Okay, here it is: Don't reject Scott. Your feelings about this are perfectly normal and understandable. You want to make it loud and clear that Scott is not who you are - the image that you, and everyone else, attaches to that designation is only the tip of the iceburg, and it's hardly what you want to show the world. You are more than Scott. But "he" is still part of who you are and who you have been. If I may say so, I'd say it's not that "he" is dead, it's just that "he" is changing form. You are showing more of yourself than ever before, and in many ways, you are becoming a new person. But you've always been that person, deep down. "Scott" has never really been a guy.
Honestly, though, I understand how you feel about it. There are times when I feel as though I am two people, in some sense, two souls who blend together, like conjoined twins. So, in a way, I think it's natural to want to be divorced from one's "male self" or "female self." There have been times when I've half joked about my birth name being my "slave name." But I also know that I don't want to destroy or get rid of any aspect of myself. "He" didn't do anything wrong. "He" has suffered just as much as I have.
Admittedly, it may be somewhat different for me than you. I very seldomly "acted male" to fit in. I only tried this for a few brief years as a teenager. For the majority of my life, though, I've been something of a big gender-rebel, and the people I really cared about have accepted that for the most part. So maybe I don't associate as much negativity or feeling of dissatisfaction and reproach with my male self as others do.
It's very important when dealing with something like this to keep loving yourself. You need to love yourself unconditionally, and don't feel bad about what you're doing, and don't divorce from any true part of yourself. That's a very hard thing for some people to do, surely, especially as a TS person, as we seem to spend a large portion of our lives just being sick and tired of ourselves.
In some ways, going through a reassignment transition is like going through a second puberty. So, of course, you need to assert your identity, only this time people will have a harder time accepting and understanding it. It can really hurt when people won't call you by the name you choose, the pronoun you prefer, and when people make claims or theories about you and your behavior to satisfy their fears or to undermine you. It's painful, but as you know, this is an adjustment for everone else, too. For some of them, they may really just not care. As for others, they probably do care about you and your decision, it's just hard for them to get used to all the changes. For someone to apparently shapeshift from one gender into another is a very unusual, dramatic change, and it's understandable that they'd not know how to face it. You can do things to ease the process somewhat. I know you probably feel very sensitive about how people address you, look at you, etc, especially when you're feeling like they're trying to jam you back into your "Scott" persona, try and oppress you further. Just try and relax about it as much you can and be patient. I know it probably sounds like I'm asking for the moon by saying that, since you've waited years for this and can't stand being patient any longer.
As for the name Sakura - I can see why people would have a hard time adjusting to it or even respecting it. It's a very exotic name in North American culture, and many associate with it images of popular female anime characters. It's ultimately up to you, and if you wish to be called Sakura, then you should go for it. But to be honest, if I were one of your friends in real life, I'd probably feel a lot more comfortable calling you Trish or Patricia, at least for a while.
One friend told me that the cost for surgery is too high and I will never be able to retire happy as a result so I should just be a man dressed as a woman. It is hard to comprehend our issues, because they are so alien to people who do not live it.
It sure is. Even for those of us who do live it, it's hard to understand, because it's so deeply rooted and (probably) instinctual. Just from an intellectual point of view, I often wonder - "Why do I care so much about this?" "Why does it make a difference?" "Why do I feel so bad about it?" All I really know is that I do, and it does make a difference, at least to me.
Many cisgender people often wonder why transitioning should ever be necessary - they imagine that it'd be easier to live with the body you have and just express your gender-atypical personality as is, especially if that will help change how society views gender. Frankly, I find that difficult to address, because if I were't in the position I'm in, I'd probably think the same thing. Heck, even as I am I sometimes entertain the notion that that might be best. It's a very confusing spot to be in.
As for surgery, genital reassignment surgery might not be necessary. Many TS people never get one, and still have a more complete transition process than "man dressing as a woman," or what have you. If a woman is a woman in every way that matters except in that she has a male reproductive system, can you really call her a man? Hormone replacement often makes a huge difference, moreso than surgeries ever do.
