I'm having a remarkably good day today. I put up the new anime of the week, got my passport pictures done, got a haircut, fixed my checkbook, and ate out at Arby's. I also looked up driving directions to the CompUSA store near Dayton I'm visiting tomorrow. Now I think I'll take out the trash in my room and watch some Ayashi no Ceres.
Hi, everyone. I had kind of a rotten day at work again, but at least now I'm home and in a reasonably good mood. I miss four-day weeks. *sigh*
I really desparately want a new job, but I just don't see it happening . . .
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@Mamelon: Bummer about the nitpicks. It's a common bias, and a pretty deeply rooted one, that females should naturally have a wider range of expressivity in their faces and voices. It's so subtle and pervasive that most people are unaware of it, but it is very difficult to work around, because sounding upbeat and prosodically feminine is a lot of work even for those naturally gifted with it; if you spend too much of your mental energy willing yourself to talk more upbeat and "perky" you will likely find it difficult to attend to the details of what you are doing, miss what people are saying to you, etc.
Sadly as you progress through life people around you become more entrenched in this bias and it can be very difficult to find and keep work if you are significantly different from other females. Don't expect that they have any insight into this bias at all, other than what your manager said. So it's worth working on, even just a little bit.
Yeah . . . a lot of the time, while at work, I will totally tune out what I am doing, because it's pretty easy to do, and since I'm typically bored to death, it comes across in my voice. I always imagine myself as being fairly emotionally expressive, but then again I have a deep voice (as one would expect) and maybe that has something to do with it.
I noticed during my adolescence that I talk in a "girly" way, if that makes sense, and so much of the time I end up sounding like a guy who's just . . . really fruity. I can never hear it myself, so sometimes I try to flatten my voice to keep from sounding dumb . . . it probably doesn't help, though. I think I tend to pitch it too high, I'm 23 and my voice still squeaks or breaks sometimes.
I guess after all is said and done, it doesn't bother me too much. I just have this strong and uncontrollable reaction whenever someone says to me, "You, like most guys/boys/men, do/are X . . ." Urgh. I'm sure I'll always have problems with gender incongruency, I just get down in the dumps about it sometimes.
So I hope you find a balance there.
Thank you, I appreciate that.
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Hey Mamelon, keep your hopes up. I can't pretend to know you very well, because I don't, and I can't pretend to have a lot of advice to give you, because I don't. But I just want you to know that we are all here for you all the time, and whenever you have problems like this, I'm sure we can all help you to get through them. I will pray for you, Mamelon, and I'm sure that if others do the same, you will be able to sort out your life for the better. You will be able to find a job you love and a man you love, and you will be happy. So don't ever let your boss, or your job, or other women get you down, because the only thing that matters is how you view yourself.
Well thank you, that's nice of you to say. I appreciate the prayers.
I actually was kind of sobby at work this morning over all kinds of different things, which was embarrassing as hell. I could barely even talk to do the stupid work. You ever get in that state where you aren't crying, but you just know that if you try to speak, you will start crying? Maybe it's just that time of month for hormones . . . stupid hormones.
I once had a dream in which my house was being infested by these enormous bugs, and ironically, the bugs were called "hormones." My dreams can be very symbolically telling, I guess.
Here's a question - has anyone else here felt sickened, frightened, or otherwise averse to sex or romance (such as during adolescence)? If so, how come? And, it's its not too personal, did your first experience (from kissing to sexual experience) make it any better, if you've had one?
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People don't change overnight. Don't forget that. If you are earnestly trying to change something, you always have to accept that you will occasionally slip up. It's just part of the process. Try to be vigilant about letting it happen again, but don't guilt yourself if it occasionally does happen.
Jealousy is rarely healthy. It's normal, but it's also important to sometimes let your mind reason with your heart. Jealousy almost always stems from negative feelings- feeling threatened, feeling neglected, feeling left out, and what have you. However, while all feelings are valid, they aren't always productive. As human beings, both of you are wired to be attracted to other people, and it WILL happen. However, if you have a commitment, you have something greater than that. Part of what makes a commitment (like that you have in a relationship) so strong is not that it is rooted in feeling, but that it is rooted in conscious decision. You CHOOSE to be with the person you are with, and actively decide every day to remain with them. Don't forget that, and always remind yourself when you are feeling jealous that it is more than a fleeting fancy that keeps you together, more than something as ephemeral as mere emotion.
