Yeah im really wondering what sakura will do... we better contact that fire brigade we may need those high pressure hoses
Mamelon you are who you are, your name changes only the way we address you, nothing else changes... its good though that you feel comfortable enough to share this with us as it allows you more freedom, freedom too talk and express yourself without having to constantly check for things that might reveal things you might not want to share (hope that makes sense:p), as far as the hugging goes sorry im not that kinda guy... *Sep pats Mamelon in the back*... thats more my thing youll never see me hugging people unless they are deeply important in my life.
@ethersphere: i dont know how you sound but i can sympathize with how you feel... i also dont like the way my voice really sounds in comparison to how i hear it... i think i have such a nicely toned voice when in fact a have a deep harsh voice which really doesnt suit me honestly im a teddy bear at heart but i end up looking and sounding like a stern grizzly me and my luck.
Edit: i just remembered i wonder where hot pizza went... those topics he started where hilarious... mens diet..:rofl:
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I know I do sound male, but there's always that little fear in the back of my head that some Rip Taylor might sneak in there somewhere and wreck any semblance of gender identity I ever had. So nyeh =P
Yeah, that's an entirely unreasonable fear. Besides, I would hope your gender identity is stronger than that.
Is that Jean as in Billie Jean, or Jean as in Jean Reno?
It's Jean, as in "sit down and drink your damn coffee, Craig".
Mamelon you are who you are, your name changes only the way we address you
It shouldn't. Jean specifically said she wanted everyone to continue calling her Mamelon on MTGS, and by God, it would be rude to go against Jean's wishes here.
(Incidentally, M-lon, I'm sort of liking this Jean thing, I'm going to see if I can't get Mom on board with it this afternoon.)
those topics he started where hilarious... mens diet..
I will always remember that field trip to Bizarro World Debate with fondness and love.
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Geez, channeling Will Raynard much? Stop acting so cold, husband.
"Shut up and go talk to the sea, woman!"
I'm just weary of you wringing your hands over the notion that someone might consider you girly when there really isn't any legitimate reason for you to be worried about that. You've already well established in most circles that you enjoy your masculine aspects and have shown time and again that you fall outside the stereotypical qualities assigned to most adult gay males, so I don't see why you always are so insecure about it. Well, no, I do understand the feeling, but I've told you time and time again that you shouldn't worry about it as much as you do.
Besides, even if there is something about you that neither of us are aware of that another might consider feminine, who cares? I mean, A) Look at Alacar, and B) you still see yourself as male, and so do the people who matter, so why worry about it? And god damn you, you've given people a perfectly good segue back into the most over-explored topic of all in here, and I'm not sure I am okay with that.
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I'm just weary of you wringing your hands over the notion that someone might consider you girly when there really isn't any legitimate reason for you to be worried about that. You've already well established in most circles that you enjoy your masculine aspects and have shown time and again that you fall outside the stereotypical qualities assigned to most adult gay males, so I don't see why you always are so insecure about it. Well, no, I do understand the feeling, but I've told you time and time again that you shouldn't worry about it as much as you do.
I know, but you don't have to use your "internet tone" with me. I'm not Florida =P
Erm...I'm kind of disgusted right now. A thread started by a member recounting a life-threatening experience for him turned into a huge argument over how people in the USA are gun crazy. Talk about disrespect and/or lack of perspective. The America-bashing that goes on in select circles of the forum is...well, it's just juvenile.
I've mentioned it before, but I'm not particularly comfortable with my own voice; I sound sniveling as hell, and pretty much condescending all of the time. (To the extent that when I'm saying something that could come off as condescending, I make an effort to speak in a different voice.) There's not a ton that I can do about it, though.
Sorry it got misunderstood, i didnt mean we as we the coffehouse i meant we as in each individual (not only bound by us but a general we)...again sorry i make such a mess...i fail to express myself sometimes... and yeah i understand Manelon still wants to be refered as such that wasnt the point of my post just that a name is a name it doesnt change who you are (at least i dont think it should), i will refer to Mamelon by whiever name mamelon prefers...but that doesnt make mamelon a different person..does it? agghh i am making a mess of all this...sorry
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I know, but you don't have to use your "internet tone" with me. I'm not Florida =P
Erm...I'm kind of disgusted right now. A thread started by a member recounting a life-threatening experience for him turned into a huge argument over how people in the USA are gun crazy. Talk about disrespect and/or lack of perspective.
I've mentioned it before, but I'm not particularly comfortable with my own voice; I sound sniveling as hell, and pretty much condescending all of the time. (To the extent that when I'm saying something that could come off as condescending, I make an effort to speak in a different voice.) There's not a ton that I can do about it, though.
I actually thought you sounded cute, to be perfectly honest. Your voice was more expressive than I had expected, considering I tend to imagine you as being a bit more deadpan. I wouldn't say you sound condescending, from what I heard.