Honestly, though, I've often thought about facial reconstruction. I only wish there were some procedure that could reduce your shoulder breadth, or make you shrink in height. *sigh*
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the light that you see. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
But the rainbow is an image of hope for many reasons, as it is a brilliant sight coming out of oftimes dismal weather.
I do not fully reject Scott, just the image people attach to him. Unfortunately if people reffuse to accept me as a woman as long as I allow them to associate me with Scott, then I have no choice but to kill him off so they do not have that option.
It is like people expecting you to act like a character you play in D&D and to answer to that name. I had that happen too, and it is awful. Made me stop gaming completely for months.
It is like people expecting you to act like a character you play in D&D and to answer to that name. I had that happen too, and it is awful. Made me stop gaming completely for months.
Who the hell did you game with, the Branch Davidians?
I played a vulgar Halfling Barbarian named Frak Feldercarp. He was really obscenely off the wall. People started seeing me as him. It caused me a minor breakdown actually, seeing as he was also extremely male minded and being seen that way was really shattering. It was part of what made me realize I needed to change.
I played him for what I assumed whould be one or two games to get the group used to D&D and it became a huge campaign.
I was allowed to chage his personality after he was "conditioned", making it easier...and now everyone understands I hate being referred to as Frak.
It is a problem when you are a real good "role-player" in a group of basically "roll-players".
Can those two words possibly be put in the same sentence ONE AFTER ANOTHER?!? THIS IS A STARTLING DISCOVERY!!! I had no idea such a state of mind was possible. A Monday that is even REMOTELY POSSIBLY enjoyable?!? The numbers don't add up!!!...*head explodes*
Heya, everubody. Okay day? Mine has been pretty good so far. Woke up late, but also left work early. Go me.
Ergh...I wish I could keep waking up late, but now that Spring Break is over, I gotta actually get up before seven. But I'll cope. Now I get to see my beautiful GF more often. She was gone all Spring Break.
I do not fully reject Scott, just the image people attach to him. Unfortunately if people reffuse to accept me as a woman as long as I allow them to associate me with Scott, then I have no choice but to kill him off so they do not have that option.
I can't pretend to understand what you are going through. It's a truth of life, in general, that as people change and grow that occasionally a friend or group of friends will be lost along the way and new friends will be gained. Mabey this is what has ultimately happened with you and the group of friends you wrote that letter to.
I can't help but feel that even if they couldn't understand exactly what you are going through, that they could at least appreciate the strength of will and courage that you display.
I have, however, had two good friends who legally changed thier names for various reasons. It was a little difficult the first time, for me, as when I was distracted or in a rush, I would occasionally blurt out her old name, but it only happened a handfull of times. For the second friend, it was so easy. Because I had already went through the process once before. It was really exciting too, because for my friends, it was sortof a new begining, and it was in a way thrilling to experience it with them.
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Okay, here it is: Don't reject Scott. Your feelings about this are perfectly normal and understandable. You want to make it loud and clear that Scott is not who you are - the image that you, and everyone else, attaches to that designation is only the tip of the iceburg, and it's hardly what you want to show the world. You are more than Scott. But "he" is still part of who you are and who you have been. If I may say so, I'd say it's not that "he" is dead, it's just that "he" is changing form. You are showing more of yourself than ever before, and in many ways, you are becoming a new person. But you've always been that person, deep down. "Scott" has never really been a guy.
I just want to say, this is fantastic advice. It's dripping with wisdom.
I do not fully reject Scott, just the image people attach to him. Unfortunately if people reffuse to accept me as a woman as long as I allow them to associate me with Scott, then I have no choice but to kill him off so they do not have that option.
I'm wonderful, thank you for checking on me sweetie! I understand with what you mean by wanting to kill off Scott so that people will be able to see you as a woman. Just go slowly with it, an immediate sudden shift can have some disasterous results on your inter-personal relationships, especially in the office. I'm here if you need me.
It is very hard to find a balance Kaylei. I have been trying, but the more I try to accept a middle ground the more people pull me the direction they want.
