Meh. I'm lacking in any sort of interest. It's like the last decade puked up a set.
Also, in reply to your Psyduck: yeah, I know. My family knows best how to put the 'war' in 'awkward'. And I definately excel in making tense situations even more uncomfortable. So I'm staying with my parents. It's my version of fun.
Also, I'm at a loss for a good HGOtW. I wanted to do one that had to do with music (VMAs being last night plus the fact that we haven't done musicians in awhile) but I'm coming up empty. First nominee gets candy.
Panic! At the Disco?? Oh duuuuude, no. That will only lead to a despondent VMA rant. Which will only lead to the requisite MTV rant and likely a rant on the state of mainstream music in general.
Is he hot enough to make such ire worth it for you?
Anyway, irony of irony...Mikey and dad are going to watch a high school football game in Ohio, and my friend Krysten and I are going to watch Franklin's game.
I think Mikey's still frustrated with me...we were up until 4 this morning, talking. Well, he was talking. I had a major breakdown, and he couldn't understand why I couldn't just pick myself back up right away and move on. I can do that most of the time, yesterday just wasn't one of them.
He still isn't talking to me like he normally does, he's very short with me. I don't like that.
I bought a new keyboard today, and then sledgehammered the other one to shards of plastic. It was good.
Haha, pokemon. Raichu was always my favorite.
I'm addicted to the new Five for Fighting album, Two Lights. The only song I don't like on it is Road To Heaven.
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Pokemon...I think I might need my migrane pills now. On the subject of time spiral I have determined that I will need to see the whole set before I can get an opinion of it. Right now from the few previews I have seen I really really really don't know what to make of it.
Sorry I haven't been around the past day and a half or so I went on a really long date with someone...turned out though that it wasn't feelin right to me though *sadness*
AND! I think I figured out my depression problem, just not how to fix it. When somthing small happens I overthink about it, when I overthink I get depressed and then I start to get unhappy with myself and overthink about that and (repeat as nessicary)
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Pokemon...I think I might need my migrane pills now. On the subject of time spiral I have determined that I will need to see the whole set before I can get an opinion of it. Right now from the few previews I have seen I really really really don't know what to make of it.
Sorry I haven't been around the past day and a half or so I went on a really long date with someone...turned out though that it wasn't feelin right to me though *sadness*
AND! I think I figured out my depression problem, just not how to fix it. When somthing small happens I overthink about it, when I overthink I get depressed and then I start to get unhappy with myself and overthink about that and (repeat as nessicary)
Welcome to my world lol. However, recently I've stopped overthinking things so much and I feel.... less than I was before... like I lost something. Dunno. I feel more normal and that's annoying >_<. Not that I strive to be abnormal but normal is so boring!
Welcome to my world lol. However, recently I've stopped overthinking things so much and I feel.... less than I was before... like I lost something. Dunno. I feel more normal and that's annoying >_<. Not that I strive to be abnormal but normal is so boring!
I tried just stopping the overthinking process....not as easy is it sounds...for the short time it stops I feel like I am holding my breath, the feeling that you can't do it forever and it's slightly uncomfortable when you do. Then I can't do it anymore and I overthink again.
Maybe it's time to see a therapist...bah
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I tried just stopping the overthinking process....not as easy is it sounds...for the short time it stops I feel like I am holding my breath, the feeling that you can't do it forever and it's slightly uncomfortable when you do. Then I can't do it anymore and I overthink again.
Maybe it's time to see a therapist...bah
I'm not refusing to see a therapist about it but I feel like I can just be more introspective and talk with friends and it will have more of an affect on me. If I'm even slightly reticent to going to a therapist then I won't really accept what they have to say. I really have to WANT to go in order for their advice to be effective.
One of my friends, whom I have some admiration for toward his ambition, said that it's hard some times "But sometimes you just have to find that one thing in your life to focus on and just go for that. Let it drive you" It was in reference to ambition but it's sound advice for anything really. Relaxing and letting yourself calm down and blank out your mind until you only see that one thing helps with the overthinking problem but I feel like it also gives you a lot more perspective on stuff.