Sorry it got misunderstood, i didnt mean we as we the coffehouse i meant we as in each individual (not only bound by us but a general we)...again sorry i make such a mess...i fail to express myself sometimes... and yeah i understand Manelon still wants to be refered as such that wasnt the point of my post just that a name is a name it doesnt change who you are (at least i dont think it should), i will refer to Mamelon by whiever name mamelon prefers...but that doesnt make mamelon a different person..does it? agghh i am making a mess of all this...sorry
Relax, Mary Beth, I was just teasing you.
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Dude, Sepiriel, it's okay. Just try to remember that in most cases, Josh is joking around just as much as anyone else is. You're good =)
@Dave: I had a friend in high school who talked EXACTLY the way you do. I remember she'd always get in trouble with teachers for being "condescending" to them when she was just talking, really. She got so frustrated with it that one day she came to school and spoke to everyone in the most sugary, bimbolicious tone she could manage.
She, uh...got sent home early that day. If I remember correctly, she made our former football coach of a history teacher cry at some point.
I'm just weary of you wringing your hands over the notion that someone might consider you girly when there really isn't any legitimate reason for you to be worried about that.
And to add to that ether: I've been told more than once that my voice has some gay qualities to it (by actual gay people) and frankly I don't give a ****... and you shouldn't either. I think you get what point I'm driving at here.
Mamelon: I actually knew that mystery before, somehow. In retrospect, I'm surprised you even told me that back then. I suppose I should've felt privledged to have that info, now that I think about it.
As for Skype, I'm gonna do my best to keep it on all day. At least until 11, when everyone around here goes to sleep. I tend to get a little loud sometimes anyway. Now comes the catch of me actually holding a conversation that lasts longer than 15 minutes... I'm not very articulate...
Man, way to make me feel old. When I was a kid/tennager I'd invite everyone over to play Battletoads, the original Super Mario Kart, and Seiken Densetsu 2.
Battletoads... wow. I actually beat that game a few years ago. Hard as hell, and honestly it's ok for two people for a long time... then that fricking second to last level hits with the wall bikes as you are followed by that STUPID ORB! Basically, you need to have perfect timing with the controller to make it through, for those of you who don't know. The clincher in 2 player though, from what I remember, is that if ONE of the two died, BOTH needed to go back to the beginning! So now you need TWO people to be absolutely perfect for that damn section! ARGH! Frustrating
Mario Kart was tons of fun. When I was a kid, I would actually try to control two people at once in the battle mode... I had a pretty wild imagination
I've felt a little bit weary of MTGS lately, so I haven't been around as much. However, I have noticed people are starting to pick up Skype. I just had a perfectly pleasant conversation with Joyd and Alacar this evening, and it was fun- a lot more personable than IM, which was really appreciable.
I really think we should try to get some sort of group thing together, or at the very least try and open the channels between the regulars on that level so we can have some more intimate communication (and by intimate, I mean "friendlier than text", not "Sakura with a riding crop").
Skype was a suggestion being thrown around when SapphireTri, or Mike, or however I should refer to him, was trying to suggest a way for lots of people across MTGSal to meet. Now I'm fine with most of this, especially when in reference to the CoffeeHouse, but seriously, I'd need armaments if we were to meet the casual Rumor Mill people. Being that my broom is likely to be somewhat less effective and menacing than, say, the waffle iron, I highly suggest that we try to get Photon back into Magic just to give him an excuse to take a reasonable swing at some of the more demented ones.
And... Sakura's riding crop is likely to be just as deadly.
Which goes along with it not exactly being friendly.
And that is starting to turn into a medley.
So, this is a tad out of the blue, but I've been podering quite a bit lately about why I value my anonymity so much. There are many things about myself I never share on principle online, including real name, pictures, voice sample, etc.
I think that the reason this is so isn't necessarily (or merely, at least) because I'm embarrassed by them. Rather, I feel like there is a distinction between my online identity and my identity in person, and that's a distinction I like to keep. Myself as Mamelon isn't affected by impressions people have formed based on my appearance or my name or any other such associations. I feel like it's an environment in which I can act more freely without needing to consider all these extraneous factors I have to compensate for.
When I log on here I actually feel like I'm entering a different state of mind, one less burdened and restricted. I want that to remain the same, as it's like a haven from the "real" world. I wanted this identity to be pure, distinct, unfettered by the other.
I'm coming to reexamine my feelings about this. I'm aware that it actually creates something of an impassable barrier, because there's a line I can't cross if I want to keep that distinction. The recent thing with Skype voice chat brought this to my attention. That's something I couldn't do and still preserve the purity. And Mr. Stuff has asked multiple times if he'd ever see me at a convention, and each time I felt bad because I knew such a meeting could never happen with anyone here. Because that'd be crossing the line.
The way I'm looking at it now, I want the two identities to combine. I don't want to think of them anymore as seperate selves or states of mind. I want the unfettered, pure one to also be the one I am in my daily life. So I think I need for the line to be crossed. If I'm ever going to be comfortable with it, I'll need to let go of the separation. I want purity to mean something different, something other than dissociating from myself.