I am having enough trouble dealing with my own issues, dealing with my friends hang ups is not helping at all.
Sigh.
I am actually having a relatively decent day at work mind you.
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I can't help but feel that even if they couldn't understand exactly what you are going through, that they could at least appreciate the strength of will and courage that you display.
I couldn't agree more, and it is all I ask. Instead i get contempt.
It is very hard to find a balance Kaylei. I have been trying, but the more I try to accept a middle ground the more people pull me the direction they want.
I am having enough trouble dealing with my own issues, dealing with my friends hang ups is not helping at all.
Sigh.
I am actually having a relatively decent day at work mind you.
Balance is hard, it is all we really strive for in life. Balance and Happyness. The people around you are just trying to do what they think is right for you and in your best interests and really, no matter how bad it seems, their hearts are in the right place and you need to realize that they aren't intentionally trying to hurt you. And I'm glad work is going well.
And for those who don't know Kaylei is my girl name and what will eventually become my real name.
Hey. Not much - I just spent the past hour and a half fiddling around in Gimp, working on this:
I think I'll make at least a couple more before saturday, and then just go with the one I like best.
As for what I'm watching, I've lately been watching Red Garden. It's a sort of murder mystery type thing where these four girls that go to the same highschool happen to meet each other one night... and are subsequently attacked by a demon/zombie thing. One of them kills it (just barely), and then a couple of people in dark suits show up and tell them that they are already dead, and if they want their lives back, they have to continue killing these things. So, now the show is about them trying to cope with being dead, cope with having to kill these things every other night, and trying to figure out what the heck is going on, all while still trying to live their normal lives. There is a family of evil scientists in there somewhere too. It's pretty nifty.
So, anybody want to play a game on MWS? Whatever format it is, I don't care, just looking for something to do.
That's a great job Mr. Stuff. I've been enjoying blood + recently and you did fantastic work. I'm not really in a magic playing mood today. I'm working on designing a new deck idea, but I'm not really wanting to play.
I do not fully reject Scott, just the image people attach to him. Unfortunately if people reffuse to accept me as a woman as long as I allow them to associate me with Scott, then I have no choice but to kill him off so they do not have that option.
I don't see where that is even an option. Why destroy a part of yourself for other people? If they're not able to accept, and support you for who you are, they're not that great of friends. You should stay true to yourself, and do what makes you happy. I seriously doubt cutting off a part of yourself so that others accept you will solve anything. Besides, isn't that what you've been doing for years by suppressing Sakura?
It isn't a matter of supressing a part of myself Yukora, it is about getting people to stop treating me like someone and thing I am not. Being Scott suppresses who I am, and they expect me to be him. While I am techically not throwing Scott away completely, I am trying to distract my friends from him because they are stuck on him.
It sounds like you have a conundrum of conundrums here Sakura. On one hand being Scott makes you REALLY really uncomfortable especially when it relates to other people. On the other hand, the Scott before is what made you who you are now. Hope you can get this all figured out - I think Yukora summed up my feelings on the attitude most succinctly tho.
It isn't a matter of supressing a part of myself Yukora, it is about getting people to stop treating me like someone and thing I am not. Being Scott suppresses who I am, and they expect me to be him. While I am techically not throwing Scott away completely, I am trying to distract my friends from him because they are stuck on him.
But the point is that even though you yourself aren't "Scott," all the people you've ever known have met, gotten to know, and still currently know you as Scott. It doesn't make any sense to punish yourself or the people in your life because, after only a month or so of being open about your feelings and condition, people aren't taking this exactly the way you'd hoped. Killing Scott won't accomplish anything positive, Sakura; it will only further alienate the people you care about from your situation and cause you pain over memories, experiences, and feelings you should be cherishing rather than throwing away.
You have to - and I can't stress those two words enough - HAVE TO give this more time. Both for yourself and for everyone else in your life. Basically, from everything you've said so far, you've just dropped a revelation in people's laps and in no uncertain terms told them that they'll deal with it right now or else. People don't work that way, doll.