I'm not refusing to see a therapist about it but I feel like I can just be more introspective and talk with friends and it will have more of an affect on me. If I'm even slightly reticent to going to a therapist then I won't really accept what they have to say. I really have to WANT to go in order for their advice to be effective.
One of my friends, whom I have some admiration for toward his ambition, said that it's hard some times "But sometimes you just have to find that one thing in your life to focus on and just go for that. Let it drive you" It was in reference to ambition but it's sound advice for anything really. Relaxing and letting yourself calm down and blank out your mind until you only see that one thing helps with the overthinking problem but I feel like it also gives you a lot more perspective on stuff.
Hmmm I shall have to give that some thought, thank you for listening.
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I'm not refusing to see a therapist about it but I feel like I can just be more introspective and talk with friends and it will have more of an affect on me.
Agreed. Except I absolutely flat-out refuse to see a therapist. I just have this...thing...where talking to an adult about what's happened to me in the past and how I feel/deal with it now that terrifies me. I can't even tell Mikey's parents, and they've become my "parents". I know I can trust them, and that they won't think any less of me for it...I'm just scared.
I wish I could tell them so badly, because sometimes they say or do things that remind me of the past, and the only thing I can do is run and hide in mikey's room under a blanket. Then Mikey has to come upstairs and calm me down...and then we go back downstairs like it never happened. O_o;
One day, though, I want to tell them what's happened to me since I was about 3. And that it still continues to this day, although it's gotten slightly better.
ANYway. This is my last day in Franklin, for tomorrow I move into my dorm at Parkside. A new beginning, in a way. I have a goal, and I have a countdown until I see Mikey next, and those two things are gonna keep me going when I feel like I can't do it anymore.
Back to packing, blah!
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That's an interesting situation, really. I think that you should do that. I think that therapists kind of operate on a pseudoscience in which their interpretation is always right. The whole idea of having "shrinks" is bad, because they tend to reinforce majoritarian ideas of what is "normal." Conformity is normal. Non-conformity isn't. ADD is an interesting example. If you pay attention to your boring ass teacher, then you don't have ADD. If you refuse to listen to her crap, then you have "a behavioral problem" that is solved by taking Ridalin.
Well, whatever. Usually, I can turn anything into a rant. But, I hope that whatever you choose to do is fruitful for you.
Help has come in the form of a bit of basic algebra. I feel that it'll shed some light on your problem here.
Basically:
S + T = W
...S in this case stands for 'spam' and the T stands for 'light trolling'. And the W? That stands for 'Warning'. I love math. -- {mikeyG}
That's an interesting situation, really. I think that you should do that. I think that therapists kind of operate on a pseudoscience in which their interpretation is always right. The whole idea of having "shrinks" is bad, because they tend to reinforce majoritarian ideas of what is "normal." Conformity is normal. Non-conformity isn't. ADD is an interesting example. If you pay attention to your boring ass teacher, then you don't have ADD. If you refuse to listen to her crap, then you have "a behavioral problem" that is solved by taking Ridalin.
Well, whatever. Usually, I can turn anything into a rant. But, I hope that whatever you choose to do is fruitful for you.
It is interesting that non-comforist behavoir is concidered a mental problem. I have a hard time believing other people when they tell me that I have a problem because of the idea that socially we should all be the same is absurd. The question though is when you yourself realize that you do have a problem, who should you turn to? I have gamer buddies but noone I would confide to around here but somehow it seems that getting a professional to tell me what I should do doesn't seem right somehow.
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Hello person I haven't met before, it is good to know that you are back. Now the question I have since I don't know...where did you go?
Well I used to be a regular here but then I lost my job and house and that put a damper on my internet access. Thanks for asking.
