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Wow, those are good man. Website is alright too. Keep it up.

Mostly painting, oil on canvas, though I've done mixed media, pencil, ink, and digital.

I'm working on building myself a website (no easy task, never done it before :(), most of it is under construction, but it has about eight of my paintings up:
www.tomhaid.com
my paintings are in the "2008" link of the Portfolio section.

Out of curiosity, what kind of art do you make/sell?

I see you know much about Einstein too

When I find myself frustrated with having no job (I've been selling my art to help me get by lately), I remember that it took Einstein over four years to find a decent job he could support himself with, and during that time of financial turmoil is when he managed to write half of his four great published papers.

He actually promised his then-wife that if she accepted a divorce, he would promise to give her the entire monetary winnings of his first Nobel Peace Prize, and after mulling it over for a brief while, she agreed to the terms.

I do not think Einstein had a more advanced brain than any of us; he actually learned spoken language a year or two later than most children, and as a result he self-admittedly has always thought of things in a much more visual way than a factual/descriptive way. I could go on and on about all this, but I feel as though I'm digressing, hehe.

Agreeably, Einstein's inspiration to me is not the only thing that has motivated me to be, for lack of a better word, productive. Good friends help. Even a random person telling me what they think of my art helps. I think you'll get through this just fine; if I can do it than so can you

"The universe has a way of conspiring just for you when you least expect it"

Thanks for the post, Xanth.

It's funny that you mention Einstein because I watched a tv show that focused mostly on his Theory of General Relativity (I'm pretty sure that's what it was called). The Theory that gravity happens because the space around an area is curved or something like that, I kinda forget the exact wording for it.

But what got me was how long he struggled to get the theory proven and the only way for it to be proven was a complete solar eclipse so you could map out the light from the stars that were right near the sun (but you can't see since the sun is blazing down on you).

The fact that he had to survive a world war, countless botched solar eclipse pictures, and various scientists/physicists trying to take credit (well, only one direct person tried and he basically bowed out because it was Einstein's theory in the first place) to get his theory proven must have been crazy.

And when he finally wins the Nobel Peace Prize, it was for another theory he came up with years before. Go figure right? And he had to give whatever money he got from that to his divorced wife just so she and their kids could survive. It's crazy. But what's even more crazier is that he pretty much figured all the crap out by himself with no computers or any advanced equipment like we have today to do research with. He was like THE genius of the century. Maybe even the millennia. I've heard that his brain had more nerve connections than the average human brain so perhaps that's how he could pull it off. I mean, it does make sense since most of the time, only a few people would even fully grasp the things he would work on/talk about.




Ok, I think I'll stop with Einstein. Anyway, yeah I guess having someone like Einstein to get inspired by may help for time to time. But it can't be the only thing I can lean on for help, unfortunately.

Similarly to Mercer, I feel that after reading this blog, I have been exactly where you are now, and honestly, I'm still somewhat there.

Unlike Mercer, I am a huge non-believer in taking medication to solve a psychological issue. I whole-heartily believe that using physical chemicals to deal with an emotional problem is like trying to put out a fire in a room by closing the door.

There are many ways for you to solve your problem, some generic and some unique, as everyone is unique to a degree. To help myself, I sought inspiration. I found a hero in the man Albert Einstein after stumbling on a few of his quotes randomly. While I'm an artist and nearly failed physics many years ago in high school, I read a book recently on how his theories affected physics and the quantum world, and found it very interesting. I've since downloaded a complete audio book of his biography, and listen to it when I paint sometimes.

Now, finding someone to believe in may not be the right path for you, but that being said, I suggest you find someone, period. A role model, or a friend; someone to be in your thoughts figuratively and/or literally to companion you onward when that path which lays before you is covered in misleading shrubbery and you'd rather sit down for a while than take a step forward.

We are human. Emphasis on the word "we", and on the word "human". We are here together on this world, surviving together; we are comrades closer than the infinite clusters of stars beyond us. And we are human; we are not perfect, we make mistakes; but we have an innate ability to do the impossible.

Perhaps.

But what, inconsequentially, would happen going to said medical practitioner is that they would write me a prescription to whatever monotonous drug/pill that might help. The issue here is that I desperately am in need of a job to help pay for items; that in the near future will be costing me quite dearly. Such item would be the speeding ticket that I received a few months prior to this one (that will be decided at the court hearing on the 20th of April).

It isn't very expensive to go to a doctor once. Also there are probably free clinics you could try.

I don't have health insurance. So doctor is out of the deal.

May I speak honestly? That sounds very much like the exact thing I was going through before I recognized my clinical depression. Actually, that was pretty much my life before I hit rock-freaking-bottom, got myself diagnosed, and got myself medicated. Your post was like looking back on my thought processes back in those days.

I'm a huge believer in only taking meds when necessary, but I'd talk to a doctor about this, 'cause it may (stress may) be depression, and that doesn't go away by itself.