I lost friends when I came out to them. And I blamed them for how things went, not myself. In the end, I realized that I'd treated some of my friends very cruelly; I'd told them "hey. I'm gay. You'd better get used to it or I'll have to cut you out of my life." I didn't give them any time to get used to it, to accustom themselves to what was a huge deal in their eyes. As big an issue as it was for me, it was that big for everyone else I knew, and I didn't think about that until it was too late. Don't do that, Sakura. Give your friends the benefit of the doubt and give them time to rub the sleep out of their eyes.
Well said Yukora. I haven't commented on a lot of what's been going on, because I wasn't quite sure how to say what I wanted to say, but that was pretty close to it.
Sakura, I know this is a rough time for you, but personally, I find all this talk of "killing" Scott off, etc, rather disturbing. It seems like you're desperate for these friends to immediately see you as a woman. Don't worry about them. They'll come around in time. I would just focus on getting yourself through this transition, and not worry so much about other people.
Other news... I'm doing taxes tonight. Oh dear. Well, at least after this, it'll be over with, and I'll have some idea of how to do them for next year.
Hey go to [snip] That's a great and relatively easy place to do your taxes....
And as for me.. I'm seriously down.... maybe I'll want to talk about it later on here, but please IM me if you want to talk.....
In other news, if people are from another country, or you guys just know of a kickass library job in your area, LET ME KNOW!! I'm especially interested in going off to someplace like England or something.... to get the experience.. I knwo there's quite a few Englandites here, so drop me a line already!!
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I do not expect them to come around lightning fast. i never have. I do expect them to care that I am going through this and make some sort of effort. This is not happenning.
The best way of looking at the Sakura/Scott thing is this. There was alot of Sakura in Scott, but almost no Scott in Sakura. Sakura is Scott with the phoniness taken away.
@ShinSakura: Man, I'd love to input advice, but as we can all tell from past experiences, that is DEFINITELY NOT my strong-suit. Whatever may be happening, I wish you the best.
@Alacar: Oh noez, not you too!!! Well, I hope my old friend doesn't stay down for TOO long.
@Everyone else: HI!!! I'll be away at dinner, but probably back later.
@ShinSakura: Man, I'd love to input advice, but as we can all tell from past experiences, that is DEFINITELY NOT my strong-suit. Whatever may be happening, I wish you the best.
@Everyone else: HI!!! I'll be away at dinner, but probably back later.
1. You had better hope that "man" was in the spirit of "aw, MAN!" as opposed to "I'm here for you, man", or else you are gonna find yourself staring at an attack of the tribe of Wannahaveahooha.
2. Thanks for the update, I'll be waiting with baited breath to be sure.
Ninjedit: Jack, don't worry about it. I'll talk about it when I'm ready.
Oh.
My.
God.
You're pregnant, aren't you?
So, any speculations as to what the new cards types are? Ten to one, I'll bet they pull a fast one on us and turn a pre-existing subtype into a new type. Like equipment. Personally, I would be happier if they dropped instants altogether, just to piss off that whole subgroup of players that thinks that the UR instant-sorcery only creatureless deck is some sort of paragon.
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So, any speculations as to what the new cards types are? Ten to one, I'll bet they pull a fast one on us and turn a pre-existing subtype into a new type. Like equipment. Personally, I would be happier if they dropped instants altogether, just to piss off that whole subgroup of players that thinks that the UR instant-sorcery only creatureless deck is some sort of paragon.
Like that annoying guy at the card shop who thinks just because he placed top eight one time he knows everything about the game. "Blue is basically yhe only color, ya know? I mean, I might splash some white for life gain but everything else is useless. Black and red might as well not exist." HA.
I'm hoping there's some kind of radical new type of card that works like two existing types put together or something. Or maybe vanguards will come into the main game or something, who knows.
