Yes, think whatever you want, but I just can't handle it. Before you acuse me of being racist or anything related, just read to what I have to say.
I know it's a rant but I just feel I need to explode somewhere and the MTG Salvation community has been pretty open and supportive the few times I've posted here.
Actually, I'm tired of being a part of mexican culture and society, all in all. Since I was a kid I've had problems integrating myself with other mexicans, since I was mostly homeschooled by my mother and uncle who spent a big chunk of their lives on the States thanks to my grandma. I always admired American culture, I learnt english pretty much by myself and by interacting with Uncle and other americans, playing videogames, watching movies, etc.
If you've ever before felt you don't belong anywhere, you haven't been on my shoes. The more I spend time with other mexicans the more unwelcome I feel, mostly because mexican society is very squared and closed to the non-standard "macho" or "hard party boy", which is expected from a person my age. It's not uncommon for mexican teenagers to starts partying and consuming alcohol and tobaco at arround 13 years old; I also dislike football soccer which is also something downsighted by male society here. In fact, I can't even get along with exican geeks, MTG is such an unpopular game, since mostly of the geeks here are interested only in anime and anime games.
I've also never had a romantic relationship with a mexican woman. Ladies consider me awkward, weird and even scary. On the other hand I've been able to socialize with american women quite well, my first girlfriend being an asian-american, lasting with her for about 3 years.
Whenever I joined an MMO or roleplaying site, people would also act in desbelief regarding my nationality, as they said, I was a "smart cookie" for being a latino, or also saying stuff like "I would never imagine a mexican geek".
Being a mexican has sorta stigmatized me, how people expects me to be here, and what people believes about my culture in America. Luckily for me it seems I can stand out much better with foreigners than between my own people, and even my best friend forever (who is also mexican) thinks I'm way too weird to even be a "weird mexican"; sadly my only sin is even my geek tastes aren't what my culture would expect, as mentioned above.
In fact, I've even reached the point where online I'll say I'm american, and make racist comments about my own culture, part of this because us, mexicans, are a pretty racist culture, it would seem, specially towards asians. Just today I was part of a debate about the Muk-Bang phenomena in South Korea (where people pays other people to eat and talk via streaming); regardless how strange it is, the comments were mostly about how "sick" and "dangerous" asians are to our world and how they should just dissapear; so, I went in to call out on the blatant racism and ignorance of our own society and how we become crybabies against Trump and Walls, and I ended up being labeled as a weaboo.
Personally, I'd pretty much kill to be part of any other society and my only goal in life is making it legally outta here and into another place; sad thing is, my main obstacle is that I'M A MEXICAN. I can't afford any transcontinental journey, colleges are not interested in giving out scholarships to people with my major (Design), and since then my GPA went from 3.7 to 2.7 so I can't afford schoolarships in case that one became aviable by some sort of miracle.
I have to say I kinda get why Americans want immigrants out, and sadly a lot of what people fears about mexican culture isn't fiction (altough other stuff is blatantly riddiculous and offensive). It's mostly because of our agressiveness and general mean attitude towards pretty much everything. Remember those 43 students killed here that the whole world is making noise about so justice can be done here? Well, a lot of people here makes jokes about the deceased students and insults those who are actually trying to help...
At my 23 years old I've never felt so misserable about being who I am. I just don't fit in, and I can't be where I seem to do...
At 23, I would tell you to try to move away from the large populations of mexicans you are bothered by. I live in Ohio, and a true Mexican is pretty rare up here, and if you live near a major city (Columbus or Cincinnati, don't go to Cleveland) the racism isn't that bad. If you don't like where you are in life, get away. It might be hard to pick up and move, but at times, it's the best thing you can do for yourself. Plus, the worst that could happen is that you have to go back home.
Save a decent amount of money, the scour the job forums, find a job, then find temporary living situations, and make the jump. Work as hard as you can and be polite and someone will notice. Good luck to you.
At 23, I would tell you to try to move away from the large populations of mexicans you are bothered by. I live in Ohio, and a true Mexican is pretty rare up here, and if you live near a major city (Columbus or Cincinnati, don't go to Cleveland) the racism isn't that bad. If you don't like where you are in life, get away. It might be hard to pick up and move, but at times, it's the best thing you can do for yourself. Plus, the worst that could happen is that you have to go back home.
Save a decent amount of money, the scour the job forums, find a job, then find temporary living situations, and make the jump. Work as hard as you can and be polite and someone will notice. Good luck to you.
Geeze ohoio is like mexico 2.0. I think I would rather be in Mexico than Ohio tho
Thanks guys but I actually live in Mexico... Actually, even having a foreigner girlfriend here was some sort of taboo just because she was asian-american. I remember, i was arround 16 years old and my classmates would say I was wrong for not working harder and looking for a mexican girl instead.
