Kroen, I seriously can't comprehend this thread.
You are 18.
You should know better by now.
Teenage girls are the main demographic of cutters, and most of them grow out of it.
By and large, you just have to STOP.
A supposed treatment for cutting is snapping yourself with a rubber band whenever you feel the urge to cut.
Honestly, people don't trade one incredibly unhealthy addiction for a dangerous one usually.
But it is pretty clear from the replies on this thread that your judgement is seriously flawed, and you need someone to step in and get you help, because you aren't listening to anyone in this thread.
Cutting is never acceptable, healthy, or 'not a big deal'.
I think I will try that helpline. And if that won't work, well I guess I can tell my parents I want to go a psycologist without telling them I'm cutting myself. I'll see how it works and I'll come back here to tell you. Anyway tnx.
How is that 'not listening'?
p.s. BTW, I'm going to call that helpline this evening. I'll see where I go from there.
For just 24 hours I would like to have a healing power like wolverine's; that way I could cut myself over and over again without worrying about the consequences. Yeah, it's sad, I know.
Madness X (This creature comes into play with X madness counters on it. Whenever it attacks, blocks, or uses an activated ability, remove a counter from it. When you remove the last one, sacrifice it.)
I think I will try that helpline. And if that won't work, well I guess I can tell my parents I want to go a psycologist without telling them I'm cutting myself. I'll see how it works and I'll come back here to tell you. Anyway tnx.
Belive me, I DO NOT want to be in the mud. cutting myself is not fun; if I didn't had any problems, and if I never would've smoked, then cutting myself would just be plain pain. Now THAT'S stupid. But the way it is, cutting covers ALOT of my problems. Physical pain is much better than mental one, and even better than the feeling of "I have to smoke".
Yes, I know it's not okay, that's why I opened this thread, but what can I do? set an appointment to a phycologist myself? the way I see it there are three options:
1) Keep cutting myself, and ignore all the problems.
2) Telling my parents, wich can lead to me being sent to an instutution.
3) Move out.
Option 1 is what I'm doing right now, and we all know it's not a good one.
Option 2 is too much of a risk; they could send me to an instutution regardless of what I'll tell them, because the only words they'lll hear is "me" and "cutting myself", ignoring the rest.
Option 3 is impractical, because it's too much money.
I guess the only thing I can do is to try to approach my parents in some proper way, a way to keep them relaxed and not freaked out and immidiatley send me packing. But I do not know of such way yet.
Did you ever think that maybe getting time away from your parents in an ordered setting might be just where you need to start from in dealing with your stress levels?
I really think you owe it to them to be honest. Any reasonable parent would recommend you seek help, and not blame you or threaten to put you in an institution. Also, I don't know how it works in your country, but here in the US if you're under 18 your parents have a lot to say about your making medical decisions. Leaving them out of things means your options for help might be severely limited, both financially and ethically.
Lastly, If your parents aren't on board with what's going on with you, not only can they not help you, but if they are contributing to the problem in some way, they won't stop.
You cried for help, people in this thread have been answering, now either listen or don't but for crissake think about what people are saying and not just keep coming back with "Yes but..."
I'm 18 and some if it makes a difference...
And believe me, from harshly taught experience, I know my parents. Here's an almost one-to-one conversation that would accur if I'll tell my parents:
Me: Mom, I need to tell you something.
Mom: What is it.
*me revealing sleeves, showing the cuts*
Mom: Are all of these from a fence? from a fall? what is it realy all about? Did someone beat you?
Me: I did it to myself.
Mom: You did WHAT?! Are you crazy? Why on earth would you do that?
Me: It's just all the prolems I'm having recently... it helps forget them.
Mom: Well that's too bad. You better stop doing it or I'm sending you to an institution.
That, more or less, would be the result. And I hate the fact that everytime I open my mouth and complain to my parents about my issues all they do is yell. Instatnly yell. They think all would go away if they just yell and force me to stop doing what I'm doing or else...
The only real solution is to move out, that's way I could litteraly run away from my problems. I could live the way I want to, and how I want to. I won't ever again would have to confront my parents. But that's quite impossible at the moment... it takes alot of money wich I don't have. I realy am here deep in the mud.
Yeah, that's a good advice, but the only thing is that my problems (atleast some of them) involves my parents, and I know them too well. If I'll tell them I'm cutting myself they would think I got insane and send me to some institute... wich I realy don't want to go to.
And BTW, SnoopDogg, I'm not cutting myself too harsh; all the cuts I make heal in a matter of weeks.
More seriously, professional help FTW. There are people out there who can help you through just about anything, and this, remarkably as it seems, is rather common. It will take a while, but between cigarettes, cutting, and Magic (okay, maybe not the last one), you'll soon be able to manage all your habits.
BTW, good job getting yourself to quit smoking so fast, and I hope your "tortures" stay away. Not smoking is one of the healthiest things someone can do for him(her?)self.
Any thoughts?
Trust me when I say that the pain of cutting yourself overcome those lousy insmoking pain... hell, it even overcome mental pain.
Before it was the rush of inhaling smoke and flow it from the mouth.