Okay, here it is: Don't reject Scott. Your feelings about this are perfectly normal and understandable. You want to make it loud and clear that Scott is not who you are - the image that you, and everyone else, attaches to that designation is only the tip of the iceburg, and it's hardly what you want to show the world. You are more than Scott. But "he" is still part of who you are and who you have been. If I may say so, I'd say it's not that "he" is dead, it's just that "he" is changing form. You are showing more of yourself than ever before, and in many ways, you are becoming a new person. But you've always been that person, deep down. "Scott" has never really been a guy.
Honestly, though, I understand how you feel about it. There are times when I feel as though I am two people, in some sense, two souls who blend together, like conjoined twins. So, in a way, I think it's natural to want to be divorced from one's "male self" or "female self." There have been times when I've half joked about my birth name being my "slave name." But I also know that I don't want to destroy or get rid of any aspect of myself. "He" didn't do anything wrong. "He" has suffered just as much as I have.
Admittedly, it may be somewhat different for me than you. I very seldomly "acted male" to fit in. I only tried this for a few brief years as a teenager. For the majority of my life, though, I've been something of a big gender-rebel, and the people I really cared about have accepted that for the most part. So maybe I don't associate as much negativity or feeling of dissatisfaction and reproach with my male self as others do.
It's very important when dealing with something like this to keep loving yourself. You need to love yourself unconditionally, and don't feel bad about what you're doing, and don't divorce from any true part of yourself. That's a very hard thing for some people to do, surely, especially as a TS person, as we seem to spend a large portion of our lives just being sick and tired of ourselves.
In some ways, going through a reassignment transition is like going through a second puberty. So, of course, you need to assert your identity, only this time people will have a harder time accepting and understanding it. It can really hurt when people won't call you by the name you choose, the pronoun you prefer, and when people make claims or theories about you and your behavior to satisfy their fears or to undermine you. It's painful, but as you know, this is an adjustment for everone else, too. For some of them, they may really just not care. As for others, they probably do care about you and your decision, it's just hard for them to get used to all the changes. For someone to apparently shapeshift from one gender into another is a very unusual, dramatic change, and it's understandable that they'd not know how to face it. You can do things to ease the process somewhat. I know you probably feel very sensitive about how people address you, look at you, etc, especially when you're feeling like they're trying to jam you back into your "Scott" persona, try and oppress you further. Just try and relax about it as much you can and be patient. I know it probably sounds like I'm asking for the moon by saying that, since you've waited years for this and can't stand being patient any longer.
As for the name Sakura - I can see why people would have a hard time adjusting to it or even respecting it. It's a very exotic name in North American culture, and many associate with it images of popular female anime characters. It's ultimately up to you, and if you wish to be called Sakura, then you should go for it. But to be honest, if I were one of your friends in real life, I'd probably feel a lot more comfortable calling you Trish or Patricia, at least for a while.
It sure is. Even for those of us who do live it, it's hard to understand, because it's so deeply rooted and (probably) instinctual. Just from an intellectual point of view, I often wonder - "Why do I care so much about this?" "Why does it make a difference?" "Why do I feel so bad about it?" All I really know is that I do, and it does make a difference, at least to me.
Many cisgender people often wonder why transitioning should ever be necessary - they imagine that it'd be easier to live with the body you have and just express your gender-atypical personality as is, especially if that will help change how society views gender. Frankly, I find that difficult to address, because if I were't in the position I'm in, I'd probably think the same thing. Heck, even as I am I sometimes entertain the notion that that might be best. It's a very confusing spot to be in.
As for surgery, genital reassignment surgery might not be necessary. Many TS people never get one, and still have a more complete transition process than "man dressing as a woman," or what have you. If a woman is a woman in every way that matters except in that she has a male reproductive system, can you really call her a man? Hormone replacement often makes a huge difference, moreso than surgeries ever do.
Honestly, though, I've often thought about facial reconstruction. I only wish there were some procedure that could reduce your shoulder breadth, or make you shrink in height. *sigh*
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel.
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
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I do not fully reject Scott, just the image people attach to him. Unfortunately if people reffuse to accept me as a woman as long as I allow them to associate me with Scott, then I have no choice but to kill him off so they do not have that option.