Much of what you describe in the original post resonates with my experience as Anglo-American geek. I've always felt out of place and this continues; the details shift but the core dynamic remains the same. I'm queer and an anarchist in addition to being a geek. The aggressive masculinity in encounter in various U.S. populations - including MTG players - definitely turns me off and reminds me that I don't fit in.
I can see why you have a more positive opinion of U.S. culture, but I'd recommend caution because it's not necessarily that great for geeks here either - especially if you don't have lots of money. Really, generalizations about most or all large groups - Mexicans, Americans, Asians, etc. - are silly. The kind of community you're looking for is presumably more common in the U.S., but it's still relatively rare.
Mexicans in general and you in particular are more than welcome to come to the United States as far as I'm concerned. So if that's what you want, I hope you're able. If you play EDH or Limited, I might even find myself in a game with you in the future.
This seems like a self esteem issue. Not identifying with your "national" roots is fine, but remember that who you are is unique to just you. No where on this planet is another you. So instead of being fixated on "Mexicans" and how you are different from "them" but see yourself as adding a twist to a culture that has so much richness to begin with.
I like you am Latino, born and raised in NYC. I'm of Ecuadorian decent and can and DO integrate perfectly in both cultures. Living in texas doesn't give me the chance to indulge in my "ecuadorianisms" but I don't ever mind letting out my love for the culture my parents raised me with. At the same time, I'm 100% American, (I even talk like a New Yorker) and I love this country because it gives people from all roots a chance to live together. It's never a perfect situation at any given point in time, but at least we tolerate one another.
For what it's worth, see yourself as an individual first, and everything else after (honestly I don't think you should define yourself by where you are from). I am i love with a wonderful "Mexican American" women who loves both cultures and embraces them equally. I'm a lucky guy, and you sir are unique.
I know plenty of "mexicans" that play Magic and I Love playing the game and speaking spanish! It's a different feel for the game, and it gives the game a different tempo!
-Racer
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At 23, I would tell you to try to move away from the large populations of mexicans you are bothered by. I live in Ohio, and a true Mexican is pretty rare up here, and if you live near a major city (Columbus or Cincinnati, don't go to Cleveland) the racism isn't that bad. If you don't like where you are in life, get away. It might be hard to pick up and move, but at times, it's the best thing you can do for yourself. Plus, the worst that could happen is that you have to go back home.
Save a decent amount of money, the scour the job forums, find a job, then find temporary living situations, and make the jump. Work as hard as you can and be polite and someone will notice. Good luck to you.
Geeze ohoio is like mexico 2.0. I think I would rather be in Mexico than Ohio tho
Never heard of that. Ohio is fairly quite and sheltered, I have co workers, native to other states, that say that people from Ohio are too polite for their own good most of the times. That and they always say we can't drive apparently. Doesn't sound anything like Mexico.
Again, it sounds like the best thing for you to do is try to leave. Even if it's just another part of the country that is a bit more welcoming it would be better. Don't stay were you feel like you aren't welcome, as you aren't going to live life the way you would like to. Find a place you feel comfortable in and run to it. You might leave family behind, but you can always visit.
It's not easy being from Kentucky either you are not far enough north to be a Northerner but to far north to be a Southerner. All I see on the internet is how all Kentuckians are uneducated hillbillies which is not true. I love the great state of Kentucky people here are truly generous and kind. Granted there're bad apples in every bunch.
Work hard, and if you really think that the environment is toxic to you then get the hell out of there. Take odd jobs. Scrounge up enough money to travel. See the world if you really want to leave home. Live in hostels for a bit if you have to, maybe get a working visa and work at another country and live there.
That being said, you have to be sure that the issues you face aren't within yourself, but are in your environment. Because if your problems concern your own personal feelings, then travelling won't do a damn thing. You can't run from issues like that.
For now, find your niche. I'm sure the entirety of the country isn't starkly different from you. You can definitely find like-minded people. You just have to look. Where do you buy your cards? Maybe hang out there for a bit and find some players to play with. Sure there are some aspects of everyone's culture that they don't enjoy (I love my Italian roots, but not everything about them), but you can find aspects of the culture that you do enjoy!
try being born Filipino.... atleast they get the feeling you are Asian if you are Chinese, but being Filipino? "is your country part of asia? I thought its only japan and china"
I think the main thing to realize is you're still young and feeling out of place is a phase. You'll grow out of it and these things will seem a lot less important than they are. For the time being, put some thought and work into building the type of future you want. Wanna be an architect in Massachusetts? a park ranger in Colorado? Start planning now and don't worry about your environment so much because it's only temporary. Trust me, I'm 30 and I'm STILL finding out what I want to do, where I want to do it, and so on. I grew up in rural Pennsylvania with a conservative family while I was very liberal, in a punk band, artistic, etc. Sure, I felt out of place, but I realize now that it didn't mean much other than it helped me solidify what it meant to be me. You'll take that away from this experience and you'll be better for it. But don't dwell on it.