The least I can do is start with my name. It is . . .
Matthew. This is what most people call me in person. I actually like this name, as names go, though I still prefer to be called Mamelon on MTGS.
Spoiled for those who may actually prefer the mystique, heh. If that's even necessary.
Anyway, it's just something I wanted to say.
Considering how absolutely stressed by things in life, I can certainly understand coming to this place for a safe haven. Now that the crowd has died down... *hug* I'm glad also that you trust us enough to be able to share this part of yourself with us. Honestly, that may enable us to better associate with you, and not just the other way around. Maybe eventually you'd be ok with talking to us personally. No rush though
*Muscles his way in for his share of Mamsies hugs*
I'm having trouble articulating this morning, so I guess I won't say much. But to me ******* (censored for those who prefer the mystique ) and Mamelon are the same person. I understand when you explain about having a seperate persona online from real life, but to me I've always felt the true difference was that ******* is the person you are/were and Mamelon is the person you want to be; and this change says to me that you are starting to reconcile becoming the person you want to be without rejecting who you are and were. Maybe I'm over analysing (I tend to do that), but that's what I see right now. And I'm very, very happy for you.
@Fox: sweet deal, mate! Good luck in your interview. Knock their socks off!
I have in a way a separate persona on MTGS, but that separate persona is merely a reflection of my personal ideals and traits, while still being kind of a separate entity. I'm kind of known by my jobs and accomplishments rather than personally... even if those looking at my profile would see my mug being vaguely obscured by a really cool-looking display dagger Still, I think that somewhere around there would be the goal for where Mamelon would eventually fall, which seems to also be slightly below what Kraj seems to be saying here.
Btw, there are many of us here who overanalyze things, myself at times included QFT for the happiness for Mamelon.
Um, you do sound male. Your voice isn't notably deep, but most of the guys here aren't exactly sporting an Isaac Hayes voice, either. I think you are just being unreasonably concerned over nothing, pup.
You just trainwrecked your cult like Galileo trainwrecked astrology!
P.S. And here I thought your name was Jean all this time...
Yay, confidence building with Ether! Also, I'm thinking that most of us are not really judgmental of how Ether sounds anyway. To be perfectly honest, if he's not trying to sound feminine like that, my guess is that it is very likely that he's not.
And Mamelon goes by many different personas it seems. As long as her roles don't turn into any of the following, I'll be fine:
Jr.
Freya
Dick Cheney
Any incarnation, male or female, of Michael Jackson
Mamelon, your identities are many, but even I may have to shun if you take on any of these personas...
BTW, @Ethersphere thanks for the Blazemore, I'm not at all surprised that you're a high enough level Hero/Mage to have that spell.
Yeah im really wondering what sakura will do... we better contact that fire brigade we may need those high pressure hoses
Edit: i just remembered i wonder where hot pizza went... those topics he started where hilarious... mens diet..:rofl:
The problem here is that Sakura IS the hose.
And yes, I do find it funny that the guy claiming that he would instantly be a regular showed up twice, one of which was to turn the house into the whackiest debates ever witnessed outside of the Debate forum.
I'm well aware my voice sounds much more feminine to others than it does to me. To me I sound reasonably masculine but when I hear my voice recorded... totally gay. And I really couldn't give a crap.
Erm...I'm kind of disgusted right now. A thread started by a member recounting a life-threatening experience for him turned into a huge argument over how people in the USA are gun crazy. Talk about disrespect and/or lack of perspective. The America-bashing that goes on in select circles of the forum is...well, it's just juvenile.
It's much, much worse on other forums. Believe me. I quit going to one forum I had been a part of for years because of the non-stop, bull-headed America bashing.
@ Mams: I will be completely honest, I was always under the impression that you were female from other's comments and replies to you :/ Regardless, you will always be known on MTGS as Mamelon. It's just who you are here
I think you just made her day.
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And yes, I do find it funny that the guy claiming that he would instantly be a regular showed up twice, one of which was to turn the house into the whackiest debates ever witnessed outside of the Debate forum.
Hmm.. how about chemical foam???? would that be better than the high pressured hose?
and honestly i dot check the debate forums much but the topics here get pretty wacky sometimes
@Photon: yeah i still gotta get used to your sense of humor...i really cant tell sometimes (either that or im turning EMO:oNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*Seps cuts himself to see if he bleed black*- cant remember where i say that one :rofl:-)
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That is not dead which can eternal lie. And with strange eons even death may die.
@ Ether's voice: It sounded normal to me when I was playing Photon in Pokemon and the Voice thing was blasting away.
I wouldn't worry, I have a stupid sounding English accent which (people have told me) sounds like a farmer's. (Probably due to being from Norfolk).
I don't believe we ever played in Pokemon.
@ Mams: I will be completely honest, I was always under the impression that you were female from other's comments and replies to you :/ Regardless, you will always be known on MTGS as Mamelon. It's just who you are here
Um, wait- are you saying you weren't aware she was transgendered?