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A couple days ago, this kids house got paintballed. Nothing real serious, just a couple splats on their garage door - during a rainy night, so most of it washed off my the morning. Apparently his parents are angry at me because I should have done something to stop it. Since, you know, I obviously know who did it and everything *hint: I don't* Angry parents make me angry
A couple days ago, this kids house got paintballed. Nothing real serious, just a couple splats on their garage door - during a rainy night, so most of it washed off my the morning. Apparently his parents are angry at me because I should have done something to stop it. Since, you know, I obviously know who did it and everything *hint: I don't* Angry parents make me angry
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This hurts my head. Maybe I am missing a point but how can you be held responcible for another persons house getting paintballed?
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This hurts my head. Maybe I am missing a point but how can you be held responcible for another persons house getting paintballed?
People are just stupid that way. As we get older, this becomes clearer.
As for the therapy issue, I don't automatically consider therapy a bad thing. I think there are many times where a person just needs to unload things they've been keeping bottled up. And sometimes confiding in a loved one isn't a possibility so I think in that capacity, a therapist can lend a supportive, attentive ear. Not to mention that therapists are theoretically equipped to offer advice and help one through emotional and psychological messes. Without a doubt, you should find a therapist with whom you can trust and have a good relationship with, anything else is counterproductive.
As for conformity/nonconformity, that may be true in some cases that therapy only reinforces traditional views on what is normal. But I don't really see how that is necessarily a bad thing. I never understood the whole "conformity is bad" philosophy. I personally think that bending yourself ass over foot in an effort to be nonconformist isn't often productive. If your therapst is helping you and his/her advice involves conformity, who cares as long as it solves your problem? Note that I don't think conforming is the answer to every problem (it quite obviously isn't), but if it happens to be the solution to a specific personal issue, I wouldn't discard it just so I could say I was nonconformist. Whatever it takes to improve my life and be healthy.
Personally, I wouldn't go to see a therapist, but that's just my stubborn lone wolf nature. I'd never willingly pay someone to listen to my problems. Especially considering it'd be a great many sessions before I'd even begin opening up. It's just not worth the time/financial commitment for the petty returns I'd be seeing. I support therapy as a possible path for some people, just not myself.
Mike where's that hot guy of the arbitrary time period
Right here.
Amusing me for five years as my future self arrogant manwhore Brian Kinney, tonight's entry managed to make complete douchebaggery look cool. Even made the eventual (and somewhat inevitable/predictable) redemption of Le Kinney palatable. But then the worst thing happened: the flagship series for unrealistic portrayal of gay life Queer as Folk ended. Justin hopped his twink ass on a a plane to the Big Apple and Brian Kinney moped. Then he got high, danced away the pain and screwed a bunch of guys. Just to show how much he grew as a person. So where does that leave our HGOtW? Besides out of a job? Well, halfway to Typecastland, that's where. But then along came a crappy new FOX drama about a missing senator's trophy wife where our boy gets to break some new ground ..... oh wait, no, his character is a surly jackass with backstory issues. And he's also unlikely to get naked and/or have hot sex with guys anytime soon. To top it all off, rumors persist that he's been fired and the plastic pectoral perfection of Eddie Cibrian has been cast as a replacement.
*sigh* Stupid FOX. Oh well, keep your pretty head held high, Gale Harold. You're still very pretty. And I still love you, even if that love is 67% envy of your superb hair.
Well, after an interesting summer, I have finally made the return to the forums (outside of the Rumor Mill. I lurk there fairly often even when I am not checking the rest of the boards.) I was working at the Trail Ridge Store in Rocky Mountain National Park, and had my first crush on a boy. It was fun.
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Well, after an interesting summer, I have finally made the return to the forums (outside of the Rumor Mill. I lurk there fairly often even when I am not checking the rest of the boards.) I was working at the Trail Ridge Store in Rocky Mountain National Park, and had my first crush on a boy. It was fun.
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National Park crush...sounds good. I remember my first crush on a boy...ok this is going to sound like an old fogey story never mind.