I think the main thing to realize is you're still young and feeling out of place is a phase. You'll grow out of it and these things will seem a lot less important than they are. For the time being, put some thought and work into building the type of future you want. Wanna be an architect in Massachusetts? a park ranger in Colorado? Start planning now and don't worry about your environment so much because it's only temporary. Trust me, I'm 30 and I'm STILL finding out what I want to do, where I want to do it, and so on. I grew up in rural Pennsylvania with a conservative family while I was very liberal, in a punk band, artistic, etc. Sure, I felt out of place, but I realize now that it didn't mean much other than it helped me solidify what it meant to be me. You'll take that away from this experience and you'll be better for it. But don't dwell on it.
Cheers
Well said, I had a lot of the same feelings when I was a teen. I wanted to move to the west coast but as I grew older I came to appreciate were I was born and raised. I still plan on moving some day. My father past away a few years ago he was a big part of why I never moved away because we were very close. I still have my mother so I'm staying and enjoying as much time with her as I can.
A ready made identity is something you reject. I've had people try to transmogrify me into something of their own making, each I dejected the mold. I chose specific relationships and drew a line. "Healthy" and "unhealthy."
Any relationship that caused me undue stress, I eliminated.
Any relationship that created opportunity and experiences that was something I felt more like doing. I employed into deepening those relationships.
Then there are times whenever the point of someone trying to make you become something you do not want to be, you stand up to them and say suck it.
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try being born Filipino.... atleast they get the feeling you are Asian if you are Chinese, but being Filipino? "is your country part of asia? I thought its only japan and china"
People can literally just look at a globe and see that asia is much more than china and japan.
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To put it more simply, it's like saying, "I can prove Jesus is real and loves you. See? Here's my Hispanic friend Jesus. He's had a crush on you for a long time. Tell em' Jesus."
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try being born Filipino.... atleast they get the feeling you are Asian if you are Chinese, but being Filipino? "is your country part of asia? I thought its only japan and china"
I mean at least you don't get openly discriminated against when it comes to college entrances and job placement.
I would suggest making a plan to move to wherever you want to. I personally loved a lot of things about the US when I lived there doing my bachelors degree so now I'm planning on moving there but that would probably be around 10 years from now.
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try being born Filipino.... atleast they get the feeling you are Asian if you are Chinese, but being Filipino? "is your country part of asia? I thought its only japan and china"
People can literally just look at a globe and see that asia is much more than china and japan.
o.O are we actually discussing that asia is more than two countries?
Anyways, oregon is very diverse and we would gladly accept a new geek into the community
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I know it's a rant but I just feel I need to explode somewhere and the MTG Salvation community has been pretty open and supportive the few times I've posted here.
Actually, I'm tired of being a part of mexican culture and society, all in all. Since I was a kid I've had problems integrating myself with other mexicans, since I was mostly homeschooled by my mother and uncle who spent a big chunk of their lives on the States thanks to my grandma. I always admired American culture, I learnt english pretty much by myself and by interacting with Uncle and other americans, playing videogames, watching movies, etc.
If you've ever before felt you don't belong anywhere, you haven't been on my shoes. The more I spend time with other mexicans the more unwelcome I feel, mostly because mexican society is very squared and closed to the non-standard "macho" or "hard party boy", which is expected from a person my age. It's not uncommon for mexican teenagers to starts partying and consuming alcohol and tobaco at arround 13 years old; I also dislike football soccer which is also something downsighted by male society here. In fact, I can't even get along with exican geeks, MTG is such an unpopular game, since mostly of the geeks here are interested only in anime and anime games.
I've also never had a romantic relationship with a mexican woman. Ladies consider me awkward, weird and even scary. On the other hand I've been able to socialize with american women quite well, my first girlfriend being an asian-american, lasting with her for about 3 years.
Whenever I joined an MMO or roleplaying site, people would also act in desbelief regarding my nationality, as they said, I was a "smart cookie" for being a latino, or also saying stuff like "I would never imagine a mexican geek".
Being a mexican has sorta stigmatized me, how people expects me to be here, and what people believes about my culture in America. Luckily for me it seems I can stand out much better with foreigners than between my own people, and even my best friend forever (who is also mexican) thinks I'm way too weird to even be a "weird mexican"; sadly my only sin is even my geek tastes aren't what my culture would expect, as mentioned above.