It is like people expecting you to act like a character you play in D&D and to answer to that name. I had that happen too, and it is awful. Made me stop gaming completely for months.
Who the hell did you game with, the Branch Davidians?
I played him for what I assumed whould be one or two games to get the group used to D&D and it became a huge campaign.
I was allowed to chage his personality after he was "conditioned", making it easier...and now everyone understands I hate being referred to as Frak.
It is a problem when you are a real good "role-player" in a group of basically "roll-players".
OH NOEZ, WEZ IZ ENEMIEZZZ!!!! BTW, Hi Danica!
I could tell this was coming the minute I looked it up again.
A movie better than 300? I only know of two such movies.......perhaps I must go check this "Grindhouse" out over the weekend. Hmmm....
Full of ham and chocolate. And sugary drinks, since that is what I gave up for Lent. Mmmmm.....
......Oh, and I went to church with the familia, of course. All good there.
Well put. Very well put indeed.
Can those two words possibly be put in the same sentence ONE AFTER ANOTHER?!? THIS IS A STARTLING DISCOVERY!!! I had no idea such a state of mind was possible. A Monday that is even REMOTELY POSSIBLY enjoyable?!? The numbers don't add up!!!...*head explodes*
That will certainly be a memorial day. We better get to posting.
Wuzzup, Stuff? What are ya watchin' lately?
Ergh...I wish I could keep waking up late, but now that Spring Break is over, I gotta actually get up before seven. But I'll cope. Now I get to see my beautiful GF more often. She was gone all Spring Break.
EDITZ: Hi Umgemmi Keno. Thanks for the congrats.
I can't pretend to understand what you are going through. It's a truth of life, in general, that as people change and grow that occasionally a friend or group of friends will be lost along the way and new friends will be gained. Mabey this is what has ultimately happened with you and the group of friends you wrote that letter to.
I can't help but feel that even if they couldn't understand exactly what you are going through, that they could at least appreciate the strength of will and courage that you display.
I have, however, had two good friends who legally changed thier names for various reasons. It was a little difficult the first time, for me, as when I was distracted or in a rush, I would occasionally blurt out her old name, but it only happened a handfull of times. For the second friend, it was so easy. Because I had already went through the process once before. It was really exciting too, because for my friends, it was sortof a new begining, and it was in a way thrilling to experience it with them.
I just want to say, this is fantastic advice. It's dripping with wisdom.
I'm wonderful, thank you for checking on me sweetie! I understand with what you mean by wanting to kill off Scott so that people will be able to see you as a woman. Just go slowly with it, an immediate sudden shift can have some disasterous results on your inter-personal relationships, especially in the office. I'm here if you need me.
I am having enough trouble dealing with my own issues, dealing with my friends hang ups is not helping at all.
Sigh.
I am actually having a relatively decent day at work mind you.
I couldn't agree more, and it is all I ask. Instead i get contempt.
Balance is hard, it is all we really strive for in life. Balance and Happyness. The people around you are just trying to do what they think is right for you and in your best interests and really, no matter how bad it seems, their hearts are in the right place and you need to realize that they aren't intentionally trying to hurt you. And I'm glad work is going well.
And for those who don't know Kaylei is my girl name and what will eventually become my real name.
Hey. Not much - I just spent the past hour and a half fiddling around in Gimp, working on this:
As for what I'm watching, I've lately been watching Red Garden. It's a sort of murder mystery type thing where these four girls that go to the same highschool happen to meet each other one night... and are subsequently attacked by a demon/zombie thing. One of them kills it (just barely), and then a couple of people in dark suits show up and tell them that they are already dead, and if they want their lives back, they have to continue killing these things. So, now the show is about them trying to cope with being dead, cope with having to kill these things every other night, and trying to figure out what the heck is going on, all while still trying to live their normal lives. There is a family of evil scientists in there somewhere too. It's pretty nifty.
So, anybody want to play a game on MWS? Whatever format it is, I don't care, just looking for something to do.
AND DID SOMEONE SAY MWS?!?!?!? I'm always game for a game.