I'm well aware my voice sounds much more feminine to others than it does to me. To me I sound reasonably masculine but when I hear my voice recorded... totally gay. And I really couldn't give a crap.
I think all gay men have that issue. I know I do, and I even know better. I think it is strange that even among gay men you will find guys who are not secure in their masculinity.
Freya
Why Freya? Or perhaps, more importantly, which Freya?
@ Ether's voice: It sounded normal to me when I was playing Photon in Pokemon and the Voice thing was blasting away.
...GAH. You actually heard me? That sucks, now my cover's blown >_>;;
I sound like a guy, I know. I just...well, it's hard to explain. I'm really secure in my masculinity, but I'm in that small as hell quadrant of gay men who are looked down on for being "too masculine." So I get discimination from both sides. Straight people think I'm some mincing queen and gay guys think I'm betraying them by being too butch. Meh.
@Ryan: I had prepared Blazemost, not Blazemore. I'm a max-rank Ranger, thankyouverymuch =)
...Wait. Since when do you know anything about Dragon Quest?
Mams, I am very proud of you. I have been waiting and hoping for this epiphany to come for a while. I knew it would be soon, since you finally came out to your parents I knew you were on the right path.
You have done alot to inspire myself and Lilly. Your presense on this site is awesome.
Unfortunately you have not been allowing yourself to be this wonderful person in real life. You have stunted yourself.
To see you realize you need to connect the two before you can move forward is exactly what you need. i am behind you 100% and you can always feel free to messaqge me if you need someone to talk to.
You are not Matthew to me. You are Mamelon. While who you are may be a bit of both people, Matthew is a scared boy who has hidden. Mamelon is a scared girl who has hidden as well. They have each hidden from different things. Matthew hides from us out of fear of destroying what some may perceive as an illusion, and Mamelon hides from the outside world out of fear of rejection. Matthew is already accepted in the real world, and Mamelon is deeply loved and respected here.
But the people in your life who matter will realize the best of these two people is the same, regardless. They will love you anyways...and already do.
The steps will be hard. But honestly, the rewards are great and the pain is actually less than that which you already know. It is just less known, and as the saying goes...better the devil you know.
Mamelon, I love you dearly and concider you as a real sister. I always read and look forward to your posts. You bring a great deal into my life. I want you to have the same happiness you have allowed me to have.
@mamelon: i know your real name before as well. I still portay you as a very nice woman though.
well i have a 4 hour shift only today ive worked about 26 hours so far and then i have a long day tommorrow with an 8 hour shift then i probably will have 2 days off in a row again which is very nice. I want to playtest with a new deck that I want to make for legacy then ill post it here and any of you can help me if you like. well see you all later and have a great weekend!
I would say that Matthew is a scared girl who was hidden. As far as I know Matthew, there was never really a boy named Matthew from the very beginning.
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...GAH. You actually heard me? That sucks, now my cover's blown >_>;;
I sound like a guy, I know. I just...well, it's hard to explain. I'm really secure in my masculinity, but I'm in that small as hell quadrant of gay men who are looked down on for being "too masculine." So I get discimination from both sides. Straight people think I'm some mincing queen and gay guys think I'm betraying them by being too butch. Meh.
@Ryan: I had prepared Blazemost, not Blazemore. I'm a max-rank Ranger, thankyouverymuch =)
...Wait. Since when do you know anything about Dragon Quest?
My apologies for misreading the Blaze And I wonder where you are getting that impression from? Hm.
By the way, I grew up on several games, Ether, not just Final Fantasy. I played the original Dragon Warrior alongside the original FF... granted, I played through FF more times that DW, but eventually, just as I grew in FF, I played DW3 when I eventually got the chance, was pretty big into both Dragon Warrior Monsters games, and have been exposed to DQ8, which I felt was stellar.
I haven't been overly exposed to Tri-Ace, but I love their work, largely consisting of SO3:Till the End of Time. As I've said before, though, most of my friends despise the game if they played SO2. Apparently SO2 is simply superior only seen screenshots and watched my overpowered friend beat the final boss. It looked like an incredible masterpiece in the era it was a part of though, so I'm not going to disagree there.
This is largely to give you the knowledge that I'm more than just an FF player. I love RPGs, always have, and always will, it just happens to be that FF was one of my first series that I really got into. Of course, it is arguable that the original DW was a large cross with a solid adventure game, mostly due to the single character thing.
EDIT: I also fell in love with the Ogre Battle series. You ever given them a go?
My apologies for misreading the Blaze And I wonder where you are getting that impression from? Hm.
By the way, I grew up on several games, Ether, not just Final Fantasy. I played the original Dragon Warrior alongside the original FF... granted, I played through FF more times that DW, but eventually, just as I grew in FF, I played DW3 when I eventually got the chance, was pretty big into both Dragon Warrior Monsters games, and have been exposed to DQ8, which I felt was stellar.
