i am writing this letter also after coming to a realisation. when somebody told me that i haven't come home happy on a friday in a while even after winning. (1 Year)
Now my situation is this, we are 4 players at our LGS that are Judges/Organizers
I have long dreamed about being both, consider i have played this game since i was 12 year old and i am now 24.
Now i will not mention their real names so lets call them Sorin,Tibalt, and Venser for now.
Now bear in mind that i have tried to become an organizer for our store before the three others even started playing magic in my town. there are 4 weeks and the schedule for holding FNM looks like this
--------------------------------------
Week 1 - Venser
Week 2 - Sorin
Week 3 - Tibalt
Week 4 - Venser
Call Liliana (This is me) if stand in is needed
---------------------------------------
Now, we are 4 people, and he wants two weeks, so i am left being the "Stand-in" i ask them whats the reason behind this, they just look at me like i am stupid, and they say i don't know we are to many as it is. i remind him that i tried to become an organizer before the other two and even have held more tournaments then Sorin has.
after they just deny that i will get a week i tell Venser ill quit judging and organizing and i want a break from magic as this is kinda breaking my spirit. Venser calls me up the next day telling me not to quit he just wants me to make beginners more comfortable around me. as they apparently felt intimated by my play style (i have heard around with this. this is untrue. i let people correct their mistakes and so on) i tell him okey, why didn't you just tell me so ill improve and after a while you let me have my place. he tells me yes and some time goes. they use me as their stand in 3 times only during 4 months. the other times they just changed their weeks around.
after a while we all travel to a judge conference except Tibalt, he doesn't see the point in becoming a judge. i failed the test a second time. during our travel back from the conference Venser told me i would get his weeks during April and forward as he would need to study, i told him thank you i would appreciate it. now we are in may. and i only have held game day cause i asked for it. i am sick of being ignored and left out i am sick of their behavior
i feel their reasoning for not letting me get a week is that they get their FNM for free, and they also receive gift cards the more people that shows up. now Venser has been hoarding gift cards for Eternal Master while Tibalt and Sorin exchange their weeks what they do with their Gift cards i don't want to know but i think they hoard them too. basically these guys have a job and everything and they just leeching off.
Sorin has a real "i don't care" attitude he even says it out loud, he even brags about his FNM being free. and that it doesn't matter if he loses cause the cards are free. (makes it easy for him to smile when losing?) i never felt he has done anything to make more people showed up beside borrowing somebody a legacy deck once
Tibalt has the habit of winning and even after taking first place he will say out loud that "i got first place for free how neat" we basically had to spread out the prizes cause people where tired of him getting FNM for free plus 6-8 Boosters every Friday.
Venser i really don't have an issue with, except the has the habit of leaving me in the dark. like when he promised me his place but then didn't say anything
Now if me Liliana holds i usually have to pay oh yes, i have held tournaments on Saturdays where i payed from my own pockets. and for FNMS so far i have only received a gift card but it doesn't really matter that much, the point is im sick of this. they getting things for free, while having great cards and jobs, and i am stuck being denied becoming something i dreamed about since i was a kid. and without a job. i have used money i don't have a lot of times just so i could support our community, i have given my prizes that i have won to new players, i made new players show up. i have tried including people by reaching out and actually talk to them.
Now what tipped the glass? there is a new stand in. there is a 5th person now and they are juggling between us.
and i am writing cause i wonder is this normal between organizers and judges? to be caught like this by ignorance? am i wrong? am i the one who's at fault or is this actually unjust cause i kinda feel really ignored and left in the dark and it has made magic really sad for me. and the conclusion that i have reached is that.....
Now my situation is this, we are 4 players at our LGS that are Judges/Organizers
I have long dreamed about being both, consider i have played this game since i was 12 year old and i am now 24.
Now i will not mention their real names so lets call them Sorin,Tibalt, and Venser for now.
Now bear in mind that i have tried to become an organizer for our store before the three others even started playing magic in my town. there are 4 weeks and the schedule for holding FNM looks like this
--------------------------------------
Week 1 - Venser
Week 2 - Sorin
Week 3 - Tibalt
Week 4 - Venser
Call Liliana (This is me) if stand in is needed
---------------------------------------
Now, we are 4 people, and he wants two weeks, so i am left being the "Stand-in" i ask them whats the reason behind this, they just look at me like i am stupid, and they say i don't know we are to many as it is. i remind him that i tried to become an organizer before the other two and even have held more tournaments then Sorin has.
after they just deny that i will get a week i tell Venser ill quit judging and organizing and i want a break from magic as this is kinda breaking my spirit. Venser calls me up the next day telling me not to quit he just wants me to make beginners more comfortable around me. as they apparently felt intimated by my play style (i have heard around with this. this is untrue. i let people correct their mistakes and so on) i tell him okey, why didn't you just tell me so ill improve and after a while you let me have my place. he tells me yes and some time goes. they use me as their stand in 3 times only during 4 months. the other times they just changed their weeks around.
after a while we all travel to a judge conference except Tibalt, he doesn't see the point in becoming a judge. i failed the test a second time. during our travel back from the conference Venser told me i would get his weeks during April and forward as he would need to study, i told him thank you i would appreciate it. now we are in may. and i only have held game day cause i asked for it. i am sick of being ignored and left out i am sick of their behavior
i feel their reasoning for not letting me get a week is that they get their FNM for free, and they also receive gift cards the more people that shows up. now Venser has been hoarding gift cards for Eternal Master while Tibalt and Sorin exchange their weeks what they do with their Gift cards i don't want to know but i think they hoard them too. basically these guys have a job and everything and they just leeching off.
Sorin has a real "i don't care" attitude he even says it out loud, he even brags about his FNM being free. and that it doesn't matter if he loses cause the cards are free. (makes it easy for him to smile when losing?) i never felt he has done anything to make more people showed up beside borrowing somebody a legacy deck once
Tibalt has the habit of winning and even after taking first place he will say out loud that "i got first place for free how neat" we basically had to spread out the prizes cause people where tired of him getting FNM for free plus 6-8 Boosters every Friday.
Venser i really don't have an issue with, except the has the habit of leaving me in the dark. like when he promised me his place but then didn't say anything
Now if me Liliana holds i usually have to pay
Now what tipped the glass? there is a new stand in. there is a 5th person now and they are juggling between us.
and i am writing cause i wonder is this normal between organizers and judges? to be caught like this by ignorance? am i wrong? am i the one who's at fault or is this actually unjust cause i kinda feel really ignored and left in the dark and it has made magic really sad for me. and the conclusion that i have reached is that.....
I give up...