Now its the rush of watching your own blood drips... the thing is that it's not realy addictive; it's not like niccotine of cafein; this I can realy stop whenever I want to. But the thing is that for now that's the only thing that keeps me insane (wich is, ironicly, a something that most people would call a mental problem on its own). And finding just a hobby to relace it with that is not as easy; why? because "Some hobby" won't help me deal with (okay, forget) my problems. And that's why it's so hard to stop. The only thing that before that helped me forger my problems was smoking... and seriously I got to say that smkoing doesn't help as half as cutting myself... it's just the sensation of pure pain, that managed to make me forget even the worst of problems... for these few spectacular days all I care about is some stuiped cut... no outside problems, no desire to smoke... only a physical pain.
p.s. yes, I'm screwd, I know that.
Not so much worried about turn 1, but that you'l have access to three mana turn two, which may not be that bad, but I've playtested with a land that CIPT and produces 2 mana. It's insane what being able to play spells 1 turn earlier than intended can be, not matter a 1-life a turn drawback. Just keep that in mind.
Umm... BoP? Evles? yeah, they're so broken... I mean, three mana turn 2 is insane... BoP, elves, and the like should be banned.
Yeah, you probably right, however it's not as easy to do as it's easy to write.
Anyway, I thought of a creative way to stop doing it: doing tattoos. It hurts (so they say) and it alsaw usefull. Only problem is that my family religious, and according to our bible tattoos are unallowed.. (I persoanlly don't care anything about the religion, but my parents do, and I don't want them to know before I leave the house... if that. anyway long story.)
Does the pain feel good? I know personally that pain can provide a very exciting stimulation. Sometimes I find myself almost unconciously digging a spiked bracelet into the back of my hand or striking myself across the forearm with a strip of leather just to stimulate myself.
The key to stopping is attempting to understand your thoughts as you cut. Do you have trouble releasing emotions? Do you feel like you need some kind of stimulation? Do you feel emotionally numb at times? These are all questions you should ask yourself.
Unfortunally, the answer is "yes" to all of your questions. Now what?
I hope so too.
How is that 'not listening'?
p.s. BTW, I'm going to call that helpline this evening. I'll see where I go from there.
Next: Horsemanship
Yes, it is. However I got released due to "mental issues", as they stated. But anyway how is that have to do with the thread's topic?
Yes, I know it's not okay, that's why I opened this thread, but what can I do? set an appointment to a phycologist myself? the way I see it there are three options:
1) Keep cutting myself, and ignore all the problems.
2) Telling my parents, wich can lead to me being sent to an instutution.
3) Move out.
Option 1 is what I'm doing right now, and we all know it's not a good one.
Option 2 is too much of a risk; they could send me to an instutution regardless of what I'll tell them, because the only words they'lll hear is "me" and "cutting myself", ignoring the rest.
Option 3 is impractical, because it's too much money.
I guess the only thing I can do is to try to approach my parents in some proper way, a way to keep them relaxed and not freaked out and immidiatley send me packing. But I do not know of such way yet.
I'm 18 and some if it makes a difference...
And believe me, from harshly taught experience, I know my parents. Here's an almost one-to-one conversation that would accur if I'll tell my parents:
Me: Mom, I need to tell you something.
Mom: What is it.
*me revealing sleeves, showing the cuts*
Mom: Are all of these from a fence? from a fall? what is it realy all about? Did someone beat you?
Me: I did it to myself.
Mom: You did WHAT?! Are you crazy? Why on earth would you do that?
Me: It's just all the prolems I'm having recently... it helps forget them.
Mom: Well that's too bad. You better stop doing it or I'm sending you to an institution.
That, more or less, would be the result. And I hate the fact that everytime I open my mouth and complain to my parents about my issues all they do is yell. Instatnly yell. They think all would go away if they just yell and force me to stop doing what I'm doing or else...
The only real solution is to move out, that's way I could litteraly run away from my problems. I could live the way I want to, and how I want to. I won't ever again would have to confront my parents. But that's quite impossible at the moment... it takes alot of money wich I don't have. I realy am here deep in the mud.
And BTW, SnoopDogg, I'm not cutting myself too harsh; all the cuts I make heal in a matter of weeks.
Next: Split second
Trust me when I say that the pain of cutting yourself overcome those lousy insmoking pain... hell, it even overcome mental pain.
Before it was the rush of inhaling smoke and flow it from the mouth.
Now its the rush of watching your own blood drips... the thing is that it's not realy addictive; it's not like niccotine of cafein; this I can realy stop whenever I want to. But the thing is that for now that's the only thing that keeps me insane (wich is, ironicly, a something that most people would call a mental problem on its own). And finding just a hobby to relace it with that is not as easy; why? because "Some hobby" won't help me deal with (okay, forget) my problems. And that's why it's so hard to stop. The only thing that before that helped me forger my problems was smoking... and seriously I got to say that smkoing doesn't help as half as cutting myself... it's just the sensation of pure pain, that managed to make me forget even the worst of problems... for these few spectacular days all I care about is some stuiped cut... no outside problems, no desire to smoke... only a physical pain.
p.s. yes, I'm screwd, I know that.
Umm... BoP? Evles? yeah, they're so broken... I mean, three mana turn 2 is insane... BoP, elves, and the like should be banned.
Anyway, I thought of a creative way to stop doing it: doing tattoos. It hurts (so they say) and it alsaw usefull. Only problem is that my family religious, and according to our bible tattoos are unallowed.. (I persoanlly don't care anything about the religion, but my parents do, and I don't want them to know before I leave the house... if that. anyway long story.)
Unfortunally, the answer is "yes" to all of your questions. Now what?