In fact, I've even reached the point where online I'll say I'm american, and make racist comments about my own culture, part of this because us, mexicans, are a pretty racist culture, it would seem, specially towards asians. Just today I was part of a debate about the Muk-Bang phenomena in South Korea (where people pays other people to eat and talk via streaming); regardless how strange it is, the comments were mostly about how "sick" and "dangerous" asians are to our world and how they should just dissapear; so, I went in to call out on the blatant racism and ignorance of our own society and how we become crybabies against Trump and Walls, and I ended up being labeled as a weaboo.
Personally, I'd pretty much kill to be part of any other society and my only goal in life is making it legally outta here and into another place; sad thing is, my main obstacle is that I'M A MEXICAN. I can't afford any transcontinental journey, colleges are not interested in giving out scholarships to people with my major (Design), and since then my GPA went from 3.7 to 2.7 so I can't afford schoolarships in case that one became aviable by some sort of miracle.
I have to say I kinda get why Americans want immigrants out, and sadly a lot of what people fears about mexican culture isn't fiction (altough other stuff is blatantly riddiculous and offensive). It's mostly because of our agressiveness and general mean attitude towards pretty much everything. Remember those 43 students killed here that the whole world is making noise about so justice can be done here? Well, a lot of people here makes jokes about the deceased students and insults those who are actually trying to help...
At my 23 years old I've never felt so misserable about being who I am. I just don't fit in, and I can't be where I seem to do...
Save a decent amount of money, the scour the job forums, find a job, then find temporary living situations, and make the jump. Work as hard as you can and be polite and someone will notice. Good luck to you.
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Geeze ohoio is like mexico 2.0. I think I would rather be in Mexico than Ohio tho
Pretty crappy down here.
I can see why you have a more positive opinion of U.S. culture, but I'd recommend caution because it's not necessarily that great for geeks here either - especially if you don't have lots of money. Really, generalizations about most or all large groups - Mexicans, Americans, Asians, etc. - are silly. The kind of community you're looking for is presumably more common in the U.S., but it's still relatively rare.
Mexicans in general and you in particular are more than welcome to come to the United States as far as I'm concerned. So if that's what you want, I hope you're able. If you play EDH or Limited, I might even find myself in a game with you in the future.
I like you am Latino, born and raised in NYC. I'm of Ecuadorian decent and can and DO integrate perfectly in both cultures. Living in texas doesn't give me the chance to indulge in my "ecuadorianisms" but I don't ever mind letting out my love for the culture my parents raised me with. At the same time, I'm 100% American, (I even talk like a New Yorker) and I love this country because it gives people from all roots a chance to live together. It's never a perfect situation at any given point in time, but at least we tolerate one another.
For what it's worth, see yourself as an individual first, and everything else after (honestly I don't think you should define yourself by where you are from). I am i love with a wonderful "Mexican American" women who loves both cultures and embraces them equally. I'm a lucky guy, and you sir are unique.
I know plenty of "mexicans" that play Magic and I Love playing the game and speaking spanish! It's a different feel for the game, and it gives the game a different tempo!
-Racer
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G Mono Green Tron (34-10-3 paper record, only SCG/Regionals/PPTQ record)
C Eldrazi Tron (9-5)
UG Infect
RW Burn
Never heard of that. Ohio is fairly quite and sheltered, I have co workers, native to other states, that say that people from Ohio are too polite for their own good most of the times. That and they always say we can't drive apparently. Doesn't sound anything like Mexico.
Again, it sounds like the best thing for you to do is try to leave. Even if it's just another part of the country that is a bit more welcoming it would be better. Don't stay were you feel like you aren't welcome, as you aren't going to live life the way you would like to. Find a place you feel comfortable in and run to it. You might leave family behind, but you can always visit.
Cheeri0sXWU
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Who's the Beatdown
Alt+0198=Æ
That being said, you have to be sure that the issues you face aren't within yourself, but are in your environment. Because if your problems concern your own personal feelings, then travelling won't do a damn thing. You can't run from issues like that.
For now, find your niche. I'm sure the entirety of the country isn't starkly different from you. You can definitely find like-minded people. You just have to look. Where do you buy your cards? Maybe hang out there for a bit and find some players to play with. Sure there are some aspects of everyone's culture that they don't enjoy (I love my Italian roots, but not everything about them), but you can find aspects of the culture that you do enjoy!
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try being born Filipino.... atleast they get the feeling you are Asian if you are Chinese, but being Filipino? "is your country part of asia? I thought its only japan and china"
Cheers
Any relationship that caused me undue stress, I eliminated.
Any relationship that created opportunity and experiences that was something I felt more like doing. I employed into deepening those relationships.
Then there are times whenever the point of someone trying to make you become something you do not want to be, you stand up to them and say suck it.
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People can literally just look at a globe and see that asia is much more than china and japan.
Thank you!
I mean at least you don't get openly discriminated against when it comes to college entrances and job placement.
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Anyways, oregon is very diverse and we would gladly accept a new geek into the community