The Cell Number
The alarm sounded and I pressed a button to silence it. In a sleepy spasm, I watched the main screen of my cell phone telephone [/Futurama reference] and wondered, after months of necessary oblivion, if her number was still there.
Why on Earth would I think that?
Well, it happens from time to time.
It just cannot be tossed into an oblivion ring and be forgotten forevermore.
The calm evil shall always allay the goodness of forgetfulness.
And there, I found myself refusing to erase her number. Why on Earth? Not even Dr. Manhattan knows.
The cell number is in my hands... yet I cannot do anything about it.
From time to time I wonder what would happened if I called her. I've come close to knowing: nothing. Just awkward silence, something I have protection from. But not even Progenitus can help me...
only myself. Only I can get over her by myself. And I do, but I wonder what that Eternal is doing. Playing, fooling around... oh, I publicly ridicule, scorn, and humiliate you in public right here in this blog... you cursed spirit of memory!
Well, I hope you enjoyed this (if you read it, of course). I went to see Inkheart yesterday. Started out sucky but got beautiful after the second half. 4 stars our of 5.
-Edghyatt out, mo****az (you know I love you all)!
My suggestion (and, you know, I'm just gonna put it out there. If you like it, take it, if you don't, throw it right back): delete her number. I think you'll be surprised how easy it is to find someone else when your not tethered, however tenuously, to your previous someone.
@Mystic: If your ex is hanging around just so that you'll get back together with him, you should probably cut him off, or get him together with someone else. Take it from one who's been that guy, he's going to complicate things all over the place.
@ Xanth: No, this is no hypothetical argument. You are right, this was something very real. Perhaps the most real feeling I've ever had. She was the love of my life (or "is", if those things never end, like Fairy Tales have us believe). Our relationship was like if Heaven's idyllic nature married Reality's blood-stained sensations and had angelic children who cried sustenance into people. It was brief, and to the shallow minds, uneventful (no sex, no photographs, nothing "popular"), but nothing had ever made me feel more than our time together (physically, around a month--much less actually, but around there--spiritually, about a year--same, less, but around there). Again, I would tell anyone everything about it, but only if they ask me with sincere interest.
@ Mystic: I have been there too, but thankfully under much less tragic circumstances. You see, due to my nature (and genetics, which ALWAYS plays a factor in EVERY darned thing), I used to be one of those people who fell infatuated all the time (that changed with her, my first and as-of-yet only girlfriend), so I had this great friend I had a crush on (in all honesty, I started the friendship out of selfishness because I was attracted to her. In my words: I approached her because I wanted some connection with her, and it worked). I still remember that party, the last time I was going to see her for years: I told her my feelings... and nothing changed, really. We talked recently and we're still friends (well, she's currently a lesbian, but we love each other as good friends). There's just so much to say that I'll say no more, (I don't know how many characters these blogs support:rolleyes:), but there's always the PM feature for more private details... lol
Thanks for the comments, I love y'all, guys!;)
An ex-boyfriend or an ex-girlfriend has several derogatory terms in today's society that seem innate; it's almost as if there is no getting around the past of a relationship with said person, as if you're suppose to wear it on your arm like a scar. But that person and you had a connection, and there is no denying that. I fully believe that after a break up, the two should still be friends. Sometimes it takes an intermediary period of emotional healing, but to lose someone like that from your life forever is truly painful. While it is ultimately my advice that you seek to amend your situation with this female to the point where you two can be acquaintances if not friends, again, I know it is far easier said than done.
So I wish you luck.
As per your advice, I think I'll go see Inkheart, even though I know nothing about it