But glad you had fun
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As for the therapy issue, I don't automatically consider therapy a bad thing. I think there are many times where a person just needs to unload things they've been keeping bottled up. And sometimes confiding in a loved one isn't a possibility so I think in that capacity, a therapist can lend a supportive, attentive ear. Not to mention that therapists are theoretically equipped to offer advice and help one through emotional and psychological messes. Without a doubt, you should find a therapist with whom you can trust and have a good relationship with, anything else is counterproductive.
As for conformity/nonconformity, that may be true in some cases that therapy only reinforces traditional views on what is normal. But I don't really see how that is necessarily a bad thing. I never understood the whole "conformity is bad" philosophy. I personally think that bending yourself ass over foot in an effort to be nonconformist isn't often productive. If your therapst is helping you and his/her advice involves conformity, who cares as long as it solves your problem? Note that I don't think conforming is the answer to every problem (it quite obviously isn't), but if it happens to be the solution to a specific personal issue, I wouldn't discard it just so I could say I was nonconformist. Whatever it takes to improve my life and be healthy.
Personally, I wouldn't go to see a therapist, but that's just my stubborn lone wolf nature. I'd never willingly pay someone to listen to my problems. Especially considering it'd be a great many sessions before I'd even begin opening up. It's just not worth the time/financial commitment for the petty returns I'd be seeing. I support therapy as a possible path for some people, just not myself.
I do see the value of a therapist, but it's more a question that I have a hard time communicating with someone who isn't on at least of my brain waves, also I find that if I want to unload of someone I barely know I'll use a forum. At least that way I will get more direct or at least very humorous answers.
Tonight I figured out alot of my issues anyway. Sitting down and simplifying everything helps, you realize stuff you thought was a problem really isn't and that sometimes you are viewing a situation as a problem for a different reason that what it really is. By simplifing it I find I am much more clear now and not as depressed as I have been in the past weeks.
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Mikey, I think your HGotW prose is better than the pictures!
Why thank you. Though I was shocked that in my stable of pictures, I had not one of Gale in any sort of undress. He was naked every damn episode of QAF and still I had zilch. Not even a stray nip. Now that's a head-scratcher.
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I do see the value of a therapist, but it's more a question that I have a hard time communicating with someone who isn't on at least of my brain waves, also I find that if I want to unload of someone I barely know I'll use a forum. At least that way I will get more direct or at least very humorous answers.
The key ingredient with this sort of thing is that you feel comfortable with whomever you decide to confide in. If you can't be comfortable enough to communicate what's bothering you, there's not much point.
Tonight I figured out alot of my issues anyway. Sitting down and simplifying everything helps, you realize stuff you thought was a problem really isn't and that sometimes you are viewing a situation as a problem for a different reason that what it really is. By simplifing it I find I am much more clear now and not as depressed as I have been in the past weeks.
I think a lot of people tend to over-complicate things in their heads when the real issues are really quite simple. And in that way, a lot of people's problems are brought upon by themselves. Minor things can become big, complicated messes with little outside influence. It's a byproduct of spending too much time in your head, overthinking things. As a Pisces (apparently the sign which spends the most time in its head, overthinking things), that's something I know intimately.
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In other news, I have three straight days of goodbye parties to attend. I guess my friends figure that they can't send me off with a healthy liver. Or without a case of the clap if the guestlists are to be believed.
I feel as if I've failed you in some way.
Meh. I'm lacking in any sort of interest. It's like the last decade puked up a set.
Also, in reply to your Psyduck: yeah, I know. My family knows best how to put the 'war' in 'awkward'. And I definately excel in making tense situations even more uncomfortable. So I'm staying with my parents. It's my version of fun.
Also, I'm at a loss for a good HGOtW. I wanted to do one that had to do with music (VMAs being last night plus the fact that we haven't done musicians in awhile) but I'm coming up empty. First nominee gets candy.
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Panic! At the Disco?? Oh duuuuude, no. That will only lead to a despondent VMA rant. Which will only lead to the requisite MTV rant and likely a rant on the state of mainstream music in general.
