of time and space. It's easier and more rewarding.
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Whenever I worry about this matter about alternative realities, I tell this to myself:
"There is no such thing as alternate realities. What happens, happens, and it's 100% the result of Quantum Uncertainty. We are slaves to Quantum Uncertainty. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FREE WILL. Has never been."
Whenever I worry about this matter about alternative realities, I tell this to myself:
"There is no such thing as alternate realities. What happens, happens, and it's 100% the result of Quantum Uncertainty. We are slaves to Quantum Uncertainty. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FREE WILL. Has never been."
The one thing I always think about is how different my life would be if I had been diagnosed with ADD as a child instead of as an adult. Why did the school system not do the tests they told my mom they were going to do? *shrug* I guess its ok to kick peoples teeth in and disrupt your class as long as you get good grades. Alot of people equate learning or developmental disabilities with stupidity and so many people slip through the cracks because of that. I never think about what would have happened of I were never born. Its likely my mom would have went back to college earlier and my older cousin would have had a much more miserble childhood than she already had. My brother would have his wish and be an only child. *lol* He was meant to be someone's older brother.
Whenever I worry about this matter about alternative realities, I tell this to myself:
"There is no such thing as alternate realities. What happens, happens, and it's 100% the result of Quantum Uncertainty. We are slaves to Quantum Uncertainty. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FREE WILL. Has never been."
And then I feel much better.
I get it. Nothing in this life is supposed to make any sense whatsoever, and we have no control over it no matter what we do.
I find it strangely fascinating, how we seem bound like puppets to some grand timeline of which we will never comprehend. Think about some of the defining moments in your life, many of them probably came indirectly as a result of something trivial which you never would have thought of otherwise. (And which you still may not realize, thinking back, because those little events are so trivial they are quickly forgotten.)
I was hit by a truck in Grade 4, broke my leg and spent months in the hospital. My parents spent a lot of time with me and put other things on hold. As we result, we didn't move (to another part of town) until later. I ended up going to a new school away from my friends because of this move, at the start of grade 7. (In Canada, grades 1-6, 7-9 and 10-12 and seperated.) Who knows what would have happened if I had not been in the accident and we had moved immediately (to a different house than the one I actually moved to.). I would have ended up in a different school, would not have met any of the people I know now, and would know a myriad of people whom I do not know currently. I would have not fallen for a girl there, and pursued her in high school, who knows what may have happened, all these little what-ifs, all these millions of decisions one must constantly wrestle with. A single decision and your life may be totally different than it is now.
Another example: My brother got me into magic cards when I was young. I'm not sure how he himself got into it, most likely he was introduced to it by a friend. As a result, I was led down the path of geekdom, and I now spend much of my time playing cards and dealing. How different would my life have been if my brother's friend had not happened upon that game that one faithful day? How different would all our lives be if Richard Garfield had died in some accident as a child and never invented the game? We wouldn't be talking here right now, that's for sure.
I find it humbling how easy it is for something small to totally change our futures and destinies. If you look back and analyze your life as it is, the people you know, the path you're headed down, every little detail, and trace it back to it's source, you may realize that something small, perhaps just something by chance, may have ultimately resulted in shaping who you are now.
I find it humbling how easy it is for something small to totally change our futures and destinies. If you look back and analyze your life as it is, the people you know, the path you're headed down, every little detail, and trace it back to it's source, you may realize that something small, perhaps just something by chance, may have ultimately resulted in shaping who you are now.
Yep, one of my favourite concepts: small things can make big differences.
Yep, one of my favourite concepts: small things can make big differences.
Yes. That's easily summed up as "the butterfly effect" - does the flap of a butterfly's wings in Brazil eventually generate the wind that ends up a hurricane in Texas?
While I'm still in what I'd say is the first quarter of my life (I'm a high school freshman), it's easy to see among my friends (and enemies) exactly how what I've said and done has affected people. It's hard to think of a good example, but here's one - my camp friend and later, one of my best good buddies, is a loser by just about any definition of the word. He plays Magic (and Yu-Gi-Oh, Yu-Gi-Oh more often, something I also did), prefers the Gamecube over other systems, was for a long time among the shortest guys in our grade, can't play sports, and has had exactly 5 friends for just about his whole life. He is a lot better about most of that now, and when he walks by, I can almost see how I've changed him for the better. Though he still pretty much has the 5 of us (the past doesn't exactly erase itself), he is a LOT better at just about everything teenage. (Plus, one of the first things I did for him was cut down his 120+ card "stack deck" down. I pride myself on that.) He has also gotten much better at being around girls - a lot of things I'm learning the hard way I get to pass on to him before he has to.
It's interesting to see how much I'm affecting (infecting?) people as it happens - it's probably going to become less obvious the older we become.