But the point is that even though you yourself aren't "Scott," all the people you've ever known have met, gotten to know, and still currently know you as Scott. It doesn't make any sense to punish yourself or the people in your life because, after only a month or so of being open about your feelings and condition, people aren't taking this exactly the way you'd hoped. Killing Scott won't accomplish anything positive, Sakura; it will only further alienate the people you care about from your situation and cause you pain over memories, experiences, and feelings you should be cherishing rather than throwing away.
You have to - and I can't stress those two words enough - HAVE TO give this more time. Both for yourself and for everyone else in your life. Basically, from everything you've said so far, you've just dropped a revelation in people's laps and in no uncertain terms told them that they'll deal with it right now or else. People don't work that way, doll.
I lost friends when I came out to them. And I blamed them for how things went, not myself. In the end, I realized that I'd treated some of my friends very cruelly; I'd told them "hey. I'm gay. You'd better get used to it or I'll have to cut you out of my life." I didn't give them any time to get used to it, to accustom themselves to what was a huge deal in their eyes. As big an issue as it was for me, it was that big for everyone else I knew, and I didn't think about that until it was too late. Don't do that, Sakura. Give your friends the benefit of the doubt and give them time to rub the sleep out of their eyes.
Sakura, I know this is a rough time for you, but personally, I find all this talk of "killing" Scott off, etc, rather disturbing. It seems like you're desperate for these friends to immediately see you as a woman. Don't worry about them. They'll come around in time. I would just focus on getting yourself through this transition, and not worry so much about other people.
Other news... I'm doing taxes tonight. Oh dear. Well, at least after this, it'll be over with, and I'll have some idea of how to do them for next year.
And as for me.. I'm seriously down.... maybe I'll want to talk about it later on here, but please IM me if you want to talk.....
In other news, if people are from another country, or you guys just know of a kickass library job in your area, LET ME KNOW!! I'm especially interested in going off to someplace like England or something.... to get the experience.. I knwo there's quite a few Englandites here, so drop me a line already!!
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The best way of looking at the Sakura/Scott thing is this. There was alot of Sakura in Scott, but almost no Scott in Sakura. Sakura is Scott with the phoniness taken away.
I know how ya feel. I'm not as down but man.. some days, ya know?
Seriously though.. we all hope you can get this whole Scott/Sakura ordeal taken care of, Sakura.. but perhaps a change of pace is in order.
Regular of the Week today! (Maybe.. don't hold your breath)
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Ryttare Kelasin Luna Orelinalei
Thank you Ala-chan
* ShinSakura hugs
you always make me smile.
I really do not know 100% what to do in all this.
*Alacar hugs Saki-chan
I'm sure it will come to you. Until then, we're here to support yas.
Hmm.. I think it's high time I organized some sort of tournament with them there cards on my website...
Ninjedit: Jack, don't worry about it. I'll talk about it when I'm ready.
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@Alacar: Oh noez, not you too!!! Well, I hope my old friend doesn't stay down for TOO long.
@Everyone else: HI!!! I'll be away at dinner, but probably back later.
1. You had better hope that "man" was in the spirit of "aw, MAN!" as opposed to "I'm here for you, man", or else you are gonna find yourself staring at an attack of the tribe of Wannahaveahooha.
2. Thanks for the update, I'll be waiting with baited breath to be sure.
Oh.
My.
God.
You're pregnant, aren't you?
So, any speculations as to what the new cards types are? Ten to one, I'll bet they pull a fast one on us and turn a pre-existing subtype into a new type. Like equipment. Personally, I would be happier if they dropped instants altogether, just to piss off that whole subgroup of players that thinks that the UR instant-sorcery only creatureless deck is some sort of paragon.
Like that annoying guy at the card shop who thinks just because he placed top eight one time he knows everything about the game. "Blue is basically yhe only color, ya know? I mean, I might splash some white for life gain but everything else is useless. Black and red might as well not exist." HA.
I'm hoping there's some kind of radical new type of card that works like two existing types put together or something. Or maybe vanguards will come into the main game or something, who knows.