Is he hot enough to make such ire worth it for you?
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He's rather attractive...
Anyway, irony of irony...Mikey and dad are going to watch a high school football game in Ohio, and my friend Krysten and I are going to watch Franklin's game.
I think Mikey's still frustrated with me...we were up until 4 this morning, talking. Well, he was talking. I had a major breakdown, and he couldn't understand why I couldn't just pick myself back up right away and move on. I can do that most of the time, yesterday just wasn't one of them.
He still isn't talking to me like he normally does, he's very short with me. I don't like that.
I bought a new keyboard today, and then sledgehammered the other one to shards of plastic. It was good.
Haha, pokemon. Raichu was always my favorite.
I'm addicted to the new Five for Fighting album, Two Lights. The only song I don't like on it is Road To Heaven.
And with that, I'm out!
I know it seems that I don't care,
but something in me does I swear.
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Sorry I haven't been around the past day and a half or so I went on a really long date with someone...turned out though that it wasn't feelin right to me though *sadness*
AND! I think I figured out my depression problem, just not how to fix it. When somthing small happens I overthink about it, when I overthink I get depressed and then I start to get unhappy with myself and overthink about that and (repeat as nessicary)
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Welcome to my world lol. However, recently I've stopped overthinking things so much and I feel.... less than I was before... like I lost something. Dunno. I feel more normal and that's annoying >_<. Not that I strive to be abnormal but normal is so boring!
I tried just stopping the overthinking process....not as easy is it sounds...for the short time it stops I feel like I am holding my breath, the feeling that you can't do it forever and it's slightly uncomfortable when you do. Then I can't do it anymore and I overthink again.
Maybe it's time to see a therapist...bah
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I'm not refusing to see a therapist about it but I feel like I can just be more introspective and talk with friends and it will have more of an affect on me. If I'm even slightly reticent to going to a therapist then I won't really accept what they have to say. I really have to WANT to go in order for their advice to be effective.
One of my friends, whom I have some admiration for toward his ambition, said that it's hard some times "But sometimes you just have to find that one thing in your life to focus on and just go for that. Let it drive you" It was in reference to ambition but it's sound advice for anything really. Relaxing and letting yourself calm down and blank out your mind until you only see that one thing helps with the overthinking problem but I feel like it also gives you a lot more perspective on stuff.
Hmmm I shall have to give that some thought, thank you for listening.
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Agreed. Except I absolutely flat-out refuse to see a therapist. I just have this...thing...where talking to an adult about what's happened to me in the past and how I feel/deal with it now that terrifies me. I can't even tell Mikey's parents, and they've become my "parents". I know I can trust them, and that they won't think any less of me for it...I'm just scared.
I wish I could tell them so badly, because sometimes they say or do things that remind me of the past, and the only thing I can do is run and hide in mikey's room under a blanket. Then Mikey has to come upstairs and calm me down...and then we go back downstairs like it never happened. O_o;
One day, though, I want to tell them what's happened to me since I was about 3. And that it still continues to this day, although it's gotten slightly better.
ANYway. This is my last day in Franklin, for tomorrow I move into my dorm at Parkside. A new beginning, in a way. I have a goal, and I have a countdown until I see Mikey next, and those two things are gonna keep me going when I feel like I can't do it anymore.
Back to packing, blah!
I know it seems that I don't care,
but something in me does I swear.
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Well, whatever. Usually, I can turn anything into a rant. But, I hope that whatever you choose to do is fruitful for you.
Help has come in the form of a bit of basic algebra. I feel that it'll shed some light on your problem here.
Basically:
S + T = W
...S in this case stands for 'spam' and the T stands for 'light trolling'. And the W? That stands for 'Warning'. I love math. -- {mikeyG}
It is interesting that non-comforist behavoir is concidered a mental problem. I have a hard time believing other people when they tell me that I have a problem because of the idea that socially we should all be the same is absurd. The question though is when you yourself realize that you do have a problem, who should you turn to? I have gamer buddies but noone I would confide to around here but somehow it seems that getting a professional to tell me what I should do doesn't seem right somehow.