I haven't been overly exposed to Tri-Ace, but I love their work, largely consisting of SO3:Till the End of Time. As I've said before, though, most of my friends despise the game if they played SO2. Apparently SO2 is simply superior only seen screenshots and watched my overpowered friend beat the final boss. It looked like an incredible masterpiece in the era it was a part of though, so I'm not going to disagree there.
This is largely to give you the knowledge that I'm more than just an FF player. I love RPGs, always have, and always will, it just happens to be that FF was one of my first series that I really got into. Of course, it is arguable that the original DW was a large cross with a solid adventure game, mostly due to the single character thing.
FF was the first series most people got into, because it was the bulk of the RPG market during the eras in which most of us were growing up.
SO2 is a really good game, and I actually prefer it over SO3, but I don't know that it is superior. The system in S03 is polished a little better, the characters have a bit more depth (although they interact far less than I like), and the item creation system is a lot more refined. SO2 has a far superior system for Private Actions and better methods for manipulating character interactions and relationships, and has more party customization options. It also has a really subpar translation and some of the worst voice acting you can hear on the PSX, so I would say they break about even.
I would say the original DW is still an RPG and not an adventure game in any way, considering it has none of the mechanics that identify a game as part of the adventure genre.
I also fell in love with the Ogre Battle series. You ever given them a go?
Not to speak for the boy, but yeah. It's hard to call it a "series" though, as it has so few titles. We have both Ogre Battle and Tactics Ogre, and I'm proud to say we have the incredibly hard to obtain Ogre Battle Anniversary PSX rerelease, too. Josh has always said he played the series, but his mother was the one who ultimately spent the most time on it. If I remember correctly, he said that sh managed to get every ending in the original, which was quite a task in my opinion.
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I would say that Matthew is a scared girl who was hidden. As far as I know Matthew, there was never really a boy named Matthew from the very beginning.
Think you missread me.
Part of Mams problem is that the majority of people see Matthew as a boy. This is a common difficulty for trans-people. She keeps Matthew hidden from us because most people who know her as Matthew see and treat her as a boy.
Part of Mams problem is that the majority of people see Matthew as a boy. This is a common difficulty for trans-people. She keeps Matthew hidden from us because most people who know her as Matthew see and treat her as a boy.
No offense, but I think you are presuming to know more about my sister than you might actually know. I know very well why she hides her identity online, and while a lot of what you had to say was accurate enough, I disagree on the point that her identity as "Matthew" is a false identity contrived for social interactions with the offline world.
Her problem isn't that people see "Matthew" as a boy, it's that they see her as a boy. Matthew is not the face of her life in a male body, Matthew is the name by which she has been identified all her life. It is the appellation by which we recognize the internal quality that we associate with her. It is not some awkward husk to be discarded- it is her name. Even if she should someday seek to change that name to one she finds more suitable, her identity as Matthew will never be lost or compromised. It will always be a name by which she is known, and I think that, at the end of the day, what people call her is ultimately less important to her than being treated in a way that acknowledges her actual identity.
...I grew up on several games, Ether, not just Final Fantasy. I played the original Dragon Warrior alongside the original FF... granted, I played through FF more times that DW, but eventually, just as I grew in FF, I played DW3 when I eventually got the chance, was pretty big into both Dragon Warrior Monsters games, and have been exposed to DQ8, which I felt was stellar.
I haven't been overly exposed to Tri-Ace, but I love their work, largely consisting of SO3:Till the End of Time. As I've said before, though, most of my friends despise the game if they played SO2. Apparently SO2 is simply superior only seen screenshots and watched my overpowered friend beat the final boss. It looked like an incredible masterpiece in the era it was a part of though, so I'm not going to disagree there.
This is largely to give you the knowledge that I'm more than just an FF player. I love RPGs, always have, and always will, it just happens to be that FF was one of my first series that I really got into. Of course, it is arguable that the original DW was a large cross with a solid adventure game, mostly due to the single character thing.
EDIT: I also fell in love with the Ogre Battle series. You ever given them a go?
HA! See, I never knew any of this about you. Don't take this in a condescending way, but I now have more respect for you as a gamer.
The Ogre Battle series has been a staple in my household since I was pretty small. My mother picked up the original on the SNES and to this day I can't remember a game I'd ever seen her play more rabidly. It sounds odd, but the 10th anniversary PsX re-release of Ogre Battle that I have has become more than a little special to me because of her. I myself really enjoyed Tactics Ogre, and I see it as vastly superior to FFTactics is most ways. People don't like this opinion ~_~;;
Josh and I adore Tri-Ace and Wolf Team games, for serious. I love Star Ocean 3 more than the other two by a LONG shot, and I play it almost obsessively whenever I pick it back up. I've also grown into a huge Tales of fanboy in the last few years and, again with the controversial opinions, I find Tales of the Abyss to be the best in the series, easily knocking Synphonia off its little pedestal.