Wow. I'm not really surprised to see insight, but wow. COME WITH ME TO DEBATE.
@Omna: it can be hard when you're in love and you feel like you want to constantly be with your loved one, and he or she feels smothered. It can make you feel like he or she doesn't love you as much as you love them. I guess a trick is to just imagine how you feel at times when you want to be alone, and picture them feeling that way. You know it's not personal. Madeleine L'Engle once said that a lover is the guardian of his or her beloved's solitude. They're not always going to want to be around you, but when it comes time to seek someone out for attention, you're the one they'll turn to.
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Oh all you crazy Ryans Seriously tho, it wasn't nearly as bad as the name Mike was at one point around here... remember that Crimson?? I suppose I should count myself lucky to have such an original name
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I wouldnt consider you unlucky or anything. Being "single" if we can call the term so (you still have a loving family i assume?) does prevent troubles like the ones you mentioned but may make you feel lonely at times. But remember, that some people actually are really envious to not be on your road
Believe me, I understand. Until very, very recently I have loved being single. I never, ever wanted to fall in love or be in a sexual relationship with anyone, ever. That's all changed suddenly, somehow, but I still feel reluctant. I almost feel like that period of ambivalence/longing that many teenagers go through, I'm going through right now . . .
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I might also be working at a store in the next town to help them run FNM and that will give me a little discretionary income (mostly for bills, but I will have first crack at new products and any collections the owner buys). So maybe my Magic hobby will pick up a bit. I haven't played IRL in like 6 months now. At least since the Coldsnap PR.
Oh, that sounds so cool. I hope you can get into that. Let me ask you - what do you think of Planar Chaos, now that it's been mostly spoiled?
@Mr. Stuff: Panda Z, the Robotimation! Wow, I've always wanted to see that. Cool! I forget the little catchphrase, though.
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I'm having a remarkably good day today. I put up the new anime of the week, got my passport pictures done, got a haircut, fixed my checkbook, and ate out at Arby's. I also looked up driving directions to the CompUSA store near Dayton I'm visiting tomorrow. Now I think I'll take out the trash in my room and watch some Ayashi no Ceres.
Good days all around!
@DDR: I've heard some good things about this game . . . you know how I love to dance . . .
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All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the light that you see. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
But the rainbow is an image of hope for many reasons, as it is a brilliant sight coming out of oftimes dismal weather.
@Mamelon: You think a 4 day week is bad... a few weeks ago, I was working 10 hour shifts Monday-Saturday. I evenutally went and talked to my boss and told him that it had to stop - now i'm working 12-6 3 days a week and i'm happy. Its the kind of stress I don't need a few weeks before going into year 11 at school.
Anyways, hi guys. I'm hoping to become more active here.
For those of you that don't know me, i'm obsessed with art + music. I make sig banners (obv obv) and I also do larger vector pieces, one of which became a finalist in the Young Australian Art Awards. I love to listen to music and I like to rant about it too.
@charlie: wow thats a pretty long schedule but im very glad you got through it. I greatly admire you for that.
@mamelon: aww poor mamelon well if you ever want to talk i will always be on aol messenger. *hugs* I hope you will have a good day tommorrow and I have confidence that you will find a new job.
@alacar: that sounds like alot of fun. I played DDR a little its actually good excercise lol.
@mr. stuff: I am pretty happy you had a good day. I didn't have that much of a good day of course I was at home all day and i am anxious to go back to the hospital to finish the x-ray program so i can get a good career position.
Well I am going to take off for awhile if anyone wants to talk to me on aol messenger i will be here. See you all soon. *hugs and blows kisses to everyone*
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the light that you see. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
But the rainbow is an image of hope for many reasons, as it is a brilliant sight coming out of oftimes dismal weather.
what do you think of Planar Chaos, now that it's been mostly spoiled?