"Yea?"
"There's a Goblin sneaking up behind you."
"So?"
"Just Sayin"
Amazing Leathermime Gaymer
Creature - Uhailu Advisor Assassin
When Knefriteri Bahusi enters the battlefield, exile target player's graveyard unless he or she pays
1/1
Gold: 10
Inventory: Aristocrat's Facade
Traits: Legal Boundaries (+1.5 on rolls involving deception)
Ills:
Experience: 5/20
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Well I used to be a regular here but then I lost my job and house and that put a damper on my internet access. Thanks for asking.
Famliy Guy Emperor Says,
"Something, something something, DARK SIDE!
Something, something, something COMPLETE!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHiUitciuJ8
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SPIKE GAYMER: not just a beatdown, a beatdown sung to the tune of "I Feel Pretty"!
I move into my dorm today, hell yes! Muahaha. I don't have to live in this hell anymore, woooooo!
* Leilani dances
So yes, the next time I post, it'll be from my dorm. Woot.
I know it seems that I don't care,
but something in me does I swear.
[gaymers]
founder of the MTGS Forum Pirates
'tar/banner by R&Doom.
Ouch...unhappy. hopefully things are looking up for you
"Yea?"
"There's a Goblin sneaking up behind you."
"So?"
"Just Sayin"
Amazing Leathermime Gaymer
Creature - Uhailu Advisor Assassin
When Knefriteri Bahusi enters the battlefield, exile target player's graveyard unless he or she pays
1/1
Gold: 10
Inventory: Aristocrat's Facade
Traits: Legal Boundaries (+1.5 on rolls involving deception)
Ills:
Experience: 5/20
Mana::symwb::sym2w::symub:
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This hurts my head. Maybe I am missing a point but how can you be held responcible for another persons house getting paintballed?
"Yea?"
"There's a Goblin sneaking up behind you."
"So?"
"Just Sayin"
Amazing Leathermime Gaymer
Creature - Uhailu Advisor Assassin
When Knefriteri Bahusi enters the battlefield, exile target player's graveyard unless he or she pays
1/1
Gold: 10
Inventory: Aristocrat's Facade
Traits: Legal Boundaries (+1.5 on rolls involving deception)
Ills:
Experience: 5/20
Mana::symwb::sym2w::symub:
People are just stupid that way. As we get older, this becomes clearer.
As for the therapy issue, I don't automatically consider therapy a bad thing. I think there are many times where a person just needs to unload things they've been keeping bottled up. And sometimes confiding in a loved one isn't a possibility so I think in that capacity, a therapist can lend a supportive, attentive ear. Not to mention that therapists are theoretically equipped to offer advice and help one through emotional and psychological messes. Without a doubt, you should find a therapist with whom you can trust and have a good relationship with, anything else is counterproductive.
As for conformity/nonconformity, that may be true in some cases that therapy only reinforces traditional views on what is normal. But I don't really see how that is necessarily a bad thing. I never understood the whole "conformity is bad" philosophy. I personally think that bending yourself ass over foot in an effort to be nonconformist isn't often productive. If your therapst is helping you and his/her advice involves conformity, who cares as long as it solves your problem? Note that I don't think conforming is the answer to every problem (it quite obviously isn't), but if it happens to be the solution to a specific personal issue, I wouldn't discard it just so I could say I was nonconformist. Whatever it takes to improve my life and be healthy.
Personally, I wouldn't go to see a therapist, but that's just my stubborn lone wolf nature. I'd never willingly pay someone to listen to my problems. Especially considering it'd be a great many sessions before I'd even begin opening up. It's just not worth the time/financial commitment for the petty returns I'd be seeing. I support therapy as a possible path for some people, just not myself.
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Yeah I'm not against therapy it's just not something I want to do right now so I don't think it would help.
Right here.