You should give DQ8 a good playing through, Ryan. I guarantee you'll love it as much as I do. Most people I recommend it to actually end up feeling that way, which is great. I'm holding my breath for the three DQ releases coming up - DQ Swords for the Wii, DQ Monsters: Joker on the DS, and...*almost faints*...Dragon Quest 9 on the DS.
Oh God. I need a drink of water or something.
So, after geeking out in what I think is the worst display I've given in my history on this site, I think I should take a break for today >_>;;
Wow i just noticed my favorite singer recently released a few new albums... thats gonna be a few hours of my time tonight downloading... man i missed my latin music:D
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So I get discimination from both sides. Straight people think I'm some mincing queen and gay guys think I'm betraying them by being too butch.
The capacity of gays to discriminate within their own group never ceases to amaze me. Then again, this type of thing just reaffirms that gays aren't significantly different than everybody else.
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** Current New Favorite Person™: Mallory Archer
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Mamelon you are who you are, your name changes only the way we address you, nothing else changes... its good though that you feel comfortable enough to share this with us as it allows you more freedom, freedom too talk and express yourself without having to constantly check for things that might reveal things you might not want to share (hope that makes sense:p), as far as the hugging goes sorry im not that kinda guy... *Sep pats Mamelon in the back*... thats more my thing youll never see me hugging people unless they are deeply important in my life.
@ethersphere: i dont know how you sound but i can sympathize with how you feel... i also dont like the way my voice really sounds in comparison to how i hear it... i think i have such a nicely toned voice when in fact a have a deep harsh voice which really doesnt suit me honestly im a teddy bear at heart but i end up looking and sounding like a stern grizzly me and my luck.
Edit: i just remembered i wonder where hot pizza went... those topics he started where hilarious... mens diet..:rofl:
Yeah, that's an entirely unreasonable fear. Besides, I would hope your gender identity is stronger than that.
It's Jean, as in "sit down and drink your damn coffee, Craig".
It shouldn't. Jean specifically said she wanted everyone to continue calling her Mamelon on MTGS, and by God, it would be rude to go against Jean's wishes here.
(Incidentally, M-lon, I'm sort of liking this Jean thing, I'm going to see if I can't get Mom on board with it this afternoon.)
I will always remember that field trip to Bizarro World Debate with fondness and love.
Geez, channeling Will Raynard much? Stop acting so cold, husband.
"Shut up and go talk to the sea, woman!"
I'm just weary of you wringing your hands over the notion that someone might consider you girly when there really isn't any legitimate reason for you to be worried about that. You've already well established in most circles that you enjoy your masculine aspects and have shown time and again that you fall outside the stereotypical qualities assigned to most adult gay males, so I don't see why you always are so insecure about it. Well, no, I do understand the feeling, but I've told you time and time again that you shouldn't worry about it as much as you do.
Besides, even if there is something about you that neither of us are aware of that another might consider feminine, who cares? I mean, A) Look at Alacar, and B) you still see yourself as male, and so do the people who matter, so why worry about it? And god damn you, you've given people a perfectly good segue back into the most over-explored topic of all in here, and I'm not sure I am okay with that.
I know, but you don't have to use your "internet tone" with me. I'm not Florida =P
Erm...I'm kind of disgusted right now. A thread started by a member recounting a life-threatening experience for him turned into a huge argument over how people in the USA are gun crazy. Talk about disrespect and/or lack of perspective. The America-bashing that goes on in select circles of the forum is...well, it's just juvenile.
I'm sorry, pup.
I actually thought you sounded cute, to be perfectly honest. Your voice was more expressive than I had expected, considering I tend to imagine you as being a bit more deadpan. I wouldn't say you sound condescending, from what I heard.
Relax, Mary Beth, I was just teasing you.
@Dave: I had a friend in high school who talked EXACTLY the way you do. I remember she'd always get in trouble with teachers for being "condescending" to them when she was just talking, really. She got so frustrated with it that one day she came to school and spoke to everyone in the most sugary, bimbolicious tone she could manage.
She, uh...got sent home early that day. If I remember correctly, she made our former football coach of a history teacher cry at some point.
And to add to that ether: I've been told more than once that my voice has some gay qualities to it (by actual gay people) and frankly I don't give a ****... and you shouldn't either. I think you get what point I'm driving at here.
Mamelon: I actually knew that mystery before, somehow. In retrospect, I'm surprised you even told me that back then. I suppose I should've felt privledged to have that info, now that I think about it.
As for Skype, I'm gonna do my best to keep it on all day. At least until 11, when everyone around here goes to sleep. I tend to get a little loud sometimes anyway. Now comes the catch of me actually holding a conversation that lasts longer than 15 minutes... I'm not very articulate...