This question? Well I'll be typing up an entire article that will review the set (from a design perspective), so sit tight and you'll see. To give you a summary.. it's not entirely bad. Just not unique.
has anyone else here felt sickened, frightened, or otherwise averse to sex or romance (such as during adolescence)? If so, how come? And, it's its not too personal, did your first experience (from kissing to sexual experience) make it any better, if you've had one?
This question? Well I'll be typing up an entire article that will review the set (from a design perspective), so sit tight and you'll see. To give you a summary.. it's not entirely bad. Just not unique.
I'ma defer to you on this one. I'm mildly excited about the colorshifting but still haven't sat down with the full spoiler AFAIK and gone through every card.
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the light that you see. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel. All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
But the rainbow is an image of hope for many reasons, as it is a brilliant sight coming out of oftimes dismal weather.
I was thinking about quitting magic and selling all of my cards because I hardly know anyone here now that plays magic. All of the people that i played legacy with personally I stopped seeing them for about a year now. Although I am not entirely sure yet.
Also, Im sorry to here you want to leave magic Yukora. I do understand the whole saving for college problems, its not an easy game to keep up with competitivley and still go to college(unless your a really good younger player for the jss or somtin).
It sounds like a kind of Get your cards fast approach but i would help you out with buying some of your cards if you need some cash. Just lmk.
@ alacars cool ddr: Wow thats pretty insane. i would love to have that game
and Congratulations to SnoopDogg for the 2007th post! Man, I can't believe its 2007 already...! back when i was a kid i used to calculate this as the year i'd finish college.. and now i AM actually almost finished w/ college..... wow...
And aww Yukora thats' a shame that you're gonna quit magic.. i hope that doesn't mean you'll be leavin' us?
EDIT: ...Damn.. I really need to study... but bleh i don't really wanna to And its almost 8 already.. ****. Sigh... ok nose to the grindstone kids... no more delays!
And.. *Alacar gives Nai the 1988 :cookie:.. just cause.
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I really desparately want a new job, but I just don't see it happening . . .
Yeah . . . a lot of the time, while at work, I will totally tune out what I am doing, because it's pretty easy to do, and since I'm typically bored to death, it comes across in my voice. I always imagine myself as being fairly emotionally expressive, but then again I have a deep voice (as one would expect) and maybe that has something to do with it.
I noticed during my adolescence that I talk in a "girly" way, if that makes sense, and so much of the time I end up sounding like a guy who's just . . . really fruity. I can never hear it myself, so sometimes I try to flatten my voice to keep from sounding dumb . . . it probably doesn't help, though. I think I tend to pitch it too high, I'm 23 and my voice still squeaks or breaks sometimes.
I guess after all is said and done, it doesn't bother me too much. I just have this strong and uncontrollable reaction whenever someone says to me, "You, like most guys/boys/men, do/are X . . ." Urgh. I'm sure I'll always have problems with gender incongruency, I just get down in the dumps about it sometimes.
Thank you, I appreciate that.
Well thank you, that's nice of you to say. I appreciate the prayers.
I actually was kind of sobby at work this morning over all kinds of different things, which was embarrassing as hell. I could barely even talk to do the stupid work. You ever get in that state where you aren't crying, but you just know that if you try to speak, you will start crying? Maybe it's just that time of month for hormones . . . stupid hormones.
I once had a dream in which my house was being infested by these enormous bugs, and ironically, the bugs were called "hormones." My dreams can be very symbolically telling, I guess.
Here's a question - has anyone else here felt sickened, frightened, or otherwise averse to sex or romance (such as during adolescence)? If so, how come? And, it's its not too personal, did your first experience (from kissing to sexual experience) make it any better, if you've had one?
Wow. I'm not really surprised to see insight, but wow. COME WITH ME TO DEBATE.
@Omna: it can be hard when you're in love and you feel like you want to constantly be with your loved one, and he or she feels smothered. It can make you feel like he or she doesn't love you as much as you love them. I guess a trick is to just imagine how you feel at times when you want to be alone, and picture them feeling that way. You know it's not personal. Madeleine L'Engle once said that a lover is the guardian of his or her beloved's solitude. They're not always going to want to be around you, but when it comes time to seek someone out for attention, you're the one they'll turn to.