Amusing me for five years as
my future selfarrogant manwhore Brian Kinney, tonight's entry managed to make complete douchebaggery look cool. Even made the eventual (and somewhat inevitable/predictable) redemption of Le Kinney palatable. But then the worst thing happened: the flagship series for unrealistic portrayal of gay life Queer as Folk ended. Justin hopped his twink ass on a a plane to the Big Apple and Brian Kinney moped. Then he got high, danced away the pain and screwed a bunch of guys. Just to show how much he grew as a person. So where does that leave our HGOtW? Besides out of a job? Well, halfway to Typecastland, that's where. But then along came a crappy new FOX drama about a missing senator's trophy wife where our boy gets to break some new ground ..... oh wait, no, his character is a surly jackass with backstory issues. And he's also unlikely to get naked and/or have hot sex with guys anytime soon. To top it all off, rumors persist that he's been fired and the plastic pectoral perfection of Eddie Cibrian has been cast as a replacement.*sigh* Stupid FOX. Oh well, keep your pretty head held high, Gale Harold. You're still very pretty. And I still love you, even if that love is 67% envy of your superb hair.
Gale Harold
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Devon
"My plans are ALWAYS practical! It's the laws of physics that get in the way of my success." Red Mage, 8-Bit Theater.
Scientia non habet inimicum nisp ignorantem - Science has no enemies but the ignorant
National Park crush...sounds good. I remember my first crush on a boy...ok this is going to sound like an old fogey story never mind.
But glad you had fun
"Yea?"
"There's a Goblin sneaking up behind you."
"So?"
"Just Sayin"
Amazing Leathermime Gaymer
Creature - Uhailu Advisor Assassin
When Knefriteri Bahusi enters the battlefield, exile target player's graveyard unless he or she pays
1/1
Gold: 10
Inventory: Aristocrat's Facade
Traits: Legal Boundaries (+1.5 on rolls involving deception)
Ills:
Experience: 5/20
Mana::symwb::sym2w::symub:
I do see the value of a therapist, but it's more a question that I have a hard time communicating with someone who isn't on at least of my brain waves, also I find that if I want to unload of someone I barely know I'll use a forum. At least that way I will get more direct or at least very humorous answers.
Tonight I figured out alot of my issues anyway. Sitting down and simplifying everything helps, you realize stuff you thought was a problem really isn't and that sometimes you are viewing a situation as a problem for a different reason that what it really is. By simplifing it I find I am much more clear now and not as depressed as I have been in the past weeks.
"Yea?"
"There's a Goblin sneaking up behind you."
"So?"
"Just Sayin"
Amazing Leathermime Gaymer
Creature - Uhailu Advisor Assassin
When Knefriteri Bahusi enters the battlefield, exile target player's graveyard unless he or she pays
1/1
Gold: 10
Inventory: Aristocrat's Facade
Traits: Legal Boundaries (+1.5 on rolls involving deception)
Ills:
Experience: 5/20
Mana::symwb::sym2w::symub:
Current New Favorite Person™: Mallory Archer
She knows why.
Why thank you. Though I was shocked that in my stable of pictures, I had not one of Gale in any sort of undress. He was naked every damn episode of QAF and still I had zilch. Not even a stray nip. Now that's a head-scratcher.
The key ingredient with this sort of thing is that you feel comfortable with whomever you decide to confide in. If you can't be comfortable enough to communicate what's bothering you, there's not much point.
I think a lot of people tend to over-complicate things in their heads when the real issues are really quite simple. And in that way, a lot of people's problems are brought upon by themselves. Minor things can become big, complicated messes with little outside influence. It's a byproduct of spending too much time in your head, overthinking things. As a Pisces (apparently the sign which spends the most time in its head, overthinking things), that's something I know intimately.
And please don't double post. You can use the Edit button if you have more to add.
In other news, I have three straight days of goodbye parties to attend. I guess my friends figure that they can't send me off with a healthy liver. Or without a case of the clap if the guestlists are to be believed.
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Katingal: Plane of Chains