Any thoughts?
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Like if I lived a totally different life. Or maybe never was even born. The later could have happened since I only was 3-4 pounds at birth and was born a month late (Was in my mother womb for 10 months instead of 9). How would life be?
Then when I think of that I think of how life could have been if I was born in 9 months instead of 10. I surely would be dead or have such a HUGE handicap that life wouldn't really matter.
When I think about my friends, family members, etc., I think of how life would be if I wasn't there. It centerally wouldn't be the same because the things we did together would have never happened. Sure it could have happened with someone else, but would it be the same? I don't really think so. Because basically everybody is different in a sense. Don't you think?
At times when I think of how life would be without me in it and the impact that it would make on my loved ones, it makes me sad. Sometimes angry. I really think it is a split 50/50 between the both. Then at times I feel 100% guilty for the things that did happen. Even though everybody would say it wasn't my fault and I had no control over it. That, it is how God had it layed out in the start.
Now, don't get me wrong. Sure this post sounds emo. However, I generally think everyday is a great day, just somedays are better than others.
Do you ever think about these things? If so, what are your feeings, thoughts about them?
and oh, remember that if you have these days, those people around you may also be having them- at the same time and all. so don't be too hard on them. it's their bad, sometimes ours.
i usually think like this with my gf.. too many what ifs and all. now i just focus on the things that made me smile, and will still make me smile.
happy thoughts okay? made peter fly, maybe we all could too..
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I am so glad you posted this, I never stop asking myself these questions, and I just thought I was wierd. I am constantly contemplating what effects my decisions or even my very existance have on myself and those around me. (in a philosophical way, not an emo way). Of course, I can never truly have an answer to these questions, so I usually spend time conemplating the nature of time and space. It's easier and more rewarding.
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"There is no such thing as alternate realities. What happens, happens, and it's 100% the result of Quantum Uncertainty. We are slaves to Quantum Uncertainty. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS FREE WILL. Has never been."
And then I feel much better.
I don't follow your reasoning...
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I get it. Nothing in this life is supposed to make any sense whatsoever, and we have no control over it no matter what we do.
I was hit by a truck in Grade 4, broke my leg and spent months in the hospital. My parents spent a lot of time with me and put other things on hold. As we result, we didn't move (to another part of town) until later. I ended up going to a new school away from my friends because of this move, at the start of grade 7. (In Canada, grades 1-6, 7-9 and 10-12 and seperated.) Who knows what would have happened if I had not been in the accident and we had moved immediately (to a different house than the one I actually moved to.). I would have ended up in a different school, would not have met any of the people I know now, and would know a myriad of people whom I do not know currently. I would have not fallen for a girl there, and pursued her in high school, who knows what may have happened, all these little what-ifs, all these millions of decisions one must constantly wrestle with. A single decision and your life may be totally different than it is now.
Another example: My brother got me into magic cards when I was young. I'm not sure how he himself got into it, most likely he was introduced to it by a friend. As a result, I was led down the path of geekdom, and I now spend much of my time playing cards and dealing. How different would my life have been if my brother's friend had not happened upon that game that one faithful day? How different would all our lives be if Richard Garfield had died in some accident as a child and never invented the game? We wouldn't be talking here right now, that's for sure.
I find it humbling how easy it is for something small to totally change our futures and destinies. If you look back and analyze your life as it is, the people you know, the path you're headed down, every little detail, and trace it back to it's source, you may realize that something small, perhaps just something by chance, may have ultimately resulted in shaping who you are now.
Yep, one of my favourite concepts: small things can make big differences.
Yes. That's easily summed up as "the butterfly effect" - does the flap of a butterfly's wings in Brazil eventually generate the wind that ends up a hurricane in Texas?
While I'm still in what I'd say is the first quarter of my life (I'm a high school freshman), it's easy to see among my friends (and enemies) exactly how what I've said and done has affected people. It's hard to think of a good example, but here's one - my camp friend and later, one of my best good buddies, is a loser by just about any definition of the word. He plays Magic (and Yu-Gi-Oh, Yu-Gi-Oh more often, something I also did), prefers the Gamecube over other systems, was for a long time among the shortest guys in our grade, can't play sports, and has had exactly 5 friends for just about his whole life. He is a lot better about most of that now, and when he walks by, I can almost see how I've changed him for the better. Though he still pretty much has the 5 of us (the past doesn't exactly erase itself), he is a LOT better at just about everything teenage. (Plus, one of the first things I did for him was cut down his 120+ card "stack deck" down. I pride myself on that.) He has also gotten much better at being around girls - a lot of things I'm learning the hard way I get to pass on to him before he has to.
It's interesting to see how much I'm affecting (infecting?) people as it happens - it's probably going to become less obvious the older we become.
Any thoughts?
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