Mario Kart was tons of fun. When I was a kid, I would actually try to control two people at once in the battle mode... I had a pretty wild imagination
Skype was a suggestion being thrown around when SapphireTri, or Mike, or however I should refer to him, was trying to suggest a way for lots of people across MTGSal to meet. Now I'm fine with most of this, especially when in reference to the CoffeeHouse, but seriously, I'd need armaments if we were to meet the casual Rumor Mill people. Being that my broom is likely to be somewhat less effective and menacing than, say, the waffle iron, I highly suggest that we try to get Photon back into Magic just to give him an excuse to take a reasonable swing at some of the more demented ones.
And... Sakura's riding crop is likely to be just as deadly.
Which goes along with it not exactly being friendly.
And that is starting to turn into a medley.
Considering how absolutely stressed by things in life, I can certainly understand coming to this place for a safe haven. Now that the crowd has died down... *hug* I'm glad also that you trust us enough to be able to share this part of yourself with us. Honestly, that may enable us to better associate with you, and not just the other way around. Maybe eventually you'd be ok with talking to us personally. No rush though
I have in a way a separate persona on MTGS, but that separate persona is merely a reflection of my personal ideals and traits, while still being kind of a separate entity. I'm kind of known by my jobs and accomplishments rather than personally... even if those looking at my profile would see my mug being vaguely obscured by a really cool-looking display dagger Still, I think that somewhere around there would be the goal for where Mamelon would eventually fall, which seems to also be slightly below what Kraj seems to be saying here.
Btw, there are many of us here who overanalyze things, myself at times included QFT for the happiness for Mamelon.
Yay, confidence building with Ether! Also, I'm thinking that most of us are not really judgmental of how Ether sounds anyway. To be perfectly honest, if he's not trying to sound feminine like that, my guess is that it is very likely that he's not.
And Mamelon goes by many different personas it seems. As long as her roles don't turn into any of the following, I'll be fine:
Jr.
Freya
Dick Cheney
Any incarnation, male or female, of Michael Jackson
Mamelon, your identities are many, but even I may have to shun if you take on any of these personas...
BTW, @Ethersphere thanks for the Blazemore, I'm not at all surprised that you're a high enough level Hero/Mage to have that spell.
The problem here is that Sakura IS the hose.
And yes, I do find it funny that the guy claiming that he would instantly be a regular showed up twice, one of which was to turn the house into the whackiest debates ever witnessed outside of the Debate forum.
Former R&D Development Team W leader
For your information, it's pronounced Argh + was.
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Come in, sit down, relax, get to know somebody!
It's much, much worse on other forums. Believe me. I quit going to one forum I had been a part of for years because of the non-stop, bull-headed America bashing.
I think you just made her day.
Current New Favorite Person™: Mallory Archer
She knows why.
Hmm.. how about chemical foam???? would that be better than the high pressured hose?
and honestly i dot check the debate forums much but the topics here get pretty wacky sometimes
@Photon: yeah i still gotta get used to your sense of humor...i really cant tell sometimes (either that or im turning EMO:oNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*Seps cuts himself to see if he bleed black*- cant remember where i say that one :rofl:-)
I don't believe we ever played in Pokemon.
Um, wait- are you saying you weren't aware she was transgendered?
I think all gay men have that issue. I know I do, and I even know better. I think it is strange that even among gay men you will find guys who are not secure in their masculinity.
Why Freya? Or perhaps, more importantly, which Freya?
...GAH. You actually heard me? That sucks, now my cover's blown >_>;;
I sound like a guy, I know. I just...well, it's hard to explain. I'm really secure in my masculinity, but I'm in that small as hell quadrant of gay men who are looked down on for being "too masculine." So I get discimination from both sides. Straight people think I'm some mincing queen and gay guys think I'm betraying them by being too butch. Meh.
@Ryan: I had prepared Blazemost, not Blazemore. I'm a max-rank Ranger, thankyouverymuch =)
...Wait. Since when do you know anything about Dragon Quest?
You have done alot to inspire myself and Lilly. Your presense on this site is awesome.
Unfortunately you have not been allowing yourself to be this wonderful person in real life. You have stunted yourself.
To see you realize you need to connect the two before you can move forward is exactly what you need. i am behind you 100% and you can always feel free to messaqge me if you need someone to talk to.
You are not Matthew to me. You are Mamelon. While who you are may be a bit of both people, Matthew is a scared boy who has hidden. Mamelon is a scared girl who has hidden as well. They have each hidden from different things. Matthew hides from us out of fear of destroying what some may perceive as an illusion, and Mamelon hides from the outside world out of fear of rejection. Matthew is already accepted in the real world, and Mamelon is deeply loved and respected here.
But the people in your life who matter will realize the best of these two people is the same, regardless. They will love you anyways...and already do.
The steps will be hard. But honestly, the rewards are great and the pain is actually less than that which you already know. It is just less known, and as the saying goes...better the devil you know.
Mamelon, I love you dearly and concider you as a real sister. I always read and look forward to your posts. You bring a great deal into my life. I want you to have the same happiness you have allowed me to have.
well i have a 4 hour shift only today ive worked about 26 hours so far and then i have a long day tommorrow with an 8 hour shift then i probably will have 2 days off in a row again which is very nice. I want to playtest with a new deck that I want to make for legacy then ill post it here and any of you can help me if you like. well see you all later and have a great weekend!
Love,
Cecilia
By the way, I grew up on several games, Ether, not just Final Fantasy. I played the original Dragon Warrior alongside the original FF... granted, I played through FF more times that DW, but eventually, just as I grew in FF, I played DW3 when I eventually got the chance, was pretty big into both Dragon Warrior Monsters games, and have been exposed to DQ8, which I felt was stellar.
I haven't been overly exposed to Tri-Ace, but I love their work, largely consisting of SO3:Till the End of Time. As I've said before, though, most of my friends despise the game if they played SO2. Apparently SO2 is simply superior only seen screenshots and watched my overpowered friend beat the final boss. It looked like an incredible masterpiece in the era it was a part of though, so I'm not going to disagree there.
This is largely to give you the knowledge that I'm more than just an FF player. I love RPGs, always have, and always will, it just happens to be that FF was one of my first series that I really got into. Of course, it is arguable that the original DW was a large cross with a solid adventure game, mostly due to the single character thing.
EDIT: I also fell in love with the Ogre Battle series. You ever given them a go?
Former R&D Development Team W leader
For your information, it's pronounced Argh + was.
Proud Co-Founder of
Magic Coffeehouse!
Come in, sit down, relax, get to know somebody!
FF was the first series most people got into, because it was the bulk of the RPG market during the eras in which most of us were growing up.
SO2 is a really good game, and I actually prefer it over SO3, but I don't know that it is superior. The system in S03 is polished a little better, the characters have a bit more depth (although they interact far less than I like), and the item creation system is a lot more refined. SO2 has a far superior system for Private Actions and better methods for manipulating character interactions and relationships, and has more party customization options. It also has a really subpar translation and some of the worst voice acting you can hear on the PSX, so I would say they break about even.
I would say the original DW is still an RPG and not an adventure game in any way, considering it has none of the mechanics that identify a game as part of the adventure genre.
Not to speak for the boy, but yeah. It's hard to call it a "series" though, as it has so few titles. We have both Ogre Battle and Tactics Ogre, and I'm proud to say we have the incredibly hard to obtain Ogre Battle Anniversary PSX rerelease, too. Josh has always said he played the series, but his mother was the one who ultimately spent the most time on it. If I remember correctly, he said that sh managed to get every ending in the original, which was quite a task in my opinion.
Think you missread me.
Part of Mams problem is that the majority of people see Matthew as a boy. This is a common difficulty for trans-people. She keeps Matthew hidden from us because most people who know her as Matthew see and treat her as a boy.
No offense, but I think you are presuming to know more about my sister than you might actually know. I know very well why she hides her identity online, and while a lot of what you had to say was accurate enough, I disagree on the point that her identity as "Matthew" is a false identity contrived for social interactions with the offline world.
Her problem isn't that people see "Matthew" as a boy, it's that they see her as a boy. Matthew is not the face of her life in a male body, Matthew is the name by which she has been identified all her life. It is the appellation by which we recognize the internal quality that we associate with her. It is not some awkward husk to be discarded- it is her name. Even if she should someday seek to change that name to one she finds more suitable, her identity as Matthew will never be lost or compromised. It will always be a name by which she is known, and I think that, at the end of the day, what people call her is ultimately less important to her than being treated in a way that acknowledges her actual identity.
HA! See, I never knew any of this about you. Don't take this in a condescending way, but I now have more respect for you as a gamer.
The Ogre Battle series has been a staple in my household since I was pretty small. My mother picked up the original on the SNES and to this day I can't remember a game I'd ever seen her play more rabidly. It sounds odd, but the 10th anniversary PsX re-release of Ogre Battle that I have has become more than a little special to me because of her. I myself really enjoyed Tactics Ogre, and I see it as vastly superior to FFTactics is most ways. People don't like this opinion ~_~;;
Josh and I adore Tri-Ace and Wolf Team games, for serious. I love Star Ocean 3 more than the other two by a LONG shot, and I play it almost obsessively whenever I pick it back up. I've also grown into a huge Tales of fanboy in the last few years and, again with the controversial opinions, I find Tales of the Abyss to be the best in the series, easily knocking Synphonia off its little pedestal.
You should give DQ8 a good playing through, Ryan. I guarantee you'll love it as much as I do. Most people I recommend it to actually end up feeling that way, which is great. I'm holding my breath for the three DQ releases coming up - DQ Swords for the Wii, DQ Monsters: Joker on the DS, and...*almost faints*...Dragon Quest 9 on the DS.
Oh God. I need a drink of water or something.
So, after geeking out in what I think is the worst display I've given in my history on this site, I think I should take a break for today >_>;;
The capacity of gays to discriminate within their own group never ceases to amaze me. Then again, this type of thing just reaffirms that gays aren't significantly different than everybody else.
Current New Favorite Person™: Mallory Archer
She knows why.