None of you know my real name, nah nah.
Believe me, I understand. Until very, very recently I have loved being single. I never, ever wanted to fall in love or be in a sexual relationship with anyone, ever. That's all changed suddenly, somehow, but I still feel reluctant. I almost feel like that period of ambivalence/longing that many teenagers go through, I'm going through right now . . .
Oh, that sounds so cool. I hope you can get into that. Let me ask you - what do you think of Planar Chaos, now that it's been mostly spoiled?
@Mr. Stuff: Panda Z, the Robotimation! Wow, I've always wanted to see that. Cool! I forget the little catchphrase, though.
Good days all around!
@DDR: I've heard some good things about this game . . . you know how I love to dance . . .
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel.
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
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DDR: We played a DDR clone on New Year's Eve with the family, where the game could scan your CD and make a dance beat to it. It was hilarious!
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Anyways, hi guys. I'm hoping to become more active here.
For those of you that don't know me, i'm obsessed with art + music. I make sig banners (obv obv) and I also do larger vector pieces, one of which became a finalist in the Young Australian Art Awards. I love to listen to music and I like to rant about it too.
I'll be seeing you more often, hopefully!
@mamelon: aww poor mamelon well if you ever want to talk i will always be on aol messenger. *hugs* I hope you will have a good day tommorrow and I have confidence that you will find a new job.
@alacar: that sounds like alot of fun. I played DDR a little its actually good excercise lol.
@mr. stuff: I am pretty happy you had a good day. I didn't have that much of a good day of course I was at home all day and i am anxious to go back to the hospital to finish the x-ray program so i can get a good career position.
Well I am going to take off for awhile if anyone wants to talk to me on aol messenger i will be here. See you all soon. *hugs and blows kisses to everyone*
Love,
Cecilia
Have a killer headache. Tell me a good joke to cheer me up?
EDIT: Who's gonna get the 2007th post!?
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Maybe ill be super lucky and get the 2007th post as well.
I can give you a hug pirate since you have a headache *hugs* I hope you will feel better soon buddy. I wish you very well also.
Edit: @omna: i will! well maybe.
Love,
Cecilia
I was born in 1984, too, Danica. I forgot to mention that.
@CharlieD: Actually, I like four-day work weeks. It's five-day weeks I don't like. Three-day weeks are even better.
@Alacar: Yes, that's right, I've told my name to a few people. Now answer my survey question, dammit. I need advice!
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All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
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I'ma defer to you on this one. I'm mildly excited about the colorshifting but still haven't sat down with the full spoiler AFAIK and gone through every card.
In unrelated news, I'm an uncle now
Yep, that's the one.
@Yukora: Why are you quitting Magic now?
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to be the peace that you feel.
All that I yearn for, for richer or poorer, is to fill your heart on my own.
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As for your other question that Alacar pointed out, I have never had a problem with sex, and romance.
'Grats Pirate.
@ninja: Congratulations! I am very happy for you.
Love,
Cecilia
Grats there dude.
Also, Im sorry to here you want to leave magic Yukora. I do understand the whole saving for college problems, its not an easy game to keep up with competitivley and still go to college(unless your a really good younger player for the jss or somtin).
It sounds like a kind of Get your cards fast approach but i would help you out with buying some of your cards if you need some cash. Just lmk.
@ alacars cool ddr: Wow thats pretty insane. i would love to have that game
and Congratulations to SnoopDogg for the 2007th post! Man, I can't believe its 2007 already...! back when i was a kid i used to calculate this as the year i'd finish college.. and now i AM actually almost finished w/ college..... wow...
And aww Yukora thats' a shame that you're gonna quit magic.. i hope that doesn't mean you'll be leavin' us?
EDIT: ...Damn.. I really need to study... but bleh i don't really wanna to And its almost 8 already.. ****. Sigh... ok nose to the grindstone kids... no more delays!
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and grats to DoGG (:D) on the 2007th post.
Glad to see you finally come around charlie.
@quitting magic: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Even tho, if i think about it, i mainly only play on mws.... and I rarely get cards